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About Me

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See the animal in his cage that you built
Are you sure what side you're on?
Better not look him too closely in the eye
Are you sure what side of the glass you are on?
See the safety of the life you have built
Everything where it belongs
Feel the hollowness inside of your heart
And it's all...
right where it belongs
What if everything around you
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you think you know
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection
Is it all you want it to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks
Would you find yourself...
find yourself afraid to see?
What if all the world's inside of your head?
Just creations of your own
Your devils and your gods all the living and the dead
And you're really all alone
You can live in this illusion
You can choose to believe
You keep looking but you can't find the woods
While you're hiding in the trees
What if everything around you
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you used to know
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection
Is that all you want to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks
Would you find yourself...
find yourself afraid to see?
- Nine Inch Nails ================================================
"The world is like a ride in an amusement park. And when you choose to go on it you think it's real because that's how powerful our minds are. And the ride goes up and down and round and round. It has thrills and chills and it's very brightly coloured and it's very loud and it's fun, for a while. Some people have been on the ride for a long time and they begin to question: "Is this real, or is this just a ride?" And other people have remembered, and they come back to us, they say, "Hey, don't worry, don't be afraid, ever, because this is just a ride." And we kill those people.
It's just a ride and we can change it any time we want. It's only a choice. No effort, no work, no job, no savings and money, a choice, right now, between fear and love. The eyes of fear want you to put bigger locks on your door, buy guns, close yourself off. The eyes of love instead see all of us as one." - Bill Hicks ================================================

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My Interests

My collection of Lawn Gnomes (at present count I own 72)
My Band, The Best Fake Cover Band EVER: Sunday Morning Peepshow!
Harassing Jen Rob
Getting Tattoos
Urban Abandonment
Paranormal Activity
Urban and Rural Exploration
Video Games (Esp. My new DS)
Guitar Hero
ROCK BAND
Wrestling
Being A Pain In the Ass
Sleeping
Fishing
Camping
Reading
Giving Advice
Writing
Action Figures
Zombies
Music (listening to and making)
Beef Jerky
Anime
WWE Raw Deal CCG
And I have an Affinity for Porn Stars as my friends list proudly shows

I'd like to meet:

I look at pictures of you because I'm afraid that you would notice me staring in real life. I looked at your picture today for countless minutes.I is close than I'll ever get to you for real. I felt like I was looking at a captured animal at a safe distance.If you know I was doing this, you would feel sickened and frightened. That's why you'll never know. Years will go by and you'll never know. I will never say the things that I want to say to you. I know the damage it would do. I love you more than I hate my loneliness and pain.

Somewhere someone is thinking of you.

Someone is calling you an angel.

This person is using celestial colors to paint your image.

Someone is making you into a vision so beautiful that it can only live in the mind.

Someone is thinking of the way your breath escapes your lips when you are touched.

How your eyes close and your jaw tightens with concentration as you give pleasure a home.

These thoughts are saving a life somewhere right now.

In some airless apartment on a dark, urine stained, whore lined street, someone is calling out to you silently and you are answering without even being there.

So crystalline.

So pure.

Such life saving power when you smile.

You will never know how you have cauterized my wounds.

So sad that we will never touch.

How it hurts me to know that I will never be able to give you everything I have.

-Henry Rollins.

Music:

Elvis Presley
Metallica
Nine Inch Nails
Lynyrd Skynyrd
Queens Of The Stone Age
Pink Floyd
Alice In Chains
Mad Season
Jerry Cantrell
Tool
A Perfect Circle
Puscifer
Peach
Black Label Society
Pantera
Rebel Meets Rebel
Down
Superjoint Ritual
Killswitch Engage
Shadows Fall
All That Remains
Demon Hunter
Fear Factory
Bullet For My Valentine
2Cents
Black Light Burns
Soilwork
Mudvayne
Devildriver
Trivium
Slipknot
Stone Sour
Type O Negative
Roadrunner United
Hatebreed
Lacuna Coil
Arch Enemy
Cold
Stabbing Westward
Depeche Mode
David Bowie
The Beatles
John Lennon
Jimi Hendrix
Led Zepplin
Bob Marley
Joe Strummer
The Doors
Black Sabbath
Ozzy Osbourne
Guns N Roses
The Allman Brothers
Terry Reid
Counting Crows
Black Flag
The Clash
Tenacious D
Goldfinger
Ramones
Bad Religion
Greg Graffin
Stone Temple Pilots
Faith No More
Nirvana
Soundgarden
Pearl Jam
AC DC
Green Day
U2
Radiohead
Tori Amos
Foo Fighters
White Zombie
Rob Zombie
Motorhead
Minor Threat
Coldplay
Staind
Pop Will Eat Itself
Clint Mansell
Danny Elfman
Marilyn Manson
Powerman 5000
The Misfits
Danzig
Biohazard
E Town Concrete
Tom Jones
Spice Girls
Blondie
Social Distortion
Mike Ness
B.B. King
Otis Rush
Buddy Guy
Leadbelly
Stevie Ray Vaughn
John Lee Hooker
Life Of Agony
Prong
Korn
Sepultura
KMFDM
MDFMK
Mortiis
Pig
Ministry
Filter
Iggy Pop
Uncle Kracker
Everlast
N.E.R.D.
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Jane's Addiction
Porno For Pyros
Limp Bizkit
Pennywise
Velvet Revolver
Bloodhound Gang
Deftones
Godsmack
Rage Against The Machine
System Of A Down
Garbage
Prick
Rammstein
Smashing Pumpkins
Billy Idol
Fleetwood Mac
R.E.M.
Screaming Trees
God Lives Under Water
Gravity Kills
Run DMC
House Of Pain
Cypress Hill
Eminem
Dr. Dre
Justin Timberlake
The Beastie Boys
Weezer
Vision Of Disorder
Coal Chamber
Blood Simple
Primus
Transplants
Rancid
Toby Keith
Trace Adkins
Aerosmith
Linkin Park
Fall Out Boy
30 Seconds To Mars
Catfish Haven
My Chemical Romance
H.I.M.
GWAR
Muse
Bob Dylan
The Killers

Movies:

Pirates Of The Caribbean Trilogy
Eternal Sunshine Of the Spotless Mind
The Evil Dead Trilogy
The Man With The Screaming Brain
Pink Floyd's The Wall
One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest
Children Of Men
Clerks
Mallrats
Chasing Amy
Dogma
Jay & Silent Bob Strike Back
Jersey Girl
Clerks II
Drawning Flies
A Better Place
Vulgar
Now You Know
An Evening With Kevin Smith
An Evening With Kevin Smith 2
Superbad
Garden State
Black Snake Moan
Falling Down
Fight Club
Taxi Driver
Cape Fear
The Departed
Requiem For A Dream
Pi
The Fountain
Less Than Zero
The Rules Of Attraction
American Psycho
The Butterfly Effect
Se7en
8MM
The Salton Sea
Memento
The Number 23
Goodfellas
Sympathy For Mr. Vengence
Oldboy
Lady Vengence
Ichi: The Killer
The Neighbor No. 13
Being John Malkovich
SLC Punk
Where The Buffalo Roam
Fear & Loathing In Las Vegas
A Scanner Darkly
Lock, Stock & Two Smoking Barrels
Snatch
Smokin' Aces
Identity
Zodiac
Leon: The Professional
The Machinist
12 Monkeys
The Usual Suspects
Phonebooth
Vanilla Sky
American History X
One Hour Photo
Brick
Spun
Cruel Intentions
American Beauty
Donnie Darko
Jacob's Ladder
Panic Room
Natural Born Killers
Reservoir Dogs
Pulp Fiction
Jackie Brown
Kill Bill 1 & 2
Deathproof
Planet Terror
Boondock Saints
Way Of the Gun
The Aristocrats
The Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy
Equilibrium
Ultraviolet
Legend
The Lord Of the Rings Trilogy
Braveheart
Dark City
They Live
Hell Comes To Frogtown
The Alien Series
Predator 1 & 2
Alien Vs. Predator
Re-Animator Series
Shaun Of the Dead
Cemetery Man (Dellamorte Dellamore)
Dead & Breakfast
Darkman Trilogy
Dead Alive
Slither
Night Of The Living Dead
Dawn Of the Dead
Day Of The Dead
Land Of The Dead
The Serpent & The Rainbow
The Resident Evil Series
Undead
28 Days Later
28 Weeks Later
Return Of The Living Dead Series
Zombi Series
House Of 1000 Corpses
The Devil's Rejects
The Saw Series
Bubba Ho-Tep
Dagon
The Ginger Snaps Trilogy
Feast
Event Horizon
Underworld 1 & 2
The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (all)
Friday The 13th (all)
Nightmare On Elm Street (all)
From Dusk Til Dawn
The Blair Witch 1 & 2
3 Extremes
The Ringu/The Ring Series
Willard
Silent Hill
Creepshow 1 & 2
The Hills Have Eyes
Dark Water
Idle Hands
The People Under The Stairs
Star Wars (All)
The Indiana Jones Trilogy
The Back To The Future Trilogy
Ghostbusters 1 & 2
The Monster Squad
The Frighteners
Rent
Haggard
Mitchell
The Big Lebowski
Kingpin
Vanishing Point
Harley Davidson & The Marlboro Man
Tango & Cash
Road House
3000 Miles To Graceland
Wayne's World 1 & 2
The Samurai Trilogy
The Last Samurai
The Duel
Unforgiven
Tombstone
Deadman
The Godfather Trilogy
The Dukes Of Hazzard
Bill & Ted's Excellent Adventure
Bill & Ted's Bogus Journey
Billy Madison
Happy Gilmore
Big Daddy
The Wedding Singer
Click
50 First Dates
Moving Violations
Anchorman
Talledega Nights
Duck Soup
Dorm Daze 1 & 2
Kingpin
Jackass 1 & 2
Napoleon Dynamite
Cabin Boy
Encino Man
Biodome
Dazed & Confused
Cannonball Run
Cannonball Run 2
The Breakfast Club
Young Frankenstein
Animal House
The Blues Brothers
Monty Python & The Holy Grail
Hellboy
Hellboy Animated
Constantine
Sin City
From Hell
The Austin Powers Trilogy
Dude, Where's My Car?
Strangeland
Hatred Of A Minute
May
Pulse
Ghoulies 1 & 2
Darkness
Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children
The Dead Next Door
BioZombie
The Dead Hate The Living
Stacy
Mystery Science Theater 3000: The Movie
The Devil's Backbone
Brotherhood Of The Wolf
City Of Lost Children
Pan's Labyrinth
Dr. Strangelove

Television:

Mystery Science Theater 3000
The X-Files
The Lone Gunmen
Millennium
Lost
Heroes
Supernatural
Northern Exposure
The Adventures Of Brisco County Jr
Jack Of All Trades
Scrubs
My Name Is Earl
Buffy The Vampire Slayer
Angel
Tales From The Crypt
Penn And Teller: Bullshit!
Ghost Hunters
Mythbusters
Dirty Jobs
Weird US
Pushing Daisies
Reaper
Six Feet Under
House
The Twilight Zone
Deadwood
Dead Like Me
Masters Of Horror
Trigun
Gungrave
Cowboy Bebop
Outlaw Star
Hellsing
FLCL
Golden Boy
Cromartie High School
Attack Of The Show
X Play
WWE Raw
ECW
WWE Smackdown
TNA Impact
UFC
MXC
Charles In Charge
Freaks & Geeks
Dukes Of Hazzard
Ed The Sock's Late Night Party
Late Night With Conan O'Brien
The Daily Show
The Colbert Report
Law And Order
Law And Order SVU
Law And Order CI
The Sopranos
Lucky Louie
Seinfeld
American Chopper
Deadliest Catch
Married With Children
Three's Company
Jackass
The Simpsons
Futurama
Family Guy
American Dad
Robot Chicken
Metalocalypse
Ren and Stimpy
Aqua Teen Hunger Force
Squidbillies
Spawn
Animaniacs
Tiny Toon Adventures
Warner Bros. Cartoons
Tom & Jerry
Scooby Doo
Even Stevens
Lilo and Stitch
Teen Titans
The Fairly Odd Parents
Foster's Home For Imaginary Friends
Dog the Bounty Hunter
I watch too much T.V.

Books:

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Less Than Zero
The Rules Of Attraction
American Psycho
The Informers
Glamorama
Lunar Park
------------Bret Easton Ellis.
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Fight Club
Survivor
Invisible Monsters
Choke
Lullaby
Fugitives & Refugees
Diary
Stranger Than Fiction
Haunted
Rant: An Oral Biography of Buster Casey
------------Chuck Palaniuk.
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Stardust
Angels & Visitations
Good Omens
Neverwhere
American Gods
Smoke and Mirrors
Anansi Boys
Fragile Things
---------------Neil Gaiman.
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The Hitchhikers Guide To The Galaxy
The Resturant At The End Of The Universe
Life, The Universe And Everything
So Long, And Thanks For All The Fish
Mostly Harlmess
-------------Douglas Adams.
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Fear and Loathing In Las Vegas
The Rum Diary
The Great Shark Hunt
-Dr. Hunter S. Thompson.
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The Portable Henry Rollins
Black Coffee Blues
Solipsist
Roomanitarian
You've Seen A Grown Man Cry, Now Watch Him Die
------------------Henry Rollins.
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Hannibal Rising
Red Dragon
The Silence Of The Lambs
Hannibal
---------------Thomas Harris.
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Spook (Science Tackles The Afterlife)
------------------Mary Roach.
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The Beach
The Coma
------------Alex Garland.
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The Da Vinci Code
Angels and Demons
------------------Dan Brown.
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Desperation
The Regulators
Needful Things
Storm Of The Century
-----------------Stephen King.
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Jurassic Park
The Lost World
Rising Sun
---------Michael Crichton.
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If Chins Could Kill:Confessions Of A B Movie Actor
Make Love! The Bruce Campbell Way
-----------Bruce Campbell.
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When Will God Bring the Porkchops?
Napalm & Sillyputty
Brain Droppings
--------------George Carlin.
--------------------------- The Strange Case Of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde
- Robert Louis Stevenson
The Zombie Survival Guide
- Max Brooks
Mankind
Foley Is Good
- Mick Foley.
In the pit with Piper
- Rowdy Roddy Piper
Cheating death, Stealing life
- Eddie Guererro
Hardcore History: The Extremely Unauthorized Story of ECW
- Scott E. Williams
More Than Just Hardcore
- Terry Funk
To Be The Man
- Ric Flair
Positively Page
- Diamond Dallas Page
Cash: The Autobiography
- Johnny Cash
The Secret Life Of Houdini
- William Kalush and Larry Sloman
I Am Legend
- Richard Matherson.
Requiem For A Dream
- Hubert Selby jr.
Maribu Stork Nightmares
- Irvine Welsh.
The Contortionist's Handbook
- Craig Clevenger.
House Of Leaves
- Mark Z. Danielewski.
Silent Bob Speaks
- Kevin Smith.
The Long Hard Road Out Of Hell
- Marilyn Manson.
Nothing Sacred
- Lewis Black.
The Black Seas Of Infinity: The Best Of H.P. Lovecraft.
Weird U.S.(all of them)
Trigun Manga
Hellboy Comics
Army Of Darkness Comics

My Blog

R.I.P. Evel Knievel

CLEARWATER, Fla. (Nov. 30) - Evel Knievel, the red-white-and-blue-spangled motorcycle daredevil whose jumps over crazy obstacles including Greyhound buses, live sharks and Idaho's Snake River Canyon m...
Posted by Ever The Martyr on Sat, 01 Dec 2007 01:33:00 PST

R.I.P. Kevin Dubrow & Casey Calvert

LAS VEGAS (Nov. 26) - Kevin Dubrow, lead singer for the 1980s heavy metal band Quiet Riot that scored a hit with "Cum on Feel the Noize," was found dead in a Las Vegas home. He was 52.The cause was no...
Posted by Ever The Martyr on Tue, 27 Nov 2007 08:32:00 PST

R.I.P. Ira Levin

Ira Levin, a mild-mannered playwright and novelist who liked nothing better than to give people the creeps and who did so repeatedly, with best-selling novels like "Rosemary's Baby," "The Stepford ...
Posted by Ever The Martyr on Sun, 18 Nov 2007 03:52:00 PST

Remembering Harry Houdini.

The great magician Harry Houdini left this life 81 years ago today. Some say Houdini's premature death was caused in part by his reputation for bravado and superhuman strength. Born in Budapest, Hunga...
Posted by Ever The Martyr on Wed, 31 Oct 2007 11:13:00 PST

R.I.P. Robert Goulet

LOS ANGELES (Oct. 30) - Robert Goulet, the handsome, big-voiced baritone whose Broadway debut in "Camelot" launched an award-winning stage and recording career, has died. He was 73. The singer died Tu...
Posted by Ever The Martyr on Wed, 31 Oct 2007 07:10:00 PST

Something I wrote last year.. and besides, the time felt right to share some writing.

Up In Smoke. You embrace with such passion She leaves you something to remember When she wants you to forget So you smoke, not because you hate the memories You smoke one after another to cover up he...
Posted by Ever The Martyr on Sun, 07 Oct 2007 07:08:00 PST

To everyone who’s ever listened to me

Recently I overheard someone talking about someone I know, they talked about how this person complained that they wanted to get out of the house and do something or they'd go crazy, bitching about th...
Posted by Ever The Martyr on Sat, 29 Sep 2007 01:18:00 PST

Killswitch Engage - Still Beats Your Name

Who knows how long, I've been lost in the darkFollowed closely by the footsteps of my failuresWhat can I do, to alter my perception,of the way and the truth?Let this burden drift awayWho knows how lon...
Posted by Ever The Martyr on Thu, 27 Sep 2007 04:06:00 PST

Health, such a fleeting thing...

Ok, so I don't have to keep typing this out. My mother had a cardio cath done and it shows she needs her Aortic Valve replaced, the surgery for which will be happening in the next couple of weeks. No...
Posted by Ever The Martyr on Mon, 24 Sep 2007 06:38:00 PST

Untitled: Random Thoughts

Lately every time I try to explain how I feel the air gets thin and the room spins Too many things, too many emotions, too many people, it's all to much I need to clear my head, think of something go...
Posted by Ever The Martyr on Thu, 20 Sep 2007 08:41:00 PST