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MER TRAGER, bitch.

long ago, i drew a line across the sand, jumped across, and held your hand.

About Me


You know, everyone thinks I'm only half a
person - and since you left- they're all right.
i'm meredith. i play basketball for walton on jv. i play volleyball also. i love riding horses. valley view ranch is the only thing constant in my life. my friends from there, new and old, have become like sisters to me. i have a '97 red and gray jeep grand cherokee loredo and it's my baby. i'm a HUGE gators fan. i was born in jacksonville, Florida.. home of the j-ville jaguars =]. i love to party. kenzie's my best friend hands down. i'm not afraid to tell someone how i feel, and i'm proud of that. i don't live everyday like it's my last, because that's just unrealistic. i'm a human, sue me. ask for my screen name. =].
picture yourself in a boat on a river, with tangerine trees and marmalade skies. somebody calls you, you answer quite slowly. a girl with kaleidoscope eyes. look for the girl with the sun in her eyes.
just because you're leaving
doesn't mean i'm letting you go

So dont hold back now just let go,
On all youve ever known.
You can put your hand in mine.
"I'm the screw-up, remember? C'mon you remember... Don't do this to me. I DON'T DO ALONE REAL GOOD.. I know you're in there but it's like you're not really here. You're not talking but I know you're here. So I'm just gonna talk, you can listen."
"Do you know what Scooby did when Shaggy fell in the well?"
"This isn't a cartoon."
"He SAVED him. He saved him because he LOVED him."
"You know I love you." "Then why won't you save me?"
"so we're the only two people in the world who think there's still hope for him and me, and you're throwing in the towel?"
"Yeah."
"Okay, all right." [turns away]
"You okay?"
"Yeah, sure. It's a strange feeling though."
"What, that it's finally over between you and him?"
"No, being the only person who knows it's not. "
I wish
Wishing for you to find your way
And I'll hold on for all you need
That's all we need to say
I'll take my chances while
You take your time with
This game you play
But I can't control your soul
You need to let me know
You leaving or you gonna stay
but everybody knows its all about the things that get stuck inside of your head
Some days I can't believe
Others, I'm on my knees
Trying to be heard
I was your anger
And you were my fear
Now that it's over
Of course it's so clear
But you were no angel
And I was no sin
Somehow I can't let it go
You know I want to give you everything you want. But I can't. It's broken..
They didn't agree on much. In fact they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday... But in spite their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other.

but that
goodbye was
harder
than I ever
imagined. I'll
never forget
that boy


What's happened to you? You're not the same guy I remember.
You're right, I'm not. Now are you satisfied?
No, just disappointed.
I can't go back. What would it prove anyway? You can't change the past . You said you'd always be there for me. But you're not. It's because of me. It's my fault.
But you're not scared of anything!
Well, I was today.
You were?
Yes. I thought I might lose you.

There are bigger
things happening
here than
me and you.


I want to be there for you, I do, but I can't do this anymore. I can't keep being your second choice, not when you're my first.
And as for rules? maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of love, are something you have to define for yourself.
You know, everyone thinks I'm only half a person - and if you leave - they'll be right.
if he's dumb enough to walk away, be smart enough to let him go.
You gotta stop doing that.
What?
Saying things that make me wanna kiss you.
"how can she
fall for you
if you're not
there
to catch her?"

My Interests

I'd like to meet:



you spin you me right round baby
right round
like a record baby
righ round, right round.

so you want to know all
about me. who
i am
what chance meeting of
brush and canvas painted
the face
you see? what made
me despise the girl
in the mirror.
enough to transform her
turn her into a stranger
only not.
so you want to hear
the whole story. why
i swerved
off the high road,
hard left to nowhere
recklessly.
indifferent to those
coughing my dust,
picked up speed
no limits, no top end,
just a high velocit rush
into madness.

"who are you to judge the life i live? i know i'm not perfect- and i don't live to be. but before you start pointing fingers...make sure YOUR hands are clean."

"There will come a moment when you have the chance to do the right thing."
"I love those moments. I like to wave at them as they pass by."


FAKE FRiENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough.
REAl FRiENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say " Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste shit. "

i am nowhere near perfect
i eat when i am bored
i fall for boys easily
im vulnerable to believing lies
im hoping that one day i wont need a fake smile
i live by quotes that eplain exactly what i am going through
i make up excuses for everything
i have best friends and enemies
i have drama and memories
AND THATS LIFE. live it, love it.

"It's me and the moon," she says, "and i've got no trouble with that".

you'll have to decide for yourself, but the story I want to tell you is true. I was there and I remember. I remember the sun, the sky, and the wind calling my name in a time when we ran free. I'll never forget the sound and the feeling of running together. The hoof beats were many, but our hearts were one

I know what I have to do. But going back will mean facing my past. I've been running from it for so long. (hits him)
Oww. Jeez... What was that for?
It doesn't matter, it's in the past.
Yeah, but it still hurts.
Oh yes, the past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either run from it, or learn from it.

Listen, you think you can just show up and tell me how to live my life? You don't even know what I've been through!

I believe there's a hero in all of us, that keeps us honest, gives us strength, makes us noble, and finally allows us to die with pride, even though sometimes we have to be steady, and give up the thing we want the most. Even our dreams.

You know, a thousand people have said a thousand stupid things to me and I just wanted one of them to give me a reason not to die.

'no one pays to see her happy.'

Look, I'm gonna mess up because that's just what I do. But at least give me a chance to mess up. I mean, I'm capable of such stupidity that you'd be wasting my talent by ending this now.

People don't really want the truth, they just want good news



My Blog

BLM-- & ill never forget that boy.

i don't think people understand how easily we underestimate things and situations, and how little we appreciate. when you have a good thing, you aren't suppose to let it go, but we all do. we push awa...
Posted by MER TRAGER, bitch. on Mon, 02 Apr 2007 06:57:00 PST

i'm the real deal.

Name: Meredith Haley TragerBirthday: September 8th, 1990.Birthplace: Jacksonville, FloridaCurrent Location: East Cobb, Marietta, Georgia.Eye Color: Blue-GrayHair Color: Natural Blonde, thanks.Height: ...
Posted by MER TRAGER, bitch. on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 05:58:00 PST

close to empty

the monster laughed out loud.i wondered if i would ever feel completely human again.                     &...
Posted by MER TRAGER, bitch. on Mon, 28 Aug 2006 03:33:00 PST

the monster;

some might call it distorted realitybut it's exactly the place i need to be.   even good girls have secretsones even their best friends must guess   not quite asleepnot quite consciousnot qu...
Posted by MER TRAGER, bitch. on Wed, 23 Aug 2006 07:17:00 PST

introduction;

so you want to know allabout me. who         &nb sp;         &nb sp;       &n...
Posted by MER TRAGER, bitch. on Wed, 23 Aug 2006 05:09:00 PST