Writing. Music. Surfing. Building a relationship with God so i can eventually realize freedom from the chains and burdens of this world and all that will not last forever, that seek to take us away from the large story that preceded entry into this world and extends into eternity. I guess i just want something more to say my life is about than what people normally do.. you know..college job, better job, etc..following some cardboard dream instead of what is truly in the heart..which will slowly crumble when ignored for long enough leaving us with wet cardboard at the end of it all. This is very real, and there is nothing anyone can ever say to me, or anything that could ever happen to me in this life that can convince me of any other way. I am still me, i finally just have a voice in my head that for once i can trust, one that knows everything about me and the more i listen to it, the more things get clearer for me and the closer i get to finding what im really about.
"...be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now."-Letters to a Young PoetLove anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket - safe, dark, motionless, airless - it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.C.S. Lewisi guess my main interest in life is to feel EVERYTHING no matter how painful or eye opening it may be..and no matter how much my ego, pride or preconceptions about life have to be altered. To be truly happy, one has to understand and face the fire of his own pain. Depression and other menatl issues occur when our souls indicate their dismay at what our earth vehicles are doing to it.
If we are dead in life, how will we ever live after death?
musicians and visionaries, good people to jam with.
Fun people to hang with.
“Now I know what I’ve been looking for all these years – myself! I’ve been waiting for me to come along! And now I’ve swept myself off my feet!â€--Jerry SeinfeldArtistic, articulate, challenging people that can give me something better to do then grow fat on constant success and validation.. i know who i am and now its time to push it to the next level.. theres not alot of time in my life for empty stagnant relationships or unsubstantial nights of killing brain cells. If i must kill a few, a few must grow as well lol
bRecently: Submarines, stars, red house painters, travis, navio forge, ratatat, controller.controller., the anniversary, keane, jets to brazil, Nina Gordon, Do Make Say Think, Bright Eyes, postal service, Sunny Day Real Estate, pedro the lion, north of america, jens lekman, death cab, Muse, the fray, Damien Rice, Madeleine Peyroux, panic at the disco,get up kids, tiger army, Tom waits, Broken Social Scene, Emm Gryner, jewel, fugazi, hayden, Ted Leo and the Pharmacists, cursive, Chet Baker, John Coltrane, Bruce springsteen, beck, appleseed cast, antioc arrow, Nick Cave, Embrace, My Chemical Romance, coheed and cambria, Evergreen Terrace, Hank Williams SR and III, Auf Der Maur, Leslie Feist, Portishead, Leonard Cohen, Elliot Smith, Porno for Pyros, AIM, Adam Cohen, Billy Joel, Michelle Branch, Pixies, Explosions in the Sky, Modest Mouse, Kris Kristopherson, Propagandhi
All Time: Nirvana, soundgarden, STP, pearl jam, Leonard Cohen, Prapagandhi, blue rodeo,sonic youth, Social D and Mike Ness, nine inch nails, hum, alice in chains and Jerry Cantrell, mudhoney, sabbath, Ozzy, pennywise, nofx, black flag, rollins band, screaching weasel, Bad Religion, RATM, DK, Weezer, Dire Straits, Morrissey, The Smiths, the fluid, Smashing Pumpkins, Nightwish, After Forever, Meat Puppets, Seputura, Misfits, Danzig, the stones, Alice Cooper, Led Zeppelin, Busta Rhymes, 2pac, Cradle of Filth, Mother Love Bone, pink floyd, hendrix, doors,In Flames, Guns and roses, Type O negative, Propagandhi, Radiohead, Doors, Filter, old Korn, porno for pyros, deftones, Rem, Dream Theatre
Naw, my mind tries to rely on reality and truth, not pacification and pollution.
Ive been reading John Eldridge books, Farley Mowatt and whatever else i have lying around at the time.The Confessions of Saint Augustine
Nineteen Eighty-four
The works of Veronica Franco (1546-1591) A poet and courtesan in sixteenth-century Venice.
Veronica Franco
Hers's a story lived and written by my cousin, Jason.. AMAZING!! Jason's Tsunami story
The creative force of nature and love. My parents, myself and a vast array of musicians and saints.