Eileen

My love is sincere, never made up. When I love, I love purely, and it lasts forever. If I fall in love with a male, it never goes away. All that I lose is hope, and with that loss of hope, I incorporate my love into my persona, and push it to the back of my heart, making more room for others, and things. I can sit for hours at mt sac and watch the trees dance in the wind. the small branches wave to me and the leaves create a song for me. The machines talk to me and the people share thier lives with me. I feel like I am a part of the world when I sit there and do not speak. We are all one big entity and I am the heart and mind narrating in my journal to keep the memories fresh in my mind. And because I do not write as wonderfully as my idol, here is a description from her, which coincidentally describes me as well: "I am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger as reason. I am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. Anything I cannot transform into something marvelous, I let go. Reality doesn't impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls." - Anais Nin - July 7, 1934 from "Incest"