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I don't like the feeling. You're sitting there, you're wondering, "Do I have food on my face? Am I eating? Am I talking too much? Are they talking enough? Am I interested? I'm not really interested. Should I play like I'm interested? But I'm not that interested, but I think she might be interested. But do I want to be interested? But now she's not interested." So now, all of sudden I'm... I'm starting to get interested.

And when am I supposed to kiss her? Do I have to wait for the door? 'Cause then it's awkward, it's like "Well, good night." Do you do like the ass-out hug? Where you like... you hug each other like this, and the ass sticks out because you're trying not to get too close. Or do you go right in and just kiss 'em on the lips or don't kiss 'em at all?

It's very difficult trying to read the situation and all the while you're just really wondering, "Are we gonna get hopped enough to make some bad decisions?" And perhaps play a little game called "Just the Tip." Just for a second, just to see how it feels, or "Ouch Ouch, You're on My Hair."

My previous affirmations sucked ass - they weren't written by me and I apparently didn't read them very thouroughly - I apologize to any of you that wasted your time. Here are the real things to give two craps about:

1) Be True to Yourself: Never let anyone tell you that you are wrong for being true to your nature.
2) Act it Out: Feel Empowered the moment you have an urge, take action and feel confident that you are doing what feels right
3) Have No Fear: End your day knowing that you have been true in convictions and acted when you had the opportunity. You were the master of your day.
4) Love: You are beautiful - others see it but fear the vulnerability of expressing it. You know it but fear the commitment of feeling it. You Fucking Rock - And you Know It - let Others KNOW you KNOW it by standing up and doing what is right NOW!

That's my peice for today - if you don't think I'm crazy, then you're on the path. Now let's have some fun =)

They want us to fight but we just wanna get high
Work all day all night tryin to get fly
When I get some money imma buy me some time
I cant fight your war until I’m finished with mine

I used to be mad at the government
Redirected some of my anger towards the mother ship
Tryin to guess which shell living hell sleeps under
When the grand scheme plan keeps all these people wondering
Why we still runnin in place frustrated
Pride is mistaken for hate it’s upgraded
I got a little breath left let’s suffocate it
Point at the epiphanies and call ‘em all drug related
The time I spent with my life on bent
Tryin to find the friends inside my head
Must have disengaged every phase of the stage
With my I’m coming I’m coming I’m coming of age
My unofficial autobio
Will be accompanied with tips on how to smile
Cuz I found that when they don’t see you frown
They never know that you’re a threat and they don’t sweat you
When you come around
So who’s gonna be my next door savior
Step up to your neighbor and do me a favor
Take off the mask let it all collapse
Empty the pack and watch your wings grow back

society becomes jealousy
intimacy becomes intensity
say it with a smile like it’s meant to be
and all of a sudden BOOM American family
and I could tell when you’re mad at your past
because you tend to take them turns just a little too fast
I could tell how you pushed your foot on the gas
that you already knew that you was gonna finish last
slow it down and take a little time
to look up at them clouds with that fake silver lining
up in a tree knowin damn well you’ll never reach the top
but you don’t stop.. you keep climbing
well O-K it’s settled
no more nights in this weed and thorn infested metal
uh uh from this day forth only forward I pedal
get the memo I’m cutting the strings Geppetto
shuffle the cards and let’s argue
rooted in between the computer games and cartoons
stop it watch us all get lost
between God and a shot of scotch
let’s get fly

Activism, Bowling, Breaks, Chess, Classic Rock, Darts, DnB, Evolution, Growing, HipHop, House, Learning, Love, Mechanics, Nature, Personal responsibility, Physics, Pool, Shit talking, Spiritual Awareness, Teaching, Technology, Trance, Tribal, and the sounds of 1000 people in a room cheering.

Family Guy, 70's show, Futurama, History Channel, Comedy Central, CSPAN, Nature Channel, and the camera I hid in your bedroom

Spaceballs, Human Traffic, Spirited Away, LOTR, Pi, Star Wars, Dazed and Confused, CasaBlanca, Cheech and Chong, The Mating Rituals of Earthbound Humans.

Went to the Coachella 2006 toward the end of April - saw Daft Punk, Tool, Matisyahu, Atmosphere, The Zutons, The Ya Ya's, Massive Attack, Paul Oakenfold, Carl Cox, Los Amigos Invisibles, Ted Leo, Digable Planets, and Gnarls Barkley was there but I missed them!!

Spent two days in LA after the event - I'm convinced now that I need to move out to Cali, it's been TOO LONG here in Atlanta. I've been spending all my time between work going to shows - saw They Might be Giants the day after I got back - DJ Micro, Atmosphere, Collective Efforts, Zoraster. The trip inspired my work and lit a fire for artistic expression - hopefully soon I'll have some music to post here.