It Honestly, really, truly doesn't matter what I write about myself on here. Most people, including yourself, do not read it. The one thing I can say is; be true to yourself. Be true to who you are and what you're about, regardless of if other people agree with it or not. And, love as much as possible, forgive as often as you get the chance, and appreciate your parents. Cliché, I know. I have always wanted to be a Tenenbaum. My personality is chock-full of idiosyncrasies and moodiness, but generally I'm nice. I am vallium, waxdoll & the holyglamourpill. Lust is my muse & fragments make my being like biscuit crumbs on your fingertips & spaghetti in the wind; like a whimsical mess of chunky peanut butter carelessly spread on bread. If I had my own library, I would surely rule the world. I'll see you at the end of the world. I am the clockwork, I am the one who takes this thing called music and lines it up with this one thing called time. I am the ticking, I am the pulsing, I am underneath every part of this moment. And by making this moment mine, I'm rendering it timeless. I'm consistent in my inconsistencies. I'm a teenage outcast with nothing going for me. My life is a swirl of salt and sugar. My opinions are openly suggestive in that I don't have opinions at all. I'm middle-based. I'm simple. I live off peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, and I'm currently in a personal coma with society in general. From what I've learned so far, in experiences with human beings and discoveries in further depth of myself, the words 'fuck you' can be deciphered and very much taken into consideration when you communicate with me. I love tea. Pancakes are good. Mike and Ike's. B&W photography. Skipping. Wearing my sunglasses at night. Long walks on the beach. Flowers. The Clash make me happy. I don't like a lot of stuff that most people do. I don't really like talking to people about myself, and if I do talk to you about me, like real stuff, you're wicked special. I like listening to people and interacting with them, unless they're mean, in which case they should die. Okay... not really. I get along with pretty much anyone, which is not to say that I have many friends, more like I just never make any enemies. I REALLY like meeting new people. I don't necessarily like shopping or the color pink. I like fall and winter a lot more than spring and summer. I love to learn, but I don't like school, which probably doesn't make much sense. I'm iffy about having my picture taken. I put pictures up here, I guess because when I think about it, if this is 'my space' then it should have me in it, whether your eyes burn out or not. I love music; all kinds. Right now, "indie" is my favorite. I think it's extremely sad that the majority of youth is too silly to understand any form of music that goes beyond sex and self destructive violence. I love my keyboard. I pwn at DDR and FFR. Or at least I pretend to. I don't like the word, "pwn" or "pwnd". I enjoy stepping on stupid girls and yelling "DOMINATED!". I enjoy hardcore, headbanging cello. I'm kinda nerdy. Pwahah. I can walk faster than I can jog. I don't have a life. I love to write+read. I am a dreamer. My clothes never match; and I like it. I really don't like [most] stupid people. I'm sorry. I'm Irish and Polish. Cold rain is nice. I write in my notebook too much. It fell apart. I love reading classic novels. Lord of the Flies and Lolita are two of my favorites. I fly kites at night. I sing along to Bohemian Rhapsody. I love vinyl. I retain useless facts. I quote lines from movies. I shut up when I'm nervous. I skip in open spaces. I try to be philosophical. I try to smile a lot. I usually dork everything up.I don't do my homework. I love yoga. I see too many doctors. I hate it when people have atrocious spelling/grammar errors. I guess, I am who I am and I like what I like. It could be as simple as that... but it's not. I’m always reconsidering my life and the way I live it. Revisions are being made constantly; otherwise, I’d be left behind. I am literally a walking contradiction of myself. I'm very impulsive and sometimes lack self control. I think each one of us are unique by fractions of an inch, including myself. I usually have a lot to say but nothing interesting comes out. I'm just the third wheel. I'm just as lost as everyone else in terms of truth. I will never believe what others tell me is right. I'd like to discover whats right for myself. Create my own balance. I've made a lot of mistakes. I've done a lot of stupid things. I am just like the rest of you, but I don't use that as an excuse to be a jackass. I still love to learn new things. I guess you could say I'm one of those inquisitive types. A lot of things intrigue me. Mostly people in general and the world we live in. I would really like to look on the bright side and find beauty in the least likely of places. I can't help to be a bit pessimistic at times though. I forgive and forget and love rather than hate. I see the good in everyone and respect everyone until further notice. I'm just waiting to move onto bigger and better things in life and find myself through all this mess. I'm fun to be around, from what I hear. I can be to honest and blunt at times. I apologize in advance. I have witty/stupid humor. Sometimes, well most of the time, I am a strange person, very random and somewhat idiotic at times. I am okay with who I am building myself into. I hope you are too. If not I won't mind too much. If you want to win my heart, prove me wrong. Show me that not everyone is a lost cause. Make me laugh. Stay true to who you are and just plainly be honest with me. I'm not changing myself for anyone. If you don't like what I have to say, you'll have to find a way to deal with it. I have nothing against anybody, but from what people have lead me to believe about majority and the population of Earth: Everybody's a jerk. Including me. If you deny it, you're more ridicule to yourself and to your logic. Judging me of where I rank on a status or reputation is about as meaningful to me as words written in water. If any more analysis is a strive for you, ask. Hi, I'm Ashleigh. It's nice to meet you.
