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skwash

I am here for Friends

About Me

I hate headlines. I can never come up with something that anyone wants to read. That should be my headline; help me come up with something.

I live with a bunch of people who have nothing in common with me. They all seem to click rather well, but I'm the outcast --the "parriah" who'd rather be here [online] than . . .well, anywhere else. Online I'm able to watch my favourite shows and movies from around the world while I'm waiting for someone to respond to my eMails or instant messages. I can catch up on my reading by checking out my favourite news articles, periodical stubs, etc. Of course, I work overnight, so I'm content in the fact that I'm enjoying my time while the rest of the world is effortlessly resting away in their shallows.

Thank you,
chloe hsu.

My Interests

Hanging out with my friends, casual/ light reading, and movies.

Music is always playing around me, whether on my computer, television, radio, etc. I was born hearing impaired, and love the sounds now that I can hear them.

I'd like to meet:

Friends who are near me and have similar interests. I am tired of being the only coherent person I know who is not normal.

I would also love to meet people who don't use drugs. Every member of my family is on something and they're all constantly high, which bothers me. I'd basically like to meet someone who is the white-sheep of their family, just as I am of my own.

More vegetarians would be lovely as well. I think that I'm the only one I know. The person I used for money (although he received something far more precious) "attempted" vegetarianism, but he isn't strong enough to go through with it without me around to hold his hand. He's my best friend now, and I love him very much; living without someone like Joe in my life would be torture, and he knows that I care for him deeply.

I am a total xenophile! It's difficult to find someone interested in my unusual pass-time; it is much more difficult to find other asian friends who even have the time to share my interests. Life is rough; most men I meet who actually are interested in trannies only want sex, and that is not the sort of person I am. Abstinence is my key to a healthy core. So yes --abnormal friends to play with who are just as strange as completely strange as I am.

Someone with whom I can work out! I exercise at 24hr Fitness here in Dallas, and I am usually the only alone. I have stopped attending because I felt like my boobs were going to fall out of my sports-bra at any moment: occupational hazard, I suppose, but all same, I have stopped. Perhaps if [or when] I can resume legal hormones I will not be so selfconscious. I am certain that after my facial feminization surgery, I will certainly be much more confident and comfortable.

Forget the work-out buddy . . .I have no reason to exercise any more; it's not like I'm looking for a husband. I am too light as it is, and I'd rather a friend who will go out to eat with me, and not use his/her fingers or lick the plate.

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Music:

KDGE 102.1 the edge, mandarinradio.com [on iTunes(!)].
the Fuse [television station --channel 158 here on my sat.], IMF [television station --channel 157 here on my sat.]

from Taiwan: Energy & F4
Faith Yang & Vivian Hsu

from Korea: Won Bin
"Foxy Lady" Harisu

from Hong Kong: CoCo Lee

from Japan: ElleGarden

Movies:

Oh. I'm into most of anything here. Especially foreign films.

I also like sweet, gushy movies --anything about loving families and friends helping each other out (I call "happy" movies) makes me cry, but I like them the most; especially when I have someone with whom I can cuddle [though I'm tired of cuddling with Joe, because he wants my bujina].

Television:

Heroes [okay, I'm a geek, remember!?], Kyle XY [so cute, plus the geekness], The L Word [I strongly empathize with Max], and Weeds [funny coming from me, huh?].

Books:

Manga. Straight-up manga. I haven't read anything else [completely] except a giant book about practicing safe sex. Shameless plug . . .visit www.condomstogousa.com or www.condomania.com --those two sites can save lives [or prevent them].

Even better idea --get all the safe sex tips you need at the sexual health resource . If you're feelng adventurous, walgreens.com also offers some excellent resources and advice.

Heroes:

Lee Kyung-eun, Parinya Kiatbusaba, Yang NaiWen, Yeoh Choo-Kheng, Zhang ZiYi. Any strong women who can overcome prejudice, hardship, and kick a man's ass in the process. ^.^

My Blog

transNews

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Posted by skwash on Thu, 05 Jul 2007 02:31:00 PST

suicide for beginners

What does it take to start your life over? A new look, name, or job? Maybe all it takes is little more than relocation. I feel like my life is nothing as I expected it would be; to change that, I'm st...
Posted by skwash on Fri, 29 Jun 2007 03:25:00 PST

a dick ted

why is it that when i'm feeling my worst, i tend to achieve so much more than usual.  i've finally washed all my clothes, and vaccumed my bedroom.  i was going to do the rest of the house, b...
Posted by skwash on Sat, 16 Dec 2006 04:14:00 PST

transNews

'Boi' or 'grrrl'?  More youths are asking: Why not both?Some say gender identity is being tested -- and blurred.By Martha IrvineAssociated Press CHICAGO -- When it comes to gender, Alex Polanco i...
Posted by skwash on Thu, 01 Mar 2007 08:58:00 PST

. . .and it lives . . .with me

You know, the world seems so big with everything so far away, and the only way we can really see it is by spending everything we have.  Why is it that when we want to experience something new, ou...
Posted by skwash on Tue, 13 Mar 2007 11:28:00 PST

pissed. jack off.

Every person in the world has [at some point in his/her life] wondered if there is just one person out there for him/her.  Granted it sounds hoaky, but it seems nice to believe.  I found my ...
Posted by skwash on Tue, 10 Apr 2007 08:55:00 PST

take my breast away

this . . .will be in two parts.  one part [because i have a horrible time following an outline, i know i'll blend the two together] is about cancer.  the other, is about . . .naughty things....
Posted by skwash on Tue, 30 Jan 2007 05:54:00 PST

admonition of hedonism

I am depressed and complacent.  My job seems endless and tiring, and I don't think it will take me anywhere.  There is an elderly woman here who is very bitter towards most of her coworkers,...
Posted by skwash on Mon, 28 May 2007 10:25:00 PST

should've been blogging

It's 00.57 [GMT-6] and I'm staring at my black, flat-panel, Dell display at work. I work long hours leaving me nocturnal, but helping people while the "sane", normal world rests doesn't bother me. In ...
Posted by skwash on Sun, 15 Apr 2007 09:07:00 PST

freaks like me . . .

I'm a freak.  To quote someone who's been close to me most of my life, I'm "a science project that should be dead on a slab somewhere, locked away from the rest of the world."  That statemen...
Posted by skwash on Fri, 13 Apr 2007 03:19:00 PST