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When Everything Changes, If I could...

I've been feeling dull as a coat hanger. Pretty as a picture of a patient on a fresh IV. Giddy as a

About Me

IM NOT SADISTICThere are times when I believe that falling would be beautiful, somehow majestic, tumbling through the sky in a streak of hair, skin, nails, eyes.But then I scream and writhe against whatever burns in me and pushes me 'till my toes curl over the edge.I am exhausted- I don't believe sleep exists anymore- and this private battle wails through my mind like a siren, ambulance red and bloody as pulp.I don't believe in happy endings or in singing along and maybe that's why I'm torn between free fall and the solid feel of ground beneath my feet. My inner vision, dulled and darkened. I keep myself away from you. I fuck my sorrow humblely. And throw my crown upon the ground.It's you I hope for. And us I pray for. And me that I believed was wrong. But now my anger is my best friend. Be careful I may bite your head off.Liar.So call me a bitch in heat and I'll Call you a liar. And we'll throw stones until we're dead.I edited my profile with Thomas Myspace Editor V4.4 (www.strikefile.com/myspace)

My Interests

..Love um!....Close Friends... hahaha!He's okay. Worst DD ever. Cynthia. Dicks..I believe MOTHRA was on the ceiling that night........................Art, Painting, drawing, sculpting. parties, dancing.drinking, fake hair, style, cigarettes, the internet, video games. strobe lights.Life, beauty, nature. roses, dead roses. black. redTattoo's, Peircings, hair dye. beds, corsets. Love. black and white photographs.

I'd like to meet:

Me Now.

Music:

A P€RF€CT CIRCL€, A life once lost, The acacia strain, Across five aprils, Agnostic Front, The Agony scene, All that remains, Any given second, Amebix, Arch enemy, As I Lay Dying, Atreyu, Behemoth, Between the buried and me, BLACK TAPE FOR A BLUE GIRL, The Black Dahlia Murder, The Bled, Bleeding Kansas, Bleeding through, Blindside, Blondie, Bloodbath, Blood has been shed, Bone Jar, Borknagar, THE BRIDES, Burnthe8track, Caliban, Car bomb, Carfax abbey, Carnal forge, Children of bodom, Circle of dead children, CKY, The Classic struggle, Collide, Corvus corax, The Cruxshadows, Dark Tranquility, Dead to Fall, Death angel, Death before dishonor, Decapitated, Devilunside, Dexy's Midnight Runner's(woohoo!!), Diecast, Dream evil, The Dreamside, THE DRESDEN DOLLS, Ed Gein, Ego likeness, 18 visions, 36 crazyfists, Eisbrecher, Evergreen terrace, eXodus, Extol, Eyes of fire, From a second story window, Glass Casket, God Forbid, Hanoi rocks, Haste the day, Hatebreed, The haunted, Heaven shall burn, I am the end, If hope dies, Immolation, Impaled, In Due time, In Flames, Incantation, ICP, Internal bleeding, Into Eternity, Into the moat, Iron butterfly, Iron maiden, It Dies today, Katzenjammer Kabareu, Killswitch Engage, Krisiun, The last dance, Ministry, Mnemic, Moonspell, Mudvayne, Nightrage, Orphaned land, Overture to death, Paralysed age, Pat Benatar, Pineboxslumberparty, PRETTY BALANCED Queen, Rammstein, Ramones, The red death, Revue Noir, Rob Zombie, Sex pistols, Shadows fall, Since the flood, Snake River Conspiracy, Staind, Still remains, Sublime, SOAD, Tapping the vein, Terror, Thoushaltnot, Through the eyes of the dead, Thumb screw, Unearth,Underoath, Winter solstice.

Movies:

Pirates of the caribbean, From hell, The nineth gate, Edward scissorhands, Sleepy hollow, Cry baby, Chocolat', The labyrinth, Nightmare before christmas, requiem for a dream, Hangmans curse, Love actually, the craft, stigmata, SLC punk, C.H.U.D.S Reefer Madness, National treasure, Now and then, Charlie and the chocolate factory Girl interrupted, Out cold, Friday the 13th, the shining, Resident evil, Resident evil 2, Lethal dose, silence of the lambs, Girl, Thirteen, white oleander, The exorsist, Serial Killer 101, Shallow ground, House, Stephen Kings: IT, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Man on fire, 13 ghosts, But I'm a cheerleader, Welcome to the doll house, 8 heads in a dufflebag, goodfellas, session 9, The secret garden, peter pan, dazed and confused, The Goonies, Stand by me, Forrest Gump, Natural born killers, sin city, Blow, One fine day, Big fish (great hang-over movie for sundays), sick, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind Finding Neverland, Arther, Idle hands, The notebook, The 10th Kingdom

Television:

Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Family Guy, Robot Chicken, Full House (bitches) King Of The Hill, The simpsons...blah blah blah. DARIA!

Books:

Everworld series...and shit

Heroes:

No one's saved my life from dark evil forces yet... Purple cup clan bitches!!

My Blog

and thats what it is

When King Lear dies in Act Five do you know what William Shakespeare has written? He’s written, He Dies. That’s all, nothing more. No fan fare, no metaphor, no brilliant final words. The c...
Posted by When Everything Changes, If I could... on Sat, 15 Mar 2008 02:58:00 PST

The lyrics.

The flowers by your bed are wilting. The sun is setting in the west. A fog is covering your eyes, Your stockings are attracting flies, Decay is nibbling at the boards on which you rest. There's someon...
Posted by When Everything Changes, If I could... on Fri, 14 Sep 2007 03:16:00 PST

The shit you hear on the radio...

...Leads to conversations like this: Dana: you wanna hear some thing sadDana: corner store milkDana: 305 for a 1/2 gallonLindsey: ...Lindsey: are cows dying?Dana: idkDana: i think its cause im whiteLi...
Posted by When Everything Changes, If I could... on Tue, 28 Aug 2007 06:17:00 PST

Between you and Me

I wondered when you would wake up. You've been sleeping for far too long my friend. In a dreamscape created to your liking, So that nothing could ever harm you. You had to wake up sometime. &nbs...
Posted by When Everything Changes, If I could... on Wed, 25 Jul 2007 02:15:00 PST

Forever's Summer

You could say that I tried too hard. I still gave you the benefit of the doubt. Still... after dropping you the last time. I let it all go, and I never once looked for it again after that. But I gave...
Posted by When Everything Changes, If I could... on Wed, 25 Jul 2007 02:05:00 PST

Keep running as fast as you can.

People disgust me. The way they act, The way they treat other people and the way they obviously just didn't really care. Everyone is always in a rush...but never getting anywhere. Why can't people jus...
Posted by When Everything Changes, If I could... on Sun, 22 Jul 2007 08:31:00 PST

And I'll keep paying...

Lost the thought, the feel, the something real inside The hope once there, now gone again Covered with worry and doubt The choice of making one's life... Complicated Nothing no longer is easy A challe...
Posted by When Everything Changes, If I could... on Mon, 04 Jun 2007 07:55:00 PST

There is still love here.

C'mon to bed, it's late and I don't want to end the day falling asleep in front of the TV, blue light flickering and you sitting there muttering about how I snore in my sleep. C'mon to bed, I know you...
Posted by When Everything Changes, If I could... on Fri, 25 May 2007 09:17:00 PST

I have No idea

Amber: i .. .. .. .. .. .. .. ..&n bsp;Amber: DON'T LEAVE ME!!!!Amber (10:21:05 PM): .. .. .. Me: I Me: does my heart look fatMe): it's fatter tha...
Posted by When Everything Changes, If I could... on Tue, 24 Apr 2007 07:33:00 PST

The Other side of me.

I could of given up this side of me Only if I wanted to. Preparing you for such a challenge might have been asking too much. Pulling you down with me to our knees, Just waiting for the under toe to d...
Posted by When Everything Changes, If I could... on Thu, 29 Mar 2007 03:42:00 PST