I feel overwelmed by How Blessed my life has been.... i mean iv really done nothing to deserve it... iv grown up with a great family.. I have a fiance who is more than i could have dreamed of.. Incredible friends and family around me... food in my belly... roof over my head... A Job..I get to make beautifull music with some of the most tallented self-less people i know.. I live in a country where i am free to dream and live my dreams........... All these things are great.. but they cannot remotely compare To the fact that God Himself would send the Most treasured part of Himself- His own son... lowering Himself to be in flesh and blood and go through everything I go through... a perfect innocent man taking on all of my wrongs.. all of my shame..my conviction that read"guilty'.. my disease..hurts.. while i would probably have been one of the ones spitting in His face He was dying for me and burying my death sentence and coming out very much alive just to make a way that I could again have no more walls between me and God ..that I could know what hope is...to know how much He loves me and could just hang out with Him... So right now Jesus who knows what its like to go through all this crap is sitting there on the right hand of God praying for me ... wanting to take all this junk and save me from even my self and the black cancery stuff i get in called sin... He's did'nt come here to condemn me but that though Him I might be saved... He's just wanting to save my butt from this cancery death stuff and the only thing that will do the trick is the blood that He poured out for me... For the payment of sin is death ... but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus ChrisT ... the crazy thing about Gods Love.. it seems that for my whole life Gods Love has been overwhelming me .... i mean iv tried running from it even at times..even still i try and He refuses to hold back His mercy and Love...... I dont know how to comprehend all this but I pray that one day i can learn to love like this.... So even though ive been the biggest shmuck muffin and still am..... I find Its not Really been - About Me: ..... its been about believing and surrendering to HIm*
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