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jenna b.

HEY SLUTS...

About Me

We had two bags of grass, seventy-five pellets of mescaline, five sheets of high-powered blotter acid, a saltshaker half-full of cocaine, and a whole galaxy of uppers, downers, laughers, screamers... Also, a quart of tequila, a quart of rum, a case of beer, a pint of raw ether, and two dozen amyls. Not that we needed all that for the trip, but once you get into a serious drug collection, the tendency is to push it as far as you can. The only thing that really worried me was the ether. There is nothing in the world more helpless and irresponsible and depraved than a man in the depths of an ether binge, and I knew we'd get into that rotten stuff pretty soon.

My Interests

"There was madness in any direction, at any hour. If not across the Bay, then up the Golden Gate or down 101 to Los Altos or La Honda. You could strike sparks anywhere. There was a fantastic universal sense that whatever we were doing was right, that we were winning."

I'd like to meet:

"Strange memories on this nervous night in Las Vegas. Five years later? Six? It seems like a lifetime, or at least a main era---the kind of peak that never comes again. San Francisco in the middle sixties was a very special time and place to be a part of. Maybe it meant something. Maybe not, in the long run, but no explanation, no mix of words or music or memories can touch that sense of knowing that you were there and alive in that corner of time and the world. Whatever it meant.""When I came to, the general back-alley ambience of the suite was so rotten, so incredibly foul. How long had I been lying there? All these signs of violence. What had happened? There was evidence in this room of excessive consumption of almost every type of drug known to civilized man since 1544 AD. What kind of addict would need all these coconut husks and crushed honeydew rinds? Would the presence of junkies account for all these uneaten french fries? These puddles of glazed ketchup on the bureau? Maybe so. But then why all this booze? And these crude pornographic photos smeared with mustard that had dried to a hard yellow crust? These were not the hoofprints of your average God-fearing junky. It was too savage. Too aggressive.""What was I doing here? What was the meaning of this trip? Was I just roaming around in a drug frenzy of some kind? Or had I really come out here to Las Vegas to work on a story? Who are these people, these faces? Where do they come from? They look like caricatures of used car dealers from Dallas, and sweet Jesus, there were a hell of a lot of them at 4:30 on a Sunday morning, still humping the American dream, that vision of the big winner somehow emerging from the last minute pre-dawn chaos of a stale Vegas casino."

Music:

"You can turn your back on a person, but, never turn your back on a drug. Especially when it's waving a razor-sharp hunting knife in your eye.""Look, there's two women fucking a polar bear!"

Movies:

"Few people understand the psychology of dealing with a highway traffic cop. Your normal speeder will panic and immediately pull over to the side. This is wrong. It arouses contempt in the cop-heart. Make the bastard chase you. He will follow."

Television:

"There he goes. One of God's own prototypes. Some kind of high powered mutant never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die.""PLEASE. Tell me you got the fucking golf shoes."

Books:

"A drug person can learn to handle such things as seeing their dead grandmother crawling up their leg with a knife in her teeth. But no one should be asked to deal with this trip.""We've got to get out of here. I have the Fear."

Heroes:

"What Leary took down with him was the central illusion of a whole lifestyle that he helped create. A generation of permanent cripples, failed seekers, who never understood the essential old mystic fallacy of the acid culture: the desperate assumption that somebody, or at least some force, was tending the light at the end of the tunnel. There was only one road back to L.A. - U.S. Interstate 15. Just a flat-out high speed burn through Baker and Barstow and Berdoo. Then onto the Hollywood Freeway, and straight on into frantic oblivion. Safety. Obscurity. Just another freak, in the freak kingdom."

My Blog

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you can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, even months over analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, should've, would've happened. or you can just leave the ...
Posted by jenna b. on Fri, 21 Mar 2008 10:18:00 PST

fucken fabulous...

so, i'm going through a range of emotions. i guess they come along with this sort of thing. if anyone wants to street fight and then cry about it, call me. i'll be in the bathroom, carving lou's name ...
Posted by jenna b. on Tue, 10 Oct 2006 12:16:00 PST

al'skfja'sdfa

kids now pass me i should be finishing school i haven't even started i don't have a car i sleep in a dirty living room my boyfriend loves me he's really busy i want to have a conversation wi...
Posted by jenna b. on Thu, 15 Jun 2006 10:20:00 PST

try to fix me...

please...UPDATED 12/11/07(lou says to take this down because i make fun of emo girls and this makes me sound like one too)(shutthefuckuplou)...
Posted by jenna b. on Sun, 02 Oct 2005 12:02:00 PST

anywhere...

just to say that i was somewhere with someone.anyone.
Posted by jenna b. on Mon, 26 Sep 2005 11:41:00 PST

i hate bitches...

i mean, maybe i'm one too...maybe i'm just a punk ass bitch...but i hate this stupid fucken shit show that goes on with the friends i used to have...and it ONLY happens with them...don't act like...
Posted by jenna b. on Fri, 30 Sep 2005 01:56:00 PST

it's my new blog bitches

maybe closing my eyes all along would've made me just as smart.
Posted by jenna b. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

ah man

so yeah, i just started doing this whole myspace thing and i think i'm addicted but whatever. i don't know what else to say. i like crashing cars. it makes me feel good about myself. NOT i'm just goin...
Posted by jenna b. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

hot...

ugh...i'm so tired of not being hot... michael...i'm not addicted to drugs...i'm addicted to glamour...UPDATE 12/11/07(lou says i'm just fishing for compliments)(shutthefuckuplou)...
Posted by jenna b. on Tue, 10 Jan 2006 09:06:00 PST

fucken shit

i look at my mother and i just don't get it...
Posted by jenna b. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST