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About Me

"Life only becomes more beautiful when it appears fucked up most of the time! In the beginning, it's filled with puzzle pieces scattered around you. When you reach a breaking point, it's up to you to decide whether or not those pieces form together to become your own masterpiece. TWiSTED, but I fucken love every moment of it! Life....it's s0o0 beautiful...What more is there to say?"--Syna quotes on her Rollercoaster in Life*Just ME posin' with my CLOSE FRIENDS & FAMILY! CHEESE BABIES*---Unselfish deeds were never meant to be understood through those two eyes...Sometimes the best way for someone to learn is just to let them go...:.HATERS! Brush it OFF...JUST Dust it OFF.: :..I'LL BUST in your face then CUSS it OFF...: ~*I'll SPIT it, and SHIT it! YO Just Quit it! Admit THIS! YOU can't HIT it!*~
Instant Message Me (that's if I'm ever on) ...TheexPreciousx1...
"Don't start no SHIT there won't be no SHIT!" Just brush da haters Off! Trouble comes to ME, YET I'M DRAMA FREE!
I'm a FULL TIME COLLEGE STUDENT at CALIFORNIA STATE UNiVERSITY of LONG BEACH. At the moment, I'm taking extra courses at CSULB and extra classes at LBCC, too. I'VE BEEN STRONG AND INDEPENDENT EVER SINCE I WAS YOUNG. I LIVE ON MY OWN WITH TWO ROOMMATES, I PAY MY OWN BILLS AND I DON'T DEPEND ON ANYONE ELSE BUT MYSELF. Now WHO EVER SAID YOU CAN'T BE HARDCORE AND SMART AT THE SAME TIME MUST NOT HAVE MET ME YET...half hood slash nerd-- I chill in the hood, I'm too high maintenance; I chill with the nerds, I'm too ghetto. Either way I lose, so accept the truth. This "is" ME. I may look DUMB, but don't let my looks fool you. Instead, I'm an intellectual 19 year old CAMBODIAN chick with her MIND RIGHT and still in the process of growing WISER and WISER each and every DAY. So watch out now! I'm a MEMBER of HXT. I'm ONLY down to ride til the bloody end with my REAL homies. So you FUCK with them, YOU BASICALLY FUCK WITH WITH ME. IF THERE'S ONE THING I HATE THE MOST, I CAN'T STAND LYING-TWO FACED BITCHES. I don't like to SNAP, but it happens often cuz BITCHES BE ACTING UP. I ain't the type to TALK shit, but I do become a BITCH at times ONLY TO STRANGERS WHO GETS ON MY BAD SIDE...OTHERWISE I'm DOPE ASS FUCK once you get to know me. And those who know me, Ya'LL know wassupp...I'll just FLICK shit off, handle it THEN smile the next day like the goofball that I am! Not only that, but it TAKES A LOT TO ACTUALLY PISS ME OFF. If you don't like it. Then FUCK you, SCREW you, and DO you niggah! I easily get frustrated and tend to express my emotions by fighting a lot when people don't know when to shut the fuck up. I know it's STUPID but I grew up like this so you can't blame me (shruggs). Sometimes, I'll be the bigger person, brush it off and let it slide, but at times people love pushing it and that's when my fist comes flying. Honestly, I REALLY don't give a fuck about what people "THINK" about me anymore BECAUSE I know who I am. PEOPLE LOVE TO TALK SHIT BUT NEVER TAKE THE TIME TO UNDERSTAND THE TRUTH, AND THERE'S NO NEED FOR EXPLANATION CUZ I found myself, have you? I won't judge you, so why take your time to criticize me behind my back? Cuz all da hatin' you do and all the rumors you spread will only flatter me more, so get the fuck off my nuts. You do whatcha do and I do me! I always get myself involved into shit that doesn't even have anything to do with me, but I still step up anyway because it's fucked up how most people take little people for granted. Gyeah! I know it's none of my business, but that's just how I am; THIS is ME! I can't help it cuz I grew up with it all my life. For dayum sure! I know I ain't gonna be standing around watching shit happen. When bad shit comes my way, I'm not afraid to handle it. And sometimes, I hate when that side of me comes out, cuz honestly I do not like drama for shit. Some people just need to grow the fuck up AND LIVE THEIR OWN LIVES, instead of consuming their time trying to ruin mine. I rarely question why I am the way I am, but I figured out that the past experiences we all go through in life makes us who we are today. I do try to change it better for myself and those I love, but I sacrificed soo much out of life that it just takes complete control over me. I believe it's true with me that, "IN EVERY SINGLE BITCH, there's a reason behind it all that explains why she is the way she is." And everybody whose gone through a major point of stress knows what the fuck I'm talking about. So there you have it, I pretty much "LIVED" a fucked up life (thass all you gotta know), but I'm still here living each day as it passes by CUZ ain't nobody gonna do it for you but yourself! I don't live life complaining about shit because later down the road, you'll regret it with major disappointment. If I can't change what I did back in the past, at least I'm making a difference to change what's happening in my life right now. If anything, I LOVE my life right now, (FINALLY)! It just took me awhile to figure out how beautiful life truly is. Now, there's nothing in life I cannot handle. I'm usually prepared for most things that come my way, so if you want to crush my world...Think twice cuz you might just get something more than just a splinter...I work 10 times harder just like everyone else holding a grasp on their hands. I actually hit rock bottom (the deepest core of it) a couple times to FINALLY get where I am today. I tell myself often, "DON'T JUST "SAY" YOU'LL DO SHIT IF YOU DON'T DO IT. GET YOUR ASS UP OFF THE BED AND DO SOMETHING TO PROVE THAT YOU CHANGED FOR THE BETTER CUZ AIN'T NOBODY GONNA BELIEVE YOU UNLESS YOU "SHOW" IT! ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. MOREOVER, THINK DEEPLY BEFORE YOU SPEAK. THEN, TAKE ACTION UPON IT BECAUSE IF YOU DON'T, SHIT CAN ONLY GET WORST." To sum it up, I ain't I afraid of death, but I am afraid of.....ha ha so I'll leave you thinking with that note. Well, I don't like to take shit for granted and I don't bow down to ANYBODY! I'd appreciate it if all the ladies out there can do the same thing. I take shit when it comes at me and handle it either in a positive or negative manner, depending on the situation. Last note (REAL TALK): IF YOU CAN'T GET ALONG WITH ME, SOMETHING IS DEFINITELY WRONG WITH YOU!The Basic Facts :

I can honestly say I ain't STUPID, but I can't say I'm a genius neither. I GOT 10 PIERCINGS and 3 tattoos. REAL SHIT--I'm a real nigga with heart stuck in a girl's body FRiLL. BELIEVE IT OR NOT, BUT THIS IS TRUE ABOUT ME--- When I'm taken, I'm VERY VERY FAITHFUL; BORN ON NEW YEAR'S, Josh Hartnett & Chad Michael Murray LOVER, music head, ballet-hip-hop DANCER, Exquisite POET, WANNABE MC (I spit flows when I'm faded), Intellectual party girl with her mind tied to the more necessary things in life, EX-Varsity Cheerleader, a REAL hardworker, REALLY dedicated, 100% TRUE, 99.5% HONEST, 3.3-3.8 HS GPA student, 2.0-2.5 GPA college student =(, President of CLUB USVO, Artist, Tagger, a young lady with a successful future, a VERY VERY Stubborn Capricorn, a gurl that has a lot of ISSUES, EMOTIONAL BUT STRONG, NOT EASY LIKE BREEZIES, A CHICK WITH A BIG HEART, a giver not a reciever, true believer in KARMA, a drama-queen to those that are complicating, a KEEPER not a CREEPER, a Ride-and-DIE HOMIE, a TRUE loyal friend, POTHEAD not DRUGHEAD (get it stra8 bitches), DESPISE CHEATERS with a passion, HATES frequent LIARS, a Fiesty EATER (2 jumbo jacks [one on a sourdough bread with extra extra ONIONS] with 2 extra tacos, curly fries and a strawberry milkshake on the side! Ha Ha! BEAT THAT BIOTCH!), a chick who can keep her promises, A "WANNABE" JEALOUS GIRLFRIEND, a WOMAN that had her heart broken TWICE (1st: MY lost, 2nd: HIS LOST), a future FLIGHT ATTENDANT, counselor, a mentor and a female that's always CURSED for the WORST when it comes to niggaz! I don't go searching for love, it comes to me naturally. I've worked MY ASS OFF to GET WHERE I AM TODAY, EVEN WHEN PPL PUT ME DOWN...AND it's NOT EASY FOR ME TO KEEP MY HEAD UP, BUT I DID it anyways..And I'm STILL LIFTING IT UP HIGH AND PROUD reguardless of any reasons. However, in the end, I'm usually the one shattered once again with all I have given. Well, you're probably thinking she's a fucken low life right writing down all this shit, but question? What does this make you if you read my shit up to this point...ha ha inside joke...jay kay! Naw frill though, if u actually knew me, I freakin' talk a lot about the most random things...I just have a lot to say...And all I've summed up on my myspace was ONLY a sneak peak of the basics about me...So don't THINK YOU GOT ME ALL figured out and think you know me already cuz HONESTLY (ha haa) YOU DON'T. This CHICK is full of surprises baby! Trust me! Well, this comes to show you a little bit of who I am. I'm open to help anybody out and for dayum SURE, I know I talk a lot. I'm ALL TALK WITH 100% PROOF TO BACK IT UP. You don't believe me, come see me. Otherwise, GIT GIT off my BINNUTS nukkerZ....ha haa I'm as REAL as it gets baby. I'm more PURE than genuine ... Believe it baby... This GIRL got HEART... Status :

"Been OFFICIALLY talking to the SAME special individual for quite a LONG time (literally) and NOW his patience has paid off GENUINELY! Sorry fellas! I'm FINALLY taken by my BOYFRIEND SANTIPONG ROJANASOPONDIST" Though I'm TAKEN, I still BELONG to MYSELF... =)

YES, I'm FINALLY Happy and DRAMA FREE!

Otherwise, don't want a NIGGA...

Don't need one...CUZ I GOT MYSELF A KEEPER

~* Basic Quad Double Wun on me*~

...I may not be the FINEST chick to pick, or even the PRETTIEST girl in the world, but I KNOW I AM a BEAUTIFUL LADY INSIDE and OUT without a doubt...

NOT your AVERAGE-TYPICAL teenager, (ya'll should know that by now)!

Known as the "Ghetto Intellect"...Get it STR8 yo!....

Working hard in school on the weekdays and party 'til I drop with MY TRUE homies on the weekendz


My Own Thoughtful Words TO EVERYONE!

First of all, don't try to criticize me on how I appear to look. YEAH, I SMOKE. AND YES, I DRINK! SO WHAT? Get to know me first before JUDGING me. Take time to understand my perspectives before jumping into unreasonable conclusions. If YOU don't have anything positive to say, then PLEASE don't bother wasting my time. Keep in mind: Looks are decieving. How u appear to look on the outside is only a phase of attraction...The beauty lies only deep within yourself...

NUMBER 1 important issue Stated!

I don't need ANY nikka to make me happy...I'm independent on my own, BUT sometimes I just dun't get nikkas...They'll come into a girl's life, then cherish it for awhile...She'll grow to love him...Then he fucks up! She still stands by his side even through his mistakes to help him learn...Then he fucks up! When something big actually happens and she finally tries to point out what he's been doing to hurt her, he's indenial and puts the blame on her while he chokes her...So that's fucked up...She tried to tell her family and his friends, but they're on his side because they don't believe he's like that. So it's all FUCKED up. But even after all that time, she still STOOD by his side through all his lies and broken promises because she's stupid enough to believe that he can change for the better. Now, she's fucked up cuz she should have left a long time ago and realize that love doesn't hurt like this. Then when she tries to finally leave him and they argue, he HITS HER again repeatedly after she told him to stop...NOW he's really F**ked up and it's really over. The sad part about this is, she still wanted to be with him after all that shit, but she had to let him go cuz she knew that was the only way for him to learn. With, or without her, this nigga still doesn't realize that he lost the best girl he ever had. Now there goes another broken heart. Maybe now, you'll see how much pain you've been conflicting throo those tears he left behind. Tears that are not even worth crying for, but yet you're shedding them like there's no tomorrow...Maybe...just maybe one day, I'll wake up and realize that I've created a flow of tears...That the only thing I've ever longed for in my life was never there in the first place...it's g0ne...

TO THE FELLAZ:--- If u's a true nikka I give you madd love, because true nikkahz find themselves a lady. While male DoGGs find themselves SHi*ting out all the FeMaLe DoGGs and hoes...

F**K the BS nukkas! JUST Keep it real YO!

To the LADIES:--- Everything takes time and patience, and if your nigga ain't got that! Then let that nigga GO. Check DIS--

By Me YO! Don't BE CLAIMING! Read MY shit, BUT write your OWN shit NUKKA! Written real quick for those who has a hard time moving on in life, LIKE ME.

LIFE: IT GOES ON

It'll keep on turnin

ashes to ashes and dust to dirt

it will keep on burning

when life gets hard

just keep on churning

get ur mind untide

and u'll get those earnings

u'll get ur pride

if you keep on learning

Too LAZY to FIX more SHIT UP. IF you want to know more about me, just hit up my xanga. There are plenty of poems that I wrote in there ABOUT MY LIFE for ya'll to READ if you're in the mood for DEPRESSION:

www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=No_Apathy

My Interests

FLYING SKY HIGH WITH MY BOYFRIEND AND RIDING STRONG TOGETHER. Thank you BABY for healing all of my broken wounds I have scarred upon you. Patience has NOW served its virtue. [S]N[S]
DANCE! DANCE! DANCE! VERSATILE DANCER--THIS is my ultimate DRUG! It's definitely my PASSiON! It's what I do BEST to RELEASE my STRESS and I fucken LOVE it!DANIEL "CLOUD" CAMPOS INSPIRES ME TO DANCE.I love B-BOYZ! Especially this one below...Watch it and you'll see what the fuck I'm talkin' about! Think "Upside Down Ballerina."My FAM BAM [B][F][F] AND [H[X]T]! ---- H00dieZ cuz I'm s0o h00d 'n thass wutz g00d...ye-ahhhaaa (like LiL Jon and the Eastside Boyz) FRESHazzImIzz R0ckin' BAPE, LRG, Sweatz, PJ's, Dunkz, Chuckz, ErrForces and ALL that UNDERGROUND PeeSHNitZz nobody has...Whatchu Know About that?!

I'd like to meet:

My LiL' Brothers Vanny and David...I miss them...God, PLEASE help them get out SOON!

FREE DAVID!ALL MY NIGGAZ FROM [B][F][F]..AND OF COURSE MY GIRLS FROM [HXT]...THROW UP THE X, CUZ WE EXTERMINATE THEM H0EZ LIKE WUHH---LIKE WHOOAAA!I won't meet anyone online. Just here to re-unite with old friends. First and foremost, I would like to meet God because he's one of the main reasons why I've been so strong. But, If there was a couple people I can meet, I would want to meet Lisa Chamnouey [R.I.P], Lhuke Danam [R.I.P], but most of ALL KERRY YA [R.I.P]...And to those whose lost their loved ones...what more is there to say, except (Tears)...

Dedicated to my nigga ...Kerry Ya ...

Written by Me...

[R.I.P.] I love You for all Times...

YO KERRY!

AS I sit back and try to remisce all the times I use to miss

it was a bliss to say

that I found a true homie til this day

It's sad to say

he juss past away...days and days before yesterday

As tears flow down from cheek to cheek

I try to get back up, but these knees to sheets get weak

How is a girl supposed to feel complete

if her own homie will be buried 6 feet under concrete

recieving phonecalls before I go to bed

Hearing, "Hey Girl...did u knoe Kerry's dead"

Words get blurred and obsurred...from what is said..

Tears become drenched from my pillow that I must shed

I've become dazed...crazed....phased out in so many ways yet more confused

became isolated...faded...but made it...and hate it..from all this abuse people has misused

I know times get hard to chill

but frill...

just keep ur head up... express what u feel

when times get hard to deal

when things go wrong just keep it real...

when u feel like life is worth no try

dry out those eyes...shed away those cries

Now, with all ur might...make it worth it through the night

juss live another phase...Yo it's just another day

make it through this way...u'll make it out okay

but look...as for me...it's plain to see

I'm not as strong as I made myself to be

I'm not as weak as other people think of me

Actually...to some degree...I'm partially setting myself at ease inside

confide in the things that people must hide

cuz there is no free ride when livin life to be so high

When I find out a love one has died

Like everyone else I do breakdown and cry

But I dunt wanna cry....knowing all this happened was all true

and what's a girl to do?

When each day passes by without a single trace

and what's the world come to?

When disgrace has marked it's own hate against the earth's face

I could die tomorrow...and the whole world never knew I existed

But life is life...and love is love...you gotta do all u can just to fix it

As of right now, I'll find better days to focus

all though I may feel worthless and pretty darn hopeless

I'll concentrate on things that wont hurt it

just invert it

into something I can use to make it worth it...

Although it will be hard for me to move on

knowing that my own homie is gone

There are 3 words that sums up my Life: it goes on...=(



My Friend Space
...THESE ARE MY D0pEsT__ FRIENDS N FAMILY

My HERO and Bestest Friend NGA

My Brother Duy YEE

My Ride and DIE PARTNA R0SE

My BiG Sister Mary

Da Baddest Bitch Syndie [143]

My LiL TROUBLED Brother Tony

My Gangsta Lil Brother David

My Youngest Brother Charlie

My LiL Brother that I Miss: Vanny

My Beautiful LiL Sister Selene

My CRAZY LiL Sister Kat

My BEST FRIEND N Partner in CriMe SAM

My Grown Up LiL Bro HyPER

My entrepeneur Jimmy Kong

My Dope Individual Beast

My Crazy Dance Partna Khemara

My Purrdy Mongolian Nick haha

My BLUEBERRY and da REALEST nigga Chickeeta

My Soul Child Bay BAY

My Weed Partna Sok0rn

My BEST DANCE PARTNA "FLASH"

My Down Ass Chick Cindy

The Sweetest Angel Rei

Mikey + April

My Sweet Alyna

My Soda Pop pop since Elementary

My Caring Kuh-Razy Marianne

My UNCLE LiL Scoobey Loc

MY BESTIE VEEBALLZ

My Goofy Sister Thuy

My SEXY MALRY

My CRAZY SAMOAN HOMIE ISAiHa

My SEXY Co-Worker Elva

My Good Drunken Homie Suvan

mY CHINK HENRY!

*Check 0ut Old Homies or People I've Seen Before*

keEpIn it m0deL sTatUs's Friend Space

Music:

This dude's poetry is so SICK wid it that he INSPIRES me to keep spitting poetry. Check it out. It creates its own melodic music to my soul. Now that's DEEP!---My Inspirational Artists: 2PAC, Eminem, Kanye West, Black Ice, Talib KWELI, NAS, ATMOSPHERE, Thai, LinKin Park, Keyshia Cole, Faith Evans, Stevie Wonder and my baby T.I...I listen to basically everything, but mostly underground Hip Hop...Otherwise, I'm versatile...Music helps heal my soul...

Movies:

There's too many AMERICAN MOVIES to list, but I MOSTLY enjoy watching Korean, Chinese, Filipino and Thai Movies. But most of ALL, I enjoy watching Japanese Animation (Kenshin, Naruto, Final Fantasy, Bleach etc...) ha ha, I know I'm a hid at heart...Any movies with Ju-jitsu, kick-boxing and some lethal weapon killer shit are the dopest. Oh gyeh and DANCE movies DEFINITELY a plus.

Television:

Fashion House__One TREE HiLL__That 70's SHOW__So You Think You can DANCE__CH. LA18--especially the Korean ShowsI LOVE IT--!__Cartoon Network__AZN Productions

Books:

Honestly, I like to read, but haven't had time to read lately. I've read a lot of good books, but there's too many to list. I'd honestly have to say that the two main books that are essential to my daily life right now is the HOLY BIBLE and the New Testament. What more is there to read?

Heroes:

God...Kerry Ya...((R.I.P.)) My nigga...Puon Srey Nuk Bong Broh! My CRAZY MOMMY (She's always been down for me since day ONE and I don't know where I would be without her. I LOVE HER SO MUCH), ---Nga Thi Le (she's one of the main reasons why I'm still living today so THANK THIS CHICK!), Lisa Chamnouey ((R.I.P.)), Lhuke Danam ((R.I.P.)), My brother Chris, and Anthony Cabrera.

My Blog

*...I'm in LOVE...*

With Daniel Cloud Campos...(the first one in this video).. width="425" height="350">..>Now that's RAW TALENT!...
Posted by (((Syna's SicK Wid it))) on Tue, 21 Nov 2006 10:23:00 PST

...I love you Kerry P. Ya...[For ALL Times]

*MEMORiES of YOU and ME...R.i.P.* It's been 3 years, 2 months, and 6 days now that you've been gone&huy&I remember crying for a whole year when I first found out you were no longer physically here. No...
Posted by (((Syna's SicK Wid it))) on Fri, 10 Nov 2006 06:12:00 PST

Guess Who I Saw?

I was invited to the Tyra Banks show yesterday and I saw both Tyra Banks and Nelly Furtado live! Kevin Federline was supposed to come through, but he didn't show up. Tyra is a sweetheart and Nelly is ...
Posted by (((Syna's SicK Wid it))) on Fri, 27 Oct 2006 06:30:00 PST

...I'M MOVING S00N... )=

ALL MY CLOSE FRIENDS ALREADY KNOW WASSUPP. BUT TO ALL MY OTHER SET OF FRIENDS ON HERE, I JUST WANT TO LET YOU GUYS KNOW AHEAD OF TIME. I'M MOVING OUT TO SAN DIEGO NEXT YEAR (AFTER SUMMER) FOR SCHOOL. ...
Posted by (((Syna's SicK Wid it))) on Thu, 17 Aug 2006 06:17:00 PST

*...Dayum (whew) Life...awaken from my dreams into reality...*

Dayum, I just got back from Laguna Beach. I haven't been there in a minute, but now it's my new kikit spot...[[smilez]]...Today was sick with it. I've been having so much fun this past week, but I had...
Posted by (((Syna's SicK Wid it))) on Thu, 25 May 2006 04:36:00 PST

[[---->....L0VE HURTS....<----]]

"Love Hurts"Chuckie ft. Kangel(Listen to this song and you will understand how I feel at the moment. And to those that are going through the same situation as me, this song explains it all...After all...
Posted by (((Syna's SicK Wid it))) on Mon, 01 May 2006 03:45:00 PST

Another POEM, BUT 4 them FAKE niggaZ!

Written By Syna (Me) in 11th GRADE and gyeh I wrote this all on my own with no help!If you want to read more about me, there's more poems right hurr...If you dunt want to read the journal entries...
Posted by (((Syna's SicK Wid it))) on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

How COULD HE DO THiS to ME???

Its been officially over for two weeks already, but tell me why does EVERY MINUTE FEEL LIKE YEARS? Too many tears are consumed by so much pain. I am disappointed, but most of all, Im REALLY DEEPLY hur...
Posted by (((Syna's SicK Wid it))) on Thu, 13 Apr 2006 04:55:00 PST

FUCKEN JOCKERs

FUCKEN Jockers can't come up with their own shit. You define the term unique on a fucked up equation. If all you can do is jock how I look and talk and make it your own style then I despise people lik...
Posted by (((Syna's SicK Wid it))) on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

I just got out from the Hospital

Sorry! (Too tired to re-tell the whole story again, so I copied and paste it from my xanga)...I haven't been home for the past 3 weeks cuz my dad and I got into a huge fight. So it's nice to finally b...
Posted by (((Syna's SicK Wid it))) on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST