im very particular about love. i am so determined to find the kind of love that i need, that i exclude love from my life, refusing to accept other types of love.
i find myself in a myriad of platonic love relationships. platonic love is the type of love where one individual or entity is greater than another, and there is some sort of amicability between the two which prevents the entity with the higher status from destroying the each. this is a common ideology among the neo cons, or neo conservatives, which guides the foreign relations of the united states.
this has made me a hostile person.
(i dont want to be hostile)
what it all boils down to is the fact that my acting is impecable.
there is perfect love. love without heirarchy.
if you arent immune to emotion. if you still have that one thing that reaches you deep down. i think that youre capable, but not allowing yourself to feel.
as a child i had night terrors. fear is the only reality.
