FIRST OF ALL, I WAS BROUGHT INTO THIS WORLD 6 MONTHS INTO THE 80'S, AND THE 8O'S WILL ALWAYS LIVE!!! THE 80'S REPRESENT MY LIFE, WHAT I LIVED THROUGH, WHAT I LIVED IN, WHAT I HAVE LIVED TO BECOME. THE 80'S IS WHAT I AM, AND WHAT I ALWAYS WILL BE, I MAY LIVE THE PRESENT IN THE NEW YEARS, YET I ALWAYS LOOK BACK TO THOSE GOOD OLD DAYS WHEN THINGS WHERE MUCH EASIER, WHERE MY LIFE WAS LESS COMPLICATED, WHERE I HAD NO WORRIES OR CARES IN THE WORLD. TO ME THE 80'S ARE MY BEGINING, MY PRESENT, AND MY FUTURE! I CAN'T BE WHO I AM TODAY, WITHOUT LIVING THROUGH THE 10 YEARS, MINUS THE 6 MONTHS BEFORE MY BIRTH. I AM UNIQUE IN MY OWN 80'S WAY. FROM MUSIC, TV, MOVIES, AND FASHION, IF I COULD TURN BACK TIME, LOL, CHER SAID THE SAME THING, BUT, YAH IF I COULD, I WOULD GO BACK THROUGH THE YEARS I LIVED IN THE PAST, AND NOT CHANGE ONE MINUTE OF MY LIFE, BUT SIT BACK AND ENJOY THE MEMORIES THE 80'S PLANTED IN MY LIFE. THE FIRST FOOTSTEPS I TOOK, TO THE FIRST WORDS I SPOKE, FROM PEEING IN MY PANTS, TO SLEEPING UNDER THE KITCHEN TABLE, AND ALL THE MEMORIES I HAVE OF MY LOVED ONES WHO ARE NO LONGER IN MY LIFE. LIVING THROUGH PARENTS DIVORCING, AND MY LITTLE BROTHER PASSING, I WOULDN'T WANT TO REDO ANY PART OF THE STEPS I TOOK TO GET WHERE I AM SO FAR... THE JOURNEY STILL CONTINUES. CHECK IT OUT! LOOK AROUND YOU TODAY, AND NOTICE AROUND YOU, THAT SOMETHING, SOMEONE CARRIES A PART OF THE 80'S WITH THEM, WHEREVER THEY GO.......WELL LETS SEE IF I CAN REMEMEMBER HOW MY LIFE STARTED... MY PARENTS, BOTH ANNIE MAY AND ALVA BLANE CHAPMAN, AT THE TIME ANYWAYS, BEFORE THE DIVORCE, LOL, I WAS BORN TO THEM BOTH UNDER THE NAME OF JEREMY BLANE CHAPMAN, ON A WEDNESDAY IN JUNE. THE 3RD OF JUNE TO BE EXACT. I WAS A PREMATURE BABY. MEANING I WAS VERY TINY. I WAS TOLD MANY TIMES BY MY MOM, THAT SHE USED TO PUT ME TO SLEEP IN A DRESSER DRAWER. LOL. WELL TWO YEARS AFTER I WAS BORN, MY MOTHER HAD MY BABY BROTHER, JOSHUA LEE. HE WAS BORN WITH CANCER AND DIED 2 YEARS INTO HIS LIFE. I RARELY REMEMBER THE TIMES SPENT BEING A BIGGER BROTHER. I DO REMEMBER THE TIMES ME AND MY BROTHER WOULD SLIDE DOWN THE STAIRS ON OUR BOTTOMS. LOL. I'M SURE EVERYONE DID THAT! WELL SHORTLY AFTER HIS PASSING, MY PARENT'S DIVORCE WAS FINAL. MEANING THAT I LOST MY BROTHER AND THEN MY DADDY. HELL I WAS TOO YOUNG TO EVEN REMEMBER IF IT HURT OR IF I REALLY EVEN KNEW WHAT WAS GOING ON. SO PASSING THAT, I REMEMBER GROWING UP MORE AROUND THE FAMILY OF MY MOM. THE ONLY CLOSEST RELATIVES ON MY DAD'S SIDE THAT LIVED CLOSE BY WERE MY GRANDMA AND MY AUNT. SHORTLY AFTER MY PARENT'S DIVORCE, MY DAD LISTED HIMSELF TO THE ARMY FOR 8 YEARS OR MORE. SO THAT LEFT ME WITHOUT MY DAD MOST OF MY LIFE. I SEEN HIM OFF AND ON FROM TIME TO TIME BEFORE WE EVENTUALLY LOST TOUCH. YES, TO THIS DAY I STILL LOVE MY DAD, AND HOPE THAT SOMEDAY, WE CAN OR WILL BUILD A FATHER/SON RELATIONSHIP. LAST TIME I TALKED TO HIM HONESTLY EVEN SEEN HIM WAS BACK IN 1995. HE DON'T CALL ME AND WHEN I TRY TO CALL THEM, HE'S NEVER AROUND TO SPEAK TO. WELL BACK A FEW DECADES BACK TO ME BEING 5 YEARS OLD... LOL. MY MOM SHORTLY REMARRIED TO HER CURRENT EX HUSBAND THE ONLY SECOND MARRIAGE THAT SHE HAD. THEY STAYED MARRIED TILL I WAS THE AGE OF 22 I BELIEVE. DON'T HAVE A CLUE HOW THEY MET, BUT HE BECAME MY STEPDAD, THAT NEVER REALLY BONDED WITH ME, THAT I REALLY CARED TO EITHER. HAHA. HE DID SUPPORT ME AND GAVE ME THE THINGS I NEEDED AS A CHILD, OTHER THAN REPLACING MY FATHER. WE LIVED IN A SMALL TOWN ABOUT 40 MINUTES FROM WHERE I WAS BORN. WHILE LIVING IN THIS TOWN, I ATTENDED 1ST - 10TH GRADES OF SCHOOL. AND FINALLY CONVIENCED MY MOM TO LET ME LIVE WITH MY GRANDMA (HER SIDE) AND LET ME GRADUATE SCHOOL FROM MY HOMETOWN WITH ALL MY COUSINS AND WHERE I THOUGHT I'D BE HAPPY, SINCE ALL MY FAMILY AND OLD FRIENDS WHERE ALL LEFT BEHIND THERE. SO MY LAST 2 YEARS OF SCHOOL I ATTENDED IN GUYMON OKLAHOMA. LEFT TURPIN BEHIND. TURPIN WASN'T REALLY A BAD PLACE, IT'S JUST EVER SINCE I MOVED THERE, I NEVER ADJUSTED TO THE CHANGE I GUESS. I WAS ALONE, AND BORED MOST OF MY LIFE THERE. I DIDN'T MAKE FRIENDS MUCH, AND KEPT TO MYSELF. THE FRIENDS I MADE THERE, WERE OFF AND ON. SO I PRETTY MUCH KEPT TO MYSELF. THEN WHEN I STARTED DRIVING AND GOT MY CAR, I WAS GONE TO GUYMON ALL THE TIME TO VISIT FRIENDS AND MY FAMILY. I ACTUALLY HUNG OUT AND DRAGGED MAIN STREET AND PARTIED WITH MY COUSINS IN GUYMON. .. .. WELL, AFTER HIGH SCHOOL, I DID ATTEND COLLEGE FOR BUISNESS COURSES, BUT, THAT WAS SHORT LIVED. ABOUT A MONTH OF COLLEGE IS ALL I WENT TO. THERE ARE MANY REASONS TO WHY I DROPPED AFTER A MONTH, BUT MAINLY IT WAS MONEY ISSUES, AND MY MOM'S PROBLEMS WITH HER (NOW EX) MY STEPDAD, AND HIS FIGHTS OVER MONEY! SO I GAVE UP, TO GIVE SOME PEACE BETWEEN THEM. SHORTLY AFTER THAT I GOT A JOB, AND WORKED, THEN MOVED BACK TO GUYMON, AND GOT MY FIRST PLACE WITH ROOMIES OF COURSE FOR MY FIRST TIME EVER! IT WAS FUN, IT WAS NEW, AND I REMEMBER THE GOOD TIMES! HAHA. THEN MOVED BACK HOME TO TURPIN WITH MY MOM. SHORTLY HELL BROKE BETWEEN ME AND THE STEPDAD, AND THE FIGHT STARTED. NEXT I KNOW, ME AND MY MOM ARE MOVING BACK TO GUYMON, AND THAT WAS THAT. NOW MY MOM AND HER EX ARE STILL FRIENDS. AS FOR MY MOM AND MY DAD.....HAHA, THEY NEVER TALKED ONCE SINCE THEY DIVORCED. I USED TO GO STAY WITH MY DAD FROM TIME TO TIME DURING THE SUMMERS. THAT DIDN'T GO WELL THE LAST SUMMER I WAS STAYING THERE. HE IS REMARRIED, AND HAS A STEPSON OF HIS OWN. HIS WIFE DON'T LIKE ME MUCH. SHE IS THE ONE THAT ALWAYS ANSWERS THE PHONE WHEN I DO TRY TO CALL, AND CLAIMS THAT HE IS NEVER THERE. SO PISS ON THAT BITCH! ANYWAYS, I'M SINGLE TO THIS DAY, I WAS A VIRGIN TILL 23!!! HONESTLY, I WAS! LOST IT TO MY BEST FRIEND BACK HOME, SHE KNOWS ALL ABOUT IT! HAHA! I WAS THE BEST SHE EVER HAD! LMFAO! AFTER THAT, IT WAS ALL GOOD. GOT THE VIRGINITY THING OUT OF MY WAY, AND MOVED ON. TO BIGGER AND BETTER THINGS THAT WAS! LMFAO! SO TO THOSE, WHO WONDER WHAT I AM, AND WHAT I PREFER, IT'S ALL A MYSTERY TO EVERYONE WHAT MY LIFE CONSISTS OF! DON'T KNOW WHY, BUT IT'S COOL TO KNOW THAT THERE ARE MANY OUT THERE THAT THINK THEY HAVE TO KNOW WHAT MY SEXUAL PREFERENCE IS, OR WHAT I AM SEXUALLY. IF YOU REALLY WANNA KNOW, JUST ASK ME, YOU MIGHT GET THE ANSWER YOU BELIEVE, OR YOU MIGHT GET WHAT YOU WOULDN'T HAVE EVER THOUGHT! I LIKE TO KEEP THOSE PEOPLE WONDERING.... I THINK IT'S FUNNY THAT IF THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM, THEN OBVIOUSLY, IT'S SOMETHING THEY DON'T NEED TO CARE ABOUT ANYWAYS. AM I STRAIGHT, AM I BI? OR AM I GAY? WHAT IS IT TO THEM THAT THEY SHOULD KNOW? IF I AM OR IF I'M NOT, IT'S SOMETHING I'D LET YOU KNOW IF IT'S SOMETHING YOU SHOULD KNOW! I NORMALLY JUST REPLY TO THE QUESTIONS WITH A "WHAT DO YOU THINK?" I GREW UP WITH EVERYONE SAYING I WAS GAY FROM A YOUNG CHILDHOOD! SO I KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE CALLED THIS AND THAT. I PERSONALLY DON'T CARE ANYMORE WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF ME! I LET THEM TALK THIER TALK AND THINK WHAT THEY WANT. THEY ARE ALL GONNA BELIEVE WHAT THEY WANT TO BELIEVE ANYWAYS! RIGHT? RATHER YOU SAY YOUR THIS OR THAT, THEY STILL BELIEVE OR THINK WHAT THEY WANT. I'M A GEMINI, READ UP ABOUT THEM, YOU MIGHT KNOW MORE THEN. HAHA. WELL I HAVE HAD THE ONE LOVE OF MY LIFE PASS BY, AND SO I BELIEVE LOVE FOR ME IS GONNA BE THE HARDEST THING TO ACTUALLY FIND IN MY LIFE. THE ONE AND ONLY GIRL I FELL FOR, IS GONE, AND NEVER COMING BACK. WE NEVER MADE IT LIKE WE HOPED. SO LIFE MOVES ON....RIGHT? I LIVED IN GUYMON A FEW YEARS AFTER GRADUATION, AND FINALLY MOVED TO CALIFORNIA WHERE I AM NOW TO THIS DAY. IT'S GOING ON 2 YEARS COME HALLOWEEN 2006. LIFE IS VERY INTERESTING OUT HERE, AND I HAVE MET SOME COOL PEOPLE, AND SOME OF THOSE SO CALLED ASSHOLES OF CALIFORNIA. OTHER THAN THAT, I LOVE CALI. DON'T PLAN ON LEAVING ANYTIME SOON. SO HIT ME UP AND GET TO KNOW ME! YOU MIGHT FIND ME TO BECOME YOUR VERY BEST FRIEND. MAYBE MORE AS TIME GOES BY. PEACE, JEREMY......
ICE ICE BABY!
