Maya - The Grand Illusion
Renee Christine Yates, 2002
I confess that I'm one of the biggest homebodies ever - yet I'm never bored. I was an only child for the first 21 years of my life (yep... there's a 21 year age difference between my little sister, PJ, and me and a 24 year difference between me and my little brother, Bob - they're practically my own kids... and yet not. Being a big sis is very bonus!!) so I have no problem entertaining myself completely on my own... for probably weeks on end without any human contact if that were necessary. Most of my interests are things generally done on my own.
Yet not all my interests are solitary... I do enjoy hanging out with close friends with similar interests and time spent with my family. But I'm not one of those people who will just up and do something that is "supposedly" fun unless it has a practical purpose. If it doesn't, then for me, it's not going to be fun. Okay... maybe not in all cases... it depends on who I'm with...
Despite the seemingly social personality, at heart I'm pretty quiet, nerdy and bookwormish. I just like quiet, solitude and a low key, routine kind of life where I can just "be" and do my own thing on my own or do it with someone else who is like me and gets me and vice/versa... which is pretty much the case as far as most of my close friends go.
Leprechaun costume design
Halloween, 2006
And this is how it turned out.
I love to draw and paint... and I love painting women and the female form. For work, I've had to draw nearly everything under the sun - you name it and I've probably drawn it - including John the Baptist's head on a platter - so women aren't my only subjects... but they're my favorite because, well, we sure are lovely and mysterious creatures, aren't we? I also enjoy designing and sewing risque and historical costumes with a twist for women (primarily me). What can I say? I still like playing dress up!
Red Rosey Costume Design
Renée Christine Yates, 2002
When I was young and trying to decide what I wanted to do with my life, the creative field was the furthest thing from my mind. Initially I wanted to grow up to be Judy Bennett, AKA DynaGirl from the Sid and Marty Krofft "Elecrtra Woman and DynaGirl" show. I also wanted to grow up and marry either Disney's Robin Hood or Peter Pan... so yeah... Obviously I was a kid with an active imagination and open to all kinds of possibilities if I could somehow imagine myself married to a cartoon fox in medieval clothes.
My first crush - funny... but true!
Later, after four years of drama in high school where I discovered a joy in acting and being on stage, I thought I might want to become a theatrical costume designer for a Shakespearean theater company... but the only school that specialized in this was in Chicago... too far away and snow in the winter. Bleh! Plus, there aren't a lot of Shakepearean theater companies out there and I gradually discovered I hate traveling... So there went that idea.
I've also always had a strong interest in the dark side of human behavior. This, along with my extremely analytical mind I decided, once in college, that I actually wanted to be criminal profiler with a specific interest in studying the minds of serial killers. Why do some people have a line they won't cross and other's don't? What prompts some people to go to hideous extremes to fulfill their wants and needs? This fascinates me to no end. Obviously, that's not what I ended up doing but I still have a strong interest in this area. Yet, it also speaks to my own suspicious nature about people in general; how you really never can judge a book by it's cover. People are not always who or what they seem to be and sometimes it's the little tells they try so hard to mask that speak to their true natures beyond the big show they're trying to present. By all accounts, Ted Bundy seemed like such a nice, normal guy...
Plate from Bluebeard by Walter Crane
World theology, metaphysics, Jungian analysis of cultural stories, folktales, fairy tales, universal archetypes and symbolism are a strong passion of mine, too. Personally, I feel a person's favorite story reveals a lot about their true nature, their major life conflict and their motivating purpose in life. So, for the record, my two all time favorite fairy tales are "Bluebeard" and the original Hans Christian Anderson version of "The Little Mermaid". Distilled down: Female rebellion against archaic male/female gender roles and a curiosity about things better left behind the locked door or above the water... yet headstrong enough to explore them anyway. Although doing so has the potential to destroy the body, in the end the spirit is always resilient!
As for more normal pursuits, I go for one hour walks every day after work, 4 days a week - but only in Spring, Summer and Autumn... in Winter I become a total lump and hibernate. I like to go dancing, love watching live ice hockey even though I have no clue as to the rules of the game, love Mexican and Chinese food, shopping, going to museums and art exhibits, seeing live theater, musicals and the occasional concert in a small venue, champagne brunch, and seeing interesting speakers or authors on tour promoting their latest works - the last being Frank McCourt (Angela's Ashes) interviewing Mitch Albom (Tuesday's with Morrie) at the Festival of Books at UCLA with my girlfriends Heather and Lisa. I also love getting together with close friends just to hang out or go to coffee or spending time with my family. Of course, staying home watching a good DVD and having food delivered is the best! In my opinion, food should just appear!
I'm not real into traveling but I have been to some of the cooler climate states, Mexico, eastern Canada and Ireland. Technically I've been to England too but only within the confines of Heathrow airport so I don't think that really counts. As I said, I'm a diehard homebody and prefer to stay as close to home as possible.
King Henry VIII's 2nd Wife, Anne Boleyn
However, one of these days, before I leave this earth, I absolutely must return to England. My little sister and I plan to eventually visit at some point. We're both have a strong fascination with British history, specifically Tudor history. One of the things I need to do - and don't ask me why, I just need to - is stand on the spot on the Tower Green where Anne Boleyn, second wife of King Henry VIII and mother to the future Queen Elizabeth I, lost her head. I'd also one day like to visit Prague just so I can attend the Alphonse Mucha museum and see all his work up close and personal.
I adore creative, intelligent, independent thinking and slightly off the beaten path kind of people (men and women alike) who live in the deep places and only visit the surface - but who would never want to live there.
I tend to enjoy people who are emotionally mature, respectful of themselves as well as others, know themselves pretty well, are non-drama as much as any of us are able (because we can all be a little drama-trauma at times, right?), who have a depth of character and a profound amount of integrity and reliability. If you can't be honest with yourself then you can't be honest with others and if that's the case, I promise you don't want to talk to me!
Yet I love slightly sarcastic people with quick wit and a slightly goofy sense of humor (I'm thinking of the character, Chandler, on Friends - I love him!) so it's not that I take myself, others or life all that seriously - although I do when it's necessary and appropriate. In fact, I have a natural ability to act prim and proper and almost a little prudish at times - intimidatingly so, I'm told - but the key word here is "act" and I only do it when a situation calls for it. Yes, I can make a good show of being a good girl and behaving properly! Ha ha... But more than anything, I love to laugh and I love others who can laugh, too - especially at themselves... as I can - because sometimes I can be downright asinine.
One of my assy alter-egos: Blanche (now in full and glorious color! Puuurrrty!)
I'm always happy to hear from old friends, too - no matter how far back we go or how little or well we knew each other in the past. I love catching up, comparing notes and just getting to know each other again. So, if you knew me "back in the day," don't hesitate to write and say Hi today!
Sooo.... If you read the various aspects of my profile and find you have something in common with me in a certain area, don't hesitate to introduce yourself and say Hi! But, please keep the following in mind...
I'm NOT a party girl so I can't really relate to superficial, ultra social party people. Also, unlike some people who use MySpace to hook up with others for dating purpose, I'm not here to date.
So, please don't write me to ask for my phone number or to go out for dinner, dancing, to meet for coffee, to talk on the phone, or to have sex, for God's sake. If you leave your number for me, please don't expect me to call and don't get angry or try to guilt trip me when I don't - because I won't. Sorry...
Dango-San and the Oni
Renée Christine Yates, 2005
I grew up listening to the kind of 70's music that's now considered classic rock - and I still enjoy it. But my mom wasn't all that hip and tended to like showtunes, easy listening stuff (Neil Diamond, Olivia Newton-John, Cat Stevens... oh, and her all time favorite: Harry Belefonte) so I got exposed to all this as well and don't take too much of an issue with it. We saw all the major musicals, too. The only thing we never managed to see was "Jesus Christ Superstar," yet I know the soundtrack by heart anyway and one of these days I will see it performed live - Dammit!
Mozart!
Mom was also a huge fan of classical music so I have an abiding love for this genre as well. I believe my first favorite piece of music, aside from Elton John's "Crocodile Rock" at age 5, was Beethoven's Piano Sonata No. 14 in C-sharp minor "Quasi una fantasia" (Like A Fantasy), Op. 27, No. 2 - more popularly known as "The Moonlight Sonata". My favorite composer of all time is, hands down, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart. Now there's a musical genius for you! I love the light, airy and melodic stuff... as opposed to all the harsh, horror movie soundtrack minor chords of say... Sergei Rachmaninov. Bleh.
In the early 80's my favorite bands were Oingo Boingo, Sparks, Siouxsie and the Banshees, Madness, Adam Ant, XTC, Slow Children, Blancmange, The Cure, X, Depeche Mode and the like.
I also loved listening to Dr. Demento on KMET every Sunday, even had a petition that made the Top 10 countdown - Sulu and Damacus singing "Adolescence is the Pits." Stupid, silly songs... another mom influence since she was a big fan of The Smothers Brothers and Ray Stevens.
The very sexy Chris Cornell
In the late 80's/early 90's it was all about Pearl Jam, Soundgarden (Chris Cornell's voice makes my knees weak - always has - no matter if he's solo or in one or another of his bands over the years), Live, the Chili Peppers, The Pixies, Collective Soul, Black Crowes, Nine Inch Nails, Jane's Addiction, Letters to Cleo, R.E.M, etc. From the time I was 12 until today, I'd say KROQ has always been number one set radio button.
Kate Bush!
Yet my all time favorite artist will always be Kate Bush and the second runner up is Tori Amos. Obviously there are similarities between the two - primarily that their lyrics are odd and who really knows what the hell their real meaning is (I've heard Crucify over and over again since '91 and just found out this year after watching the Fade To Red DVDs that it's about Anne Boleyn... who knew???) - but regardless, both women are unique, exploratory, avant garde, and not afraid to try new things. Both have somewhat strange and quirky voices that aren't always what popular opinion would consider beautiful - but I think that's another reason their work, their sound and their style is weird, different but amazing and brilliant to me.
And Tori Amos!
Bands I currently enjoy are Audioslave, AFI, The White Stripes, The Silversun Pickups, The Shins, Maria Taylor (formerly of Azure Ray) and, thanks to Kerry, an instantaneous fascination and appreciation for Charlotte Martin. She's absolutely amazing... and the wife of one of Kerry's favorites, Ken Andrews. Thank you, Booger-Butt!!
Charlotte Martin
The Silversun Pickups
I still love Live, the Chili Peppers, Pearl Jam and Nine Inch Nails quite a bit as well - I guess once a fan, always a fan... at least where they're concerned. I also adore Gwen Stefani - always have and probably always will - although I have to admit I admired her a lot more before she transformed into the all girly and glamorous thing she's become... back before No Doubt's "The Return of Saturn" CD when she was just a tough-ass, street smart chicka from Anaheim. Still, the woman can do no wrong in my book... and did you know her middle name is Renée? Yep... it is!
Gwen!
I LOVE them! Movies are both entertainment and therapy for me. I'd much rather watch someone else go through crazy drama and learn vicariously from their choices than go through the lessons firsthand myself. But sometimes I just like a good story or a well made, thinky kind of film that keeps your mind contemplating it for days afterward.
I enjoy period pieces and biography films the best - even if they might be slightly historically inaccurate (like "Elizabeth" - love the movie but it's so inaccurate it isn't even funny). If it's a well made film I can overlook this. I also love crime dramas, psychological thrillers, and 70's horror films. I'm starting to find I enjoy some of the newer Chinese martial arts movies - they're often stunningly beautiful but the action is really cool, too. Dramas are always good. Stylized Tarantino kind of violence in films are also high on my list.
I feel it should be absolutely manditory that all guys watch this movie and study it like their lives depended on it... because every woman I know, including myself, wants to find their very own Lloyd Dobbler!
I'm not a big fan of sports movies, slapstick or teenage potty humor comedies, chick flicks and most romances... although I admit I do have a soft spot for "Say Anything" and "Some Kind of Wonderful." There are scenes in both those movies that just make me all girly and sappy inside. And "Babe" - yes, the movie about the pig - has got to be one of my all time favorites.
Farmer Hoggett and Babe
"That'll do, Pig."
My other all time favorite movies that I could watch a thousand times over in my lifetime are: "Amadeus," "Elizabeth," "Carrie," "Quills," "Secretary," "Reservoir Dogs," "Kill Bill 1 & 2," "Titus," "Dangerous Beauty," "Girl, Interrupted," "Chocolat," the Ralph Fiennes and Juliette Binoche version of "Wuthering Heights" and "Sleepers."
My current favorite is the recently released on DVD, "The Painted Veil." Hadn't heard anything about it prior to renting it and only rented it because it had Ed Norton and Naomi Watts in it so I figured it would probably be good. Oh My God! Now, I'm not one to cry or get all emotional during movies but this one - powerful stuff and totally caught me off guard. These days it's really rare for me to say, "Wow - I loved that movie so much I feel the need to own it!" This one... yeah, I sooo need to own it so I can watch it over and over again. If you've not seen it, I highly, highly reccommend it! It's simply beautiful in it's portrayal of real, true human emotions without any sap whatsoever. The tag line for the movie is, "Sometimes the greatest journey is the distance between two people." With this movie, the distance is palpable despite the fact that they're constantly together and loathing it. The journey is one you want to see both of them make toward each other and feel such a blessed releif inside once they finally do. Loved it, loved it, loved it!!
Gary Oldman... I love him!!
Hands down, my favorite actor of all time is Gary Oldman - he's simply brilliant and sexy even though most wouldn't consider him a handsome man... there's just something about him and, in my opinion, he's a true actor... not a celebrity or superstar (big difference!). If I can watch a movie and not realize he's in it until the credits roll simply because he's become the character he's playing so thoroughly... well, yeah, it takes a special gift to be that chameleon-like... and isn't that was a true actor is supposed to do?
Gary Oldman and Tim Roth
in "Rosencrantz And Guildenstern Are Dead"
I also love Tim Roth, Jeremy Northam, John Cusack, Ralph and Joseph Fiennes, Freddy Rodriguez, Eric Stoltz, Edward Norton, Maggie Gyllenhaal, Hilary Swank, Juliette Binoche, Cate Blanchett, Dame Judi Dench and Geoffrey Rush.
Jeremy Northam is gorgeous...
...and so is Freddy Rodriguez!
And I think Salma Hayek is just downright beautiful irrespective of whether she can act or not (I personally think she can).
Salma!
If I were a lesbian I'd want her as my girlfriend... but now she's going to forever remind me of my dear friend, Kurt, who recently passed away. He loathed her with a vengeance and would always mock her by quoting her from some make-up commercial she'd been in: "Bye-Bye, clomps!" She was supposed to be referring to "clumps." We fussed at each other all the time over her... and Kate Bush and Tori Amos too - because he couldn't stand them either. I'm going to miss those good natured, fussy bickering sessions so much!
Monica Bellucci
Monica Bellucci is also at the top of my list of most gorgeous women on the planet. And yes, she's stunning but she truly can act without question. I especially loved her in "Malena" and, even though the movie was damn disturbing as all hell, "Irréversible." I also love the fact that she's a real woman with voluptuous curves that, by American standards, might be considered "fat" by some. Don't know that anyone would ever call Monica fat! She's just beautiful.
I don't watch a lot of television these days other than occasionally the original "CSI," "Cold Case," "48 Hour Mysteries," "SNL" and "Law and Order: Criminal Intent." I also occasionally watch various educational shows on PBS - and I do like "History Detectives" and all the "House" shows - but that's as far as I go with "reality TV" because most of the rest of it on network TV is, in my opinion, crrraaaappp!
I don't have cable but I do rent all the cable series shows on DVD - my favorite of all time being "Carnivale." I was so pissed off when I found out it only ran for two seasons!! Dammit! But I also loved "Six Feet Under," "Dead Like Me," "The Dead Zone," "Oz," "Deadwood," "The Sopranos," "The Wire," "Rome," "The Closer," "The Shield," "Nip/Tuck," "The Forensic Files" and most recently, "Big Love" (those crazy polygamists!!). Of course, HBO is now featuring their latest series show, "The Tudors," which I can't wait to see when it comes out on DVD. I think Jonathan Rees-Meyers is a strange choice to play Henry VIII but I can completely overlook that knowing that Jeremy Northam is cast in the role of Sir Thomas More. I don't know how I'm going to handle seeing him decapitated though! Makes me blue just thinking about it.
Some of my all time favorite shows ever are "The Twilight Zone," "Tales From The Crypt," "The X Files," "American Gothic," and a little known show that only ran for three years (1987 to 1990), "Friday The 13th - The Series" - which had nothing to do with and no connection to the movies of the same name. I'm not so big on the Sci-Fi stuff and I loathe anything to do with monsters. It's the horror and demonic stuff I love! I was and probably always will be a diehard "Xena: Warrior Princess" fan, too. Something about tough but feminine women with swords...
Books - are something I don't think I could live without! They're wonderful and everyone should read more of them!!
I'm a voracious reader but like just about everything else in my life, I'm particular about the books I'm willing to devote my time and attention to. I love the classics - The Bronte sisters, Jane Austin, Charles Dickens, Mark Twain, Alexandre Dumas, Oscar Wilde, etc. Yet, I'd have to say my all time favorite author is Thomas Hardy... with an especial love for "Tess of the D'Urbervilles" and "Jude the Obscure" (Loved the movies, too!). Yes, most of his work is melodramatically tragic - but the way I see it, if it isn't tragic, it's not worth the read!
Kevin Sullivan's version
of L. M. Montgomery's "Anne of Green Gables"
starring Megan Follows as Anne
and Jonathan Crombie as Gilbert
However, as a caveat to that, I do cherish the "Anne of Green Gables" series by Lucy Maud Montgomery... goodness at it's finest and actually a model I've striven to live by since I first read the books when I was a little girl. I've also always adored the continually unfolding love story - although it didn't start out that way - between Anne and Gilbert. I wanted to grow up and be Anne - God knows I'm quirky enough even though I don't have the red hair - and find my own Gilbert!
I also enjoy biographies about famous or infamous historical figures, psychological thrillers, true crime and some current fiction.
My Top 5 favorite books of all time are:
"Belladonna"
by Karen Moline
"Tess of the D'Urbervilles"
by Thomas Hardy
"Wuthering Heights"
by Emily Bronte
"Something Wicked This Way Comes"
by Ray Bradbury
and
"The Count of Monte Cristo"
by Alexandre Dumas
Some other notable authors I enjoy are Marion Zimmer Bradley, Philipa Gregory, David Sedaris, Victor Hugo, Rebecca Welles, Patricia Cornwell, Stephen King, Neil Gaiman, Antonia Frazier, Simon Schama, Alison Weir, David Starkey, James Hillman and Sylvia Plath.
I'm also an avid reader of anything to do with Jungian analysis, archetypes, and the origins and psychological meaning of folk and fairy tales. In this area of interest Carl Jung himself, Robert A. Johnson, Maria Tatar, Marina Warner and Joan Gould are the best reads as far as I'm concerned. I also admire both Caroline Myss and Debbie Ford's work in the area of archetypes and the Shadow self, too. Brilliant stuff that really shifted my sense of self and my outlook on interacting with others - can't recommend their work enough!
William Shakespeare
If he'd been born earlier he might have been responsible for influencing more people than Jesus
I'm also deeply passionate about Shakespeare... again, the Tragedies and some of the History plays. I'd have to say, of all his works and even though most consider it to be his worst play, my favorite is "Titus Andronicus" simply because it's so incredibly over the top on the theme of revenge! It's gloriously horrific!! And, my all time... well... "favorite" isn't the quite right word... Hmmm... how to describe my interest in Lavinia? Intrigued bordering on slightly obsessive might be an apt way to put it.
Lavinia is Titus' daughter who is raped, ravaged, has her hands cut off so she cannot point out her perpetrators and her tongue cut out so that she cannot speak their names... yet she manages to "speak" anyway, and be avenged for the wrongs that were perpetrated upon her.
Lavinia
Played by Scottish actress, Laura Frasier, in Julie Taymor's visionary epic, "Titus"
I can interpret all her martyr'd signs:
She says she drinks no other drink but tears,
Brew'd with her sorrow, mash'd upon her cheeks.
Speechless complainer, I will learn thy thought;
In thy dumb action will I be as perfect
As begging hermits in their holy prayers:
Thou shalt not sigh, nor hold thy stumps to heaven,
Nor wink, nor nod, nor kneel, nor make a sign,
But I of these will wrest an alphabet
And by still practice learn to know thy meaning.
"Titus Andronicus"
Act III, Scene II
Second runner up would be "Macbeth." Witches, the supernatural, murder, ghosts, midnight rantings of a sleepwalking guilty conscience, all ending with decapitation... who could ask for anything more?
Although Shakespeare is undoubtedly a poet in the truest sense of the definition, I'm not a huge fan of poetry, per se. But I do love Tennyson and some of the work of Rainer Maria Rilke. I also enjoy silly stuff along the lines of Shel Silverstein - "The Yipiyuk" and "The Slithery Dee" being two of my most beloved of his work.
H.R.H. Queen Elizabeth I of England
1533 - 1603
Despite all the people here and there all over my profile page that I admire, Queen Elizabeth I of England is the woman I consider to be my ultimate heroine and one of the most influential women of my life. I suspect it has much to do with the fact that certain aspects of our lives are similar and I have always felt a strong ability to identify with her. Granted, I'm only the queen of my own little world, but I do know what it's like to be labeled a bastard, to have your legitimacy called into question, to have your competency doubted simply because you had the good fortune of being born female, to level a certain level of suspicion toward the agendas of others... especially in the area of marriage, to want to marry yourself to something above and beyond another human being, etc.
I admire Elizabeth for reasons too numerous to count. She took a small, depleted and in many ways destitute country and turned it into a powerhouse during her 40 year reign and during a time when women were considered subordinate and inferior to men. She was a trend setter, smart as hell, crafty, witty, talented, and one of the great political minds in history. She endured the brutal and unfair death of her mother, the fickle on again off again love and validation of her father, the resentment and envy of her older half sister, the veneration of her younger, weaker half brother simply because he was male, and the constant debate and fluctuation of whether or not she was a bastard in the eyes of her father, the law and the people. She wasn't expected to survive, much less ascend the throne - and yet she did all this and then some - and she did it all on her own when no one but herself truly believed she could. She was kickass! I want to be her when I grow up - even more so than I ever wanted to be Dyna Girl. She is credited with bringing the Golden Age of the Renaissance to England... Renaissance meaning "rebirth" and also a variant meaning of my own name. She was also a Virgo, just like me!