ANDS

writing backwards feels increasingly natural, as goes with the sinistral, the south-paws.i feel & think logically that in order to create a one-sided view of things we create, arbitrarily, proud & fearsome distinctions within the framework of our heads. to reckon with the fact that its all at once, every which way, and that everybody is everybody proves too daunting - heaven, hell, purgatory...not only are they each in our experience & constantly, but every gradation in between...such things we must compartmentalize, like prisoners in cells, because if we were to loose them upon one another (within ourselves, and with each other), the bedlam would destroy the paradigm, and much as cherished, as vaulted, would be destroyed in our hearts. maybe the fear is that what is left standing amid so much blood & rubble is something better than our selves.the only convincing deception is self-deception. to anyone willing to look, you & I are transparent - the words & the facts don't matter. the proven value of reason & logic do not negate the proven value of wordless language. to become literate in this language is to suffer, and to witness the suffering in others, while we say precisely what is not on our minds. there is a natural, intuitive reading of this language in each of us, the differences, as with most things, come down to context & articulation.i've been awake shy 36 hours, and this happened upon my mind.Profile edited with CricketSoda's Myspace Editor