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Rae

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About Me



Created with mySpace Profile Editor..I'm pursuing my dream of a career in nuclear medicine....( I wish that were the case) those of you that know me, know that I never really had a dream of nuclear medicine. I was always fascinated by it, but never really thought I would ever want to inject people with radioactive dyes for a living!!! I am , however, interested in the adaptivity of the human body after chemicals are ingested or injected. The human body is FASCINATING!" we're so conditioned to our daily lives, so conditioned to the way we create our lives, that we buy the idea that we have no control at all? We've been conditioned to believe that the external world is more real than the internal world. This new model of science says just the opposite. It says what's happening within us... will create what's happening outside of us."“If you choose [to have] peace and joy and love, you won’t get much of it through what you’re doing. If you choose happiness and contentment, you’ll find little of that on the path of doingness. If you choose reunion with God, supreme knowing, deep understanding, endless compassion, total awareness, absolute fulfillment, you won’t achieve much of that out of what you’re doing. In other words, if you choose evolution- the evolution of your soul- you won’t produce that by the worldly activities of your body. Doing is a function of the body. Being is a function of the soul. The body is always doing something. Every minute of every day it’s up to something. It never stops, it never rests, it’s constantly doing something. It’s either doing what it’s doing at the behest of the soul- or in spite of the soul. The quality of your life hangs in the balance. …The soul is forever being. It is being what it is being, regardless of what the body is doing, not because of what it’s doing. If you think your life is about doingness, you don’t understand what you are about. …Your soul doesn’t care what you do for a living- and when your life is over, neither will you. Your soul cares only about what you’re being while you’re doing whatever you’re doing. It is a state of beingness the soul is after, not a state of doingness.”“Imagine, if you can, what it would be like if your heart began to beat with cosmic rhythm. Most people’s hearts don’t even beat with human rhythm. [But] there will come a time when man will no longer distinguish between man and god. When the human being is raised to his full powers he will be divine, his human consciousness will have fallen away. …Man will be free, that’s what I mean. Once he becomes the god which he is, he will have realised his destiny- which is freedom. Freedom includes everything. …Don’t think I am talking religion or philosophy. I disclaim them both, utterly. They are not even stepping stones, as people like to think. They must be hurdled at one jump. …There is only one thing, spirit. It’s all, everything, and when you realise it you’re it. You’re all there is and there is nothing more. …Understanding is nothing. He eyes must be kept open, constantly. To open your eyes you must relax, not strain. …You are to liberate yourself. There is no exercise, physical or spiritual, to practice. All such things are like incense- they awaken a feeling of holiness. We must be holy without holiness. …Any other kind of holiness is false, a snare and a delusion. …There is no need for redemption, because what men call sin and guilt have no ultimate meaning. …When you reach to the quick of things you will find neither acceleration nor retardation, neither birth nor death. There is, and you are- that is it in a nutshell. Don’t break your skull over it, because to the mind it makes no sense. Accept it, and forget it, or it will drive you mad.”

My Interests

raising these children so that they will want to take care of me when I can not take care of myself:)

I'd like to meet:

YOU! Truth seekers, enlightened beings- people who have something to say and aren't afraid to speak out. People who know the power of positivity!

Music:

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When yer head gets twisted and yer mind grows numb it's makin' you mean Like in the middle of Life magazine Bouncin' around a pinball machine And there's something on yer mind you wanna be saying That somebody someplace oughta be hearin' But it's trapped on yer tongue and sealed in yer head And it bothers you badly when your layin' in bed And no matter how you try you just can't say it And yer scared to yer soul you just might forget it And yer eyes get swimmy from the tears in yer head And yer pillows of feathers turn to blankets of lead And the lion's mouth opens and yer staring at his teeth And his jaws start closin with you underneath And yer flat on your belly with yer hands tied behind And you wish you'd never taken that last detour sign And you say to yourself just what am I doin' On this road I'm walkin', on this trail I'm turnin' On this curve I'm hanging On this pathway I'm strolling, in the space I'm taking In this air I'm inhaling Am I mixed up too much, am I mixed up too hard Why am I walking, where am I running What am I saying, what am I knowing On this guitar I'm playing, on this banjo I'm frailin' On this mandolin I'm strummin', in the song I'm singin' In the tune I'm hummin', in the words I'm writin' In the words that I'm thinkin' In this ocean of hours I'm all the time drinkin' Who am I helping, what am I breaking What am I giving, what am I taking But you try with your whole soul best Never to think these thoughts and never to let Them kind of thoughts gain ground Or make yer heart pound But then again you know why they're around Just waiting for a chance to slip and drop down "Cause sometimes you hear'em when the night times comes creeping And you fear that they might catch you a-sleeping And you jump from yer bed, from yer last chapter of dreamin' And you can't remember for the best of yer thinking If that was you in the dream that was screaming And you know that it's something special you're needin' And you know that there's no drug that'll do for the healin' And no liquor in the land to stop yer brain from bleeding And you need something special Yeah, you need something special all right You need a fast flyin' train on a tornado track To shoot you someplace and shoot you back You need a cyclone wind on a stream engine howler That's been banging and booming and blowing forever That knows yer troubles a hundred times over You need a Greyhound bus that don't bar no race That won't laugh at yer looks Your voice or your face And by any number of bets in the book Will be rollin' long after the bubblegum craze You need something to open up a new door To show you something you seen before But overlooked a hundred times or more You need something to open your eyes You need something to make it known That it's you and no one else that owns That spot that yer standing, that space that you're sitting That the world ain't got you beat That it ain't got you licked It can't get you crazy no matter how many Times you might get kicked You need something special all right You need something special to give you hope But hope's just a word That maybe you said or maybe you heard On some windy corner 'round a wide-angled curveBut that's what you need man, and you need it bad And yer trouble is you know it too good "Cause you look an' you start getting the chills"Cause you can't find it on a dollar bill And it ain't on Macy's window sill And it ain't on no rich kid's road map And it ain't in no fat kid's fraternity house And it ain't made in no Hollywood wheat germ And it ain't on that dimlit stage With that half-wit comedian on it Ranting and raving and taking yer money And you thinks it's funny No you can't find it in no night club or no yacht club And it ain't in the seats of a supper club And sure as hell you're bound to tell That no matter how hard you rub You just ain't a-gonna find it on yer ticket stub No, and it ain't in the rumors people're tellin' you And it ain't in the pimple-lotion people are sellin' you And it ain't in no cardboard-box house Or down any movie star's blouse And you can't find it on the golf course And Uncle Remus can't tell you and neither can Santa Claus And it ain't in the cream puff hair-do or cotton candy clothes And it ain't in the dime store dummies or bubblegum goons And it ain't in the marshmallow noises of the chocolate cake voices That come knockin' and tappin' in Christmas wrappin' Sayin' ain't I pretty and ain't I cute and look at my skin Look at my skin shine, look at my skin glow Look at my skin laugh, look at my skin cry When you can't even sense if they got any insides These people so pretty in their ribbons and bows No you'll not now or no other day Find it on the doorsteps made out-a paper mache.. And inside it the people made of molasses That every other day buy a new pair of sunglasses And it ain't in the fifty-star generals and flipped-out phonies Who'd turn yuh in for a tenth of a penny Who breathe and burp and bend and crack And before you can count from one to ten Do it all over again but this time behind yer back My friend The ones that wheel and deal and whirl and twirl And play games with each other in their sand-box world And you can't find it either in the no-talent fools That run around gallant And make all rules for the ones that got talent And it ain't in the ones that ain't got any talent but think they do And think they're foolin' you The ones who jump on the wagon Just for a while 'cause they know it's in style To get their kicks, get out of it quick And make all kinds of money and chicks And you yell to yourself and you throw down yer hat Sayin', "Christ do I gotta be like that Ain't there no one here that knows where I'm at Ain't there no one here that knows how I feel Good God Almighty THAT STUFF AIN'T REAL"No but that ain't yer game, it ain't even yer race You can't hear yer name, you can't see yer face You gotta look some other place And where do you look for this hope that yer seekin' Where do you look for this lamp that's a-burnin' Where do you look for this oil well gushin' Where do you look for this candle that's glowin' Where do you look for this hope that you know is there And out there somewhere And your feet can only walk down two kinds of roads Your eyes can only look through two kinds of windows Your nose can only smell two kinds of hallways You can touch and twist And turn two kinds of doorknobs You can either go to the church of your choice Or you can go to Brooklyn State Hospital You'll find God in the church of your choice You'll find Woody Guthrie in Brooklyn State HospitalAnd though it's only my opinion I may be right or wrong You'll find them both In the Grand Canyon At sundown

Movies:

What the Bleep Do We Know?- Waking Life- Pi- Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas- Alice In Wonderland- Brother Bear- A Beautiful Mind- Rain Man- Natural Born Killers- Pulp Fiction- Interview with a Vampire- Spun- Charlie and the Chocolate Factory- Wizard of Oz- Spirited Away- Chasing Amy- Fight Club- Swimming With Sharks- Boondock Saints

Books:

reading the Dark Tower- Stephen King- started Wolves of the Calla

Heroes:

In the general sense. My mother is my hero- she made me possible. All of the times she could've killed me, and she didn't. That's love! Thanks mom!

My Blog

Tag- chain blog???

    TAG The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things/about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a blog about their 6 weird habits/things as w...
Posted by Rae on Mon, 29 Oct 2007 03:08:00 PST

Real ID: Real Attack on Personal Freedoms

Real Id: Real Attack on Personal Freedoms     The need for heightened security in the U.S. became relevant after the attack on September 11, 2001.  In response to this need, u...
Posted by Rae on Tue, 02 Oct 2007 11:17:00 PST

Wonder

Yesterday afternoon- I left my house to get to the library to work on a research paper for EnglishII.  I remembered to lock the door, and I even made sure that it was closed all the way so that i...
Posted by Rae on Tue, 25 Sep 2007 07:46:00 PST

GOT A DIRTY MOUTH?

       Then try Tom's of Maine- gingermint toothpaste with Propolis & Myrrh.Made for people who would rather use a toothpaste without fluoride, our fluoride-free toothpast...
Posted by Rae on Tue, 11 Sep 2007 11:59:00 PST

I found him in my room last night!!!!

I think i'll call him Vlad.This poor guy found himself in my attic bedroom last night...I don't know how long he was up there.....possibly the entire day.In any case- I went upstairs to go to bed and ...
Posted by Rae on Sun, 09 Sep 2007 07:22:00 PST

Live in Grace

Live in Grace: Dancing with the Universe by Deepak ChopraOur body, our mind, our emotions everything in our physiology is changing moment to moment...
Posted by Rae on Sun, 09 Sep 2007 09:05:00 PST

Dead Fall

Notice the red bear peeing in the woods.:)  He didn't want to walk to the port-a-potties.HAHAHA!Tell me what you think.....be honest....what can I do to make this cooler?...
Posted by Rae on Sat, 08 Sep 2007 01:46:00 PST

The Independence Court System

Josh got pulled over last month for speeding- 53 in a 35...OUCH.....But more than that he was driving with an expired license.  So he had to go to court yesterday.  Afraid that the fine woul...
Posted by Rae on Fri, 31 Aug 2007 05:36:00 PST

What color is your psyche?

What really interests me is this shop on Madison that does aura photography...anybody interested?Your Psyche is VioletYou are spiritual, intuitive, and serene. People trust you to rescue them from bad...
Posted by Rae on Sat, 28 Jul 2007 11:05:00 PST

Lazy Daisy dress

So- when i walk into the craft store I seldom know just how much fabric I'll need because I don't exactly know what I'm gonna do with it until I begin.I had planned on making a dress originally- a gre...
Posted by Rae on Thu, 26 Jul 2007 07:38:00 PST