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*Narcissus*

I'm no one's traitor, just everyone's enemy.

About Me

I am everybody and everything that I have in some way, at some point made an effort, whether consciously or subconsciously, to acknowledge.
Your angel is trying to tell you that...you have a
free spirit. Spontaneous and wild, you have a
slight problem with staying on one topic for
too long. People enjoy your company because you
always have great ideas and your really easy to
get along with!

My Interests

Garlic IN THE RAW, Garlic Kisses and Big Giant Meaningful Hugs, Raw Foodist, Vegans, and Vegetarians, Detoxing, Nutrition, Food Science, Culinology, Cooking and Uncooking, Experimenting, Growing my own garden of herbs, fruit and vegetables, Beautiful, Sexy, Cute Females, Minature things or gigantic things, anything that will blow my mind. Languages: I've studied many languages, but never practiced enough to become fluent. I would like to master English, French, Polish, and Sign Language (ASL), Art: Fashion Design, Sketching, Drawing, Doodling, Painting, Photography, Sculpting; Murder Mysteries or Forsensic Science, Thai Massages, Scuba Diving, Sky Diving, Camping, Exercising My Brain...Committed to having it happen vs. how it happens. Committed to having it work vs. being right about the way it is. Willingness to give up what I have to get what I want.

I'd like to meet:

I'm too fascinated by people to hate anyone. It's a waste of energy anyways. I'd like to meet Peace, Love, Harmony, & People who have time for me and who I have time for...whether that time is a short moment or a moment that feels like eternity.

Music:

Evanescence, Lacuna Coil, Nine Inch Nails, Marilyn Manson, Avenge Sevenfold, Bloodsimple, Sarah McLachlan, Nightwish, After Forever, Within Temptation, Kristy Thirsk, Bjork, Delerium, Conjure One, Balligomingo, VNV Nation, Hanzel Und Gretyl, Ministry, Combichrist, The Cure, Switchblade Symphony, From Autumn to Ashes, CKY, Yanni, Edith Piaf, Jane Birkin, Christina Aguilera, Timbaland, Beenie Man, Buju Banton, Shaggy, Sean Paul, Jenny O, The Ordinary, Walk Humongous...

Movies:

Anything with Jennifer Connelly, Blood Diamond, Little Children, Krull, Moulin Rouge, Labyrinth, Legend, Quills, Justine, Camille Claudel, Amelie, Krzysztof Kieslowski movies, Roman Polanski movies, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, 1984, Barbarella, CQ, Soylent Green, Requiem for a Dream, Hulk, Waking the Dead, House of Sand and Fog, Pollock, Dark City, A Beautiful Mind, Interview with the Vampire, Kill Bill, Resident Evil, X-Men, Lord of the Rings...I know there's more... There is also a list of "movies to see" floating around...NETFLIX!!!

Television:

Whenever I have time which I rarely make for television...ALTON BROWN!!!! (I want DVD box sets if they ever come out with them), Cash Cab (never home in time), I Shouldn't Be Alive (do they still show this?), Seconds from Disaster, Forensic Files and the like...Food Network (I like to cook), Discovery channels, History channel, National Geographic Channel, Science Channels, Animal Planet, Comedy Central, E!, ESPN cheerleading if it's ever on, anything that can keep my attention or keep my mind stimulated...

Books:

WWW.GOODREADS.COM/PROFILE/KYARRADOBRIANA ..Currently focused on Completing: THE FOOD REVOLUTION: HOW YOUR DIET CAN HELP SAVE YOUR LIFE AND OUR WORLD. Just Finished: Helter Skelter: The True Story of The Manson Murders By: Vincent Bugliosi with Curt Gentry, The Vampire Lestat, Natural Cures "They" Don't Want You to Know About, Marilyn Manson: A Long Hard Road Out of Hell, Waiting: The True Confessions of a Waitress... Also Switching Between: The Power of Now, The Power of Intention, The Secret, KI In Daily Life by Koichi Tohei,Marquis de Sade: Justine, Philosophy in the Bedroom, &; Other Writings, Nietzsche - Beyond Good and Evil: Prelude to a Philosophy of the Future, The Complete Fairy Tales of the Brothers Grimm, The Money Book For the Young, Fabulous, and Broke; Waking the Dead, The Art of War, Scum Manifesto (for those who know how long ago I've started this book, I still haven't finished it!), Waiting For Godot, Czesc, Jak Sie Masz, Anne Rice's Sleeping Beauty erotic trilogy.. Waiting to read: The Complete Conversations with God: an uncommon dialogue, Catch-22, DaVinci Code (what's all the hype about?!), Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles, all of the books in the library my mom bought for us before we were born...there's more...

Heroes:

A hero to me is someone who doesn't gain or lose anything from doing what they are passionate about, but creates a difference in everything they touch.

My Blog

Brian was "The Reason" for many people

On my way home last night, I started crying listening to the words of this song.  Brittany was in the car with me.  I was originally thinking of the relationship Brian and Brittany had. ...
Posted by *Narcissus* on Thu, 05 Jun 2008 05:55:00 PST

Getting to see my brother at the site

I just finished shopping for our Mother's Day gift when I noticed my cell phone vibrating.  On purpose, I left my cell phone in the car while I was shopping thinking I would not need it.  My...
Posted by *Narcissus* on Wed, 28 May 2008 09:09:00 PST

Isnt something missing?

I never truly felt what it's like to miss someone until Brian died. Sometimes his existence feels like a vivid dream. Then I see his photos, his clothes and his room and remember what h...
Posted by *Narcissus* on Tue, 27 May 2008 05:13:00 PST

My Eulogy for Brian

This is what I had to say for those who wanted to hear it again.  Unfortunately, I sped read through it.  I took most of it from my first blog about Brian:   Brian was the closest perso...
Posted by *Narcissus* on Mon, 26 May 2008 04:26:00 PST

Funeral Arrangements for Brian (updated)

Funeral Arrangements for Brian HoSang: First Viewing (tributes can be made at this time)Date: Friday, May 23, 2008Time: 4:00 - 8:00 pmPlace: First United Methodist Church, 227 East Lincoln Ave, Mt. Ve...
Posted by *Narcissus* on Fri, 16 May 2008 10:26:00 PST

My Soulmate, My Best Friend, The Closest Person in My Life - My Little Brother, Brian

My little brother, Brian died this past Sunday (Mother's Day) around 1:30 PM in a terrible motorcycle crash.  He was riding with 2 close friends and one of our cousins coming south...
Posted by *Narcissus* on Wed, 14 May 2008 08:28:00 PST

Abortions

If people are against abortions, Do they promote what they are against aborting? If people are pro-life, Are they all vegetarians (the non OVO ones)? If people are pro-choice, Do they know that t...
Posted by *Narcissus* on Fri, 25 Apr 2008 03:54:00 PST

Grudges

I don't hold grudges.  I learned that a long time ago when I was in high school how unnecessary it is to be so angry all the time.  It wasn't until my Health teacher, Mr. Levine pointed out...
Posted by *Narcissus* on Mon, 14 Apr 2008 06:31:00 PST

Nikon D300

On our last day in Hong Kong we walked into an electronic store and my eyes fell upon the Nikon D300.  I did glance at the Canon 5D a couple to times, but we went for the Nikon D30...
Posted by *Narcissus* on Wed, 02 Apr 2008 12:49:00 PST

SOLD: MY 2000 HONDA CR-V EX

I'm selling my car.  It has been recently serviced (end of January), a new 5 year battery has been put in it, and brand new carpets.  It's black with gray cloth interior....
Posted by *Narcissus* on Fri, 15 Feb 2008 09:16:00 PST