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lets all pray for the guidance to talk and behave in a way that is pleasing to god!

About Me

I CAN BE DIFFICULT, IMPATIENT AND SENSITIVE! CERTAINLY I CAN BE IRRATIONAL: lacking the power of reason;senseless;unreasonable;absurd.!!!!!!!! BUT THE DEAL IS, THATS ME AT MY WORST AND IF U CANT HANDLE THAT THEN U DO NOT DESERVETO SEE THE BEST I CAN GIVE!!I have learned to watch what i talk about,i have learned to never loose sight of your dreams. i have learned that u dont find yourself, you invent yourself. i have learned that u reap what u sow! i have learned that what u think of me is none of my business! i have learned not to ask for someones opinion, unless i really want it. i have learned that u get what u pay for. I HAVE LEARNED THAT WATCHING REALITY T.V. FUFILLS MY NEED FOR CHAOS. I have learned that music can influence ur life. I HAVE LEARNED TO ALLOW MYSELF TO BE INSPIRED AND ALSO TO INSPIRE!! i have learned to be approachable. i have learned that the truth hurts!! i have learned that crying is a form of healing. I HAVE LEARNED THAT SUCCESS DOES NOT MEAN MATURITY. I HAVE LEARNED THAT IF I AM IN PAIN THEN IT ONLY HURTS AS LONG AS I AM BREATHING!!

My Interests

I HAVE MANY INTERESTS, BOWLING, MOVIES, CAMPING, SHOOTING POOL, TAKING BRISK WALKS AT LAKE CHABOT, EATING OUT FOR DINNER, A GOOD INTELLECTUAL CONVERSATION, THE INTERNET,MY JOB, SOMETIMES JUST HANGING OUT, BUT MOST OF ALL I really enjoy WATCHING MY CHILD GROW UP!!!! OH AND I LOVE BUTTERFLIES

I'd like to meet:

WELL YOU PROBABLY DO NOT MEAN ANYTHING TO ME BUT YOU COULD MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FRIENDS PERFERABLY PEOPLE I ALREADY KNOW OR PEOPLE FROM BACK IN SCHOOL OR EVEN BETTER YET JUST THOSE PEOPLE THAT I HAVE MET ON THIS JOURNEY OF LIVE AND FOR WHAT EVER REASON IT WAS SHORT LIVED BUT ALL PURPOSES WERE FUFILLED BECAUSE EVERY THING HAPPENDS FOR A REASON IN THIS WORLD- IF U ARE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE THEN I WANT TO REMEET U AS WELL

Music:

r&b alternetive rap musical albums some country some metal like metallica alot of 80's and 90's

Movies:

MOVIES R A GREAT PASS TIME A GREAT WAY TO GET OUT OF OURSELFSA GREAT WAY TO BE ENTERTAINED. A FEW I LIKED WAS -THE DEPARTED- TRANSFORMERS-AMERICAN GANGSTER,GORGA RULE(4 MY OWN REASONS)PERFECT STRANGER, LAKE HOUSE.

Television:

DID I HEAR SOMEONE SAY REALITY TELEVISION THATS WERE ITS AT FOR ME AT LEAST AT THIS CURRENT TIME IN MY LIFE. LOVE MY LAW N ORDER- ALL OF THEM AND CSI TOO! DISCOVERY CHANNEL IS PRETTY HOT AS WELL!

Books:

self help ones are good, for modifing all those behaviors, letting go and liking it, the secret, hes just not that in to you, bible, OK, in touch and US weekly magazines

Heroes:

jesus christ,MY SON,and MY MOTHER 4 sure!!!!!!!! an

My Blog

good

it feels like love and so overwhelming im enfatuated. actually it comes and goes but when i see him its like lightening stikes. how could something feel and seem so right but be so wrong. i knowthe pe...
Posted by *%BELIEVE%* on Sat, 13 Sep 2008 01:33:00 PST

whatever

i wonder what i was thinking exactly when i write some of these things i cannot always remember........ just keeping it real!!!!!! looking for a job tomorrow i will take another step towards success n...
Posted by *%BELIEVE%* on Wed, 10 Sep 2008 03:06:00 PST

keepin it real

so i have decided to keep my thoughts positive, i feel my strongest and have been doing things differently, just small achievements at a time. TODAY has been a long and eventful day for me and sice we...
Posted by *%BELIEVE%* on Fri, 05 Sep 2008 11:46:00 PST

most the time i do, but sometimes i do not

sometimes im scared of what this wrong path will and does bring, sometimes i just dont give a fuck. i wonder is will someone fight the battle for me when i jus do not have enough stregth in me to pull...
Posted by *%BELIEVE%* on Tue, 19 Aug 2008 04:24:00 PST

friends

i certainly need to call my friends in recovery more often way more often and stop thinking that i can do this on my own i have really resorted to isolating myself throu this process!!!! i am so bless...
Posted by *%BELIEVE%* on Thu, 17 Jul 2008 02:52:00 PST

working again

so i finally started my new job on monday totally stoked yet still totally broke!! that was funny but not really. anyway at applebees now i totally fit in i feel like im back at home but not really cu...
Posted by *%BELIEVE%* on Thu, 17 Jul 2008 02:50:00 PST

FINALLY HEALING

letting go of that day when taken from home, embrace the healing! letting go of childish threats, clutch the healing! letting go of sibling jelousy, admit to the healing! letting go of the mean girls,...
Posted by *%BELIEVE%* on Fri, 11 Jul 2008 01:21:00 PST

camping

IM GOING CAMPING NANNY NANNY POO POO!!! i am just praying that me and my fam get along the dynamics can be intence, i have asked that god guide all our behavior and be present while we are there and O...
Posted by *%BELIEVE%* on Fri, 13 Jun 2008 10:37:00 PST

the cloud has lifted

dude finally the chaos in my head is clearing up, i cant say totally and a temporary anxiety attack comes and goes!!! dude i just pray jesus is so my savior proving himself in my life over and over. t...
Posted by *%BELIEVE%* on Wed, 11 Jun 2008 07:40:00 PST

feeling bettter

omg i feel so much better god never leaves me hanging. now that my head is back on and not rolling down the street anymore!!!lol i am trully gratefull for ALL the SUPPORT  u people are trully a b...
Posted by *%BELIEVE%* on Tue, 27 May 2008 10:15:00 PST