mysti

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Hi, welcome to my space. My name is Mysti. Here's a bit about me:
I am 39 years old and I live in Southern California. I am single with no children. Not long ago, my life revolved around drugs and alcohol. All I really cared about was going out, getting buzzed. After a series of major disasters, both personal and legal, I decided to change my life. I have four years of sobriety from all drugs and alcohol as of July 2007 and my life has never been the same.
One of the biggest changes? My attitude. My attitude towards others, towards myself, but moreover towards God. Finding out about Him, understanding His forgiveness enabled me to forgive myself. I was able to see outward instead of focusing on constant critical self-talk and self-interest. Instead of wandering around worried about myself, I found taking care of myself is more important than I thought. It means more than "Wow, I made it home tonight alive!" I'm no longer searching for satisfaction or escape at the bottom of a bottle, in a bag of weed or at the end of a straw...I found that there is so much more to life! So much more than I ever knew. Learning about my own personal demons and coming to terms with them instead of running from them has been crucial to my sobriety and confidence. And my pursuit of God and His love made it all possible. I'm far from "fixed" or finished, but at least I'm finally paying attention and not going to self-destruct.
The fact that I don't have to alter my mind in order to feel okay; that I don't have to seek that "head change" in order to have a good time or make it through the day; that I can drive without fear even after being out all night with friends...it gives me a peace of mind I've never experienced. A feeling of gratitude I've never known. I'm finally learning about who I am. Learning what I'm about and what I have to offer. Finding out what I'm capable of and being proud of that. That is the best high a person can experience. As Rick (one of my very best friends) said once, "I may not have everything I want, but I definitely have everything I need." And my own quote is: "I've chosen to be stronger than a victim of my own weakness."
P.S. I've been "blogging" (or online journaling) since March 2005. I've written some pretty cool essays. I've written some silly ones. Some cool updates. Some sad musings. Some growth is apparent. If you're at all interested, feel free to take in some light reading!
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I still love Tyrone Wells of course! But I wanted to feature another artist, Sara Bareilles for a bit. I suggest buying her new CD "Little Voice". I can't stop playing it! Tyrone's music is incredible and addicting, too! Visit his page and check him out. Better yet, I suggest you buy his CDs...any one of them, they're all terrific. Go see him live if he's in your area! His touring schedule is on his page. The link to his myspace is below:
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