valerie

Before I Was A Mom I made and ate hot meals. I had unstained clothing. I had quiet conversations on the phone. Before I Was A Mom I slept as late as I wanted. I never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday. Before I Was A Mom I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to lullabies. Before I Was A Mom I didn’t worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations. Before I Was A Mom I had never been puked on, pooped on, spit on, chewed on, peed on, or pinched by tiny fingers. Before I Was A Mom I had complete control of my mind, my thoughts, my body, and my mind. I slept all night. Before I Was A Mom I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep. Before I Was A Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn’t want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn’t stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom. Before I Was A Mom I didn’t know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn’t know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn’t know that bond between a Mother and her child. I didn’t know that something so small could make me feel so important. Before I Was A Mom I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment, or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn’t know I was capable of feeling so much Before I Was A Mom.