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melanie

après nous, le déluge

About Me



mon coeur pleure...

I throw myself, with passion, into everything.

My Interests


Wikipedia.
Astro.com
Music, in all forms.
Dancing my ass off
Violins. String instruments.
Reading.
Double entendres.
Being a HUGE nerd. Nerdiness in general.
Cleanliness. Amazing hygiene. Organization. Efficiency. Competency. Manners. Respect.
COSMETICS. Ulta Shoes.
Clearance sales.
Jumping in puddles. Holding hands. Innocence. Rubbing tummies. Tickle fights. Laying in someone's arms. Playing footsie. Cuddling. Spooning. Staying young at heart forever.
Sarcasm. Wit. Teasing. Inside jokes. Laughter. Snorting when I laugh really hard.
Dancing in the rain. Dancing like a fool. Singing off key. Singing showtunes loudly in my kitchen.
Awkwardness. Quirkiness. Humbleness. Modesty. Unconventionality. Eccentricity. Individuality. Complexity. Simplicity. Mannerisms.
Passion. Pure, unreserved, raw, intoxicating, overwhelming emotion. Tearing down the walls. Complete and utter honesty. Vulnerablity. Compassion. Affection. Humor. Love. Bravery. Empathy. Healing. Getting lost in the moment.
Deep conversation. Debates. Transition. Growth. Pushing buttons. Crossing boundaries.
Animals. The Zoo. Botanical gardens. Museums. Exhibits. Art Galleries. Learning.
A million flowers in bloom.
A perfect spring day.
New lives. Tiny things.
TEA!
Ridiculous plans and schemes.
Unrealistic hopes and dreams.
The breakdowns and climaxes.
The sound and feeling of breathing on your skin. The sound of sleep.
Manhattan(my home, my heart). 15th floor lofts. Studio apartments. High rise buildings.
Fine dining. Sushi. Cooking. Vegetarianism.
Big giant open windows.
The wind blowing through your hair and down your back.
Complete darkness.
A star-lit midnight sky.
The summer sun.
The smell of the beach and the feel of warm sand between your toes.
Make up. Skin art. Hair. Photography. General Art.
Capturing the moment. Loving the memories. Being in love with an idea or ideal.
Neon lights reflecting off of water. Flooded highways. Giant puddles. Floods. Rainstorms. Thunder.
Indie films. Foreign films. Subtitles.
Writing. Poetry slams. The theatre. Musicals. Stand-up comedy. Entertainment.
Going to see movies a gazillion times at the movie theatre.
Obvious exaggeration.
Mind expansion. Experimentation. Research. Reading. Learning.
Deep thinking. Analyzation. Cross-Referencing. Being intrigued.
Philosophy. Psychology. Theology. Astrology. Theories. Spirituality. Sexology. Ontology. Ideology. Pantheism. Humanism. Surrealism. Absurdism. Existentialism. Buddhism. Taoism.
Subjective reality. Metaphysics. Quantum Cosmology. Quantum Physics.
Clairvoyant studies. Divination. Premonitive studies. Sagacity. Energy fields. Anomalous cognition. Precognition/presentiment. Psi (psi:gamma). Extra-sensory perception. General perception.
Analytical psychology. Parapsychology. Jungian psychology. Unconscious studies. Dream interpretation.
Meditation. Relaxation. Lucid dreaming. Tarot.
Modification. Change.
The human experience.
Culture. Traditions. Habits. Esoteric societies. Taboos.
People with nothing to prove or hide.
Growing old together.
Travel. Road trips. Camping trips. Random excursions. Constant change of scenery.
Pennsylvania.
Asking "why?" Figuring out "how."
The journey.
The incredible people I've met along the way (that will always be in my heart).
Living.

I'd like to meet:



people who love living.

Music:

yes please.
protopunk
and first wave punk
good old fashion rock n' roll
when music was revolutionary.

Movies:


Love Me If You Dare (jeux d'enfants)
Vanilla Sky
Party Monster
High Fidelity
Hard Candy
American History X
Identity
Capote
Fight Club
The Number 23
Premonition
Shaun Of The Dead
Borat
Walk Hard

Television:


The Truth About Food.
Will and Grace.
The Universe.
National Geographic's "Taboo"
Discovery Science Channel.
The Discovery Channel.
Late Night with Conan O'Brien.
The History Channel.
Talk Sex with Sue Johansen.
Pop up video.

Books:


Still Life With Woodpecker by Tom Robbins.
Charles Baudelaire, William Blake, Albert Camus, T S Eliot, Robert Frost, Allen Ginsberg, Richard Hell, Ernest Hemingway, Aldous Huxley, Carl Jung, Jane Kenyon, Jack Kerouac, Sylvia Plath, Anais Nin, Ranier Maria Rilke, Tom Robbins, Paul Verlaine and Oscar Wilde.

Heroes:

absolutely not.

melanie's details

Status: :)
Here for: lurking purposes
Orientation: transsexual manfish
Hometown: Linden
Body Type: 5'3"/fatty
Ethnicity: White, Native American
Religion: Zen Buddhist and Waverist
Sign: Leo/ Virgo Cusp
Smoke / Drink: no/rarely
Children: no
Education: Some college
Occupation: Secretary, Make Up Artist, Housekeeper, Child Care Worker, Writer, Plus size Model, Theorist, and Revolutionary. I like to stay busy.
Income: $43,000

My Blog

Just a watered down anecdote

Watery ruler of the dark underworldso obstinate and surewhat you lack in class you make up for in obsession. Thy who shares my glyph, though straight and extrovertedwe were once one:A single being in ...
Posted by melanie on Tue, 27 May 2008 02:37:00 PST

Its the story you’ve read a thousand times

Sleepless eyes and starless nights, I watch the sunset between my thighs.I'm friends with bad ideas that say I should keep quiet.   I'm the wave that brought Jack Dawson down. I'm the unexplainab...
Posted by melanie on Sat, 17 May 2008 11:18:00 PST

Lets do the time warp again...

I'm stuck in some sort of time warp. I keep staring at the clock, unflinchingly, but its frozen. The minute hand is stuck on 19.   The rain is beating hard at my window like a tribal drum spilli...
Posted by melanie on Mon, 12 May 2008 01:49:00 PST

Bella

Bella I betrayed you, my bellflower, My gentle garden bloom. You leaned on me for growth And I pulled you from the roots......
Posted by melanie on Thu, 08 May 2008 07:32:00 PST

anxiety is a killer

im this awkward and uncomfortable thingfull of memories and paini keep it tucked quietly inside as not to be a burdeni have to always be the strong one.it goes to my core, shaking me from the inside o...
Posted by melanie on Sun, 02 Mar 2008 05:02:00 PST

when theres nothing left to burn...

I have been a bit out of myself lately. I've just been so stressed, overwhelmed, and angry... I always have to deal with shit on my own.Sometimes it just weighs so heavy on meI accidentally ended...
Posted by melanie on Fri, 29 Feb 2008 03:50:00 PST

replacement.

I have a boy on the weekend I give my kisses to I'm getting used to his cologne And the way his feet dangle off the bed when his head is on the pillow Although I'm used to sleeping aloneI'm getting...
Posted by melanie on Mon, 25 Feb 2008 05:14:00 PST

Summer sun, I need you more than ever

Your brilliant rays kissing my skinreddening my cheeksThe glimmering drops of sweaton bronzed skincollecting in collarbonesThe days that go on foreveremcompassing the nightThe happiness in the airwher...
Posted by melanie on Thu, 27 Dec 2007 07:52:00 PST

Having it Out with Melancholy

1 FROM THE NURSEYWhen I was born, you waited behind a pile of linen in the nursery, and when we were alone, you lay down on top of me, pressing the bile of desolation into every pore. And from that da...
Posted by melanie on Sat, 22 Dec 2007 08:50:00 PST

butt sex

"Please just stay a little longer," he begs. "Can't you see I'm dying?" I would try to console him, but he was never one for hopeful words and hummingbirds. Purple hearts and red roses never really...
Posted by melanie on Wed, 05 Dec 2007 10:06:00 PST