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About Me

Emily.
You’re 17, evil and mean,
comfy and cozy, nowhere scene
You can’t deny the loser inside
all of your bad taste won’t subside.
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I am me. And that is who I will stay. Here is a little of the person I am. It's not all of it. You can't know me by a page on the internet. But you can try and get to know it.
I like;
Bright lights. Melodrama. Singing. Writing. Reading. Cuddles. Being close to people. Drama. Art. Friends. Family. Poetry and plays like Shakespeare. Candles and fairy lights. Cities, especially at night. Looking down at the world below. Music. Acoustic guitars. Gigs. Writing on clothes. Making things your own. Long nights and cold mornings. Hot chocolate. The small smile that means a million things. Rain that drenches. Photography. Flattery. Noise. Undried ink. Lipton ice tea. Sunlight through stained glass. Salvador Dali's art. Thick wool socks. Being loved.
I don't like;
Being alone. Feeling unsure. Insecurity. Posers. Fox hunting. Page three girls. Wannabes. Scratched CD's. R n' B music. Fakes. Fickle people. Betrayal. Disloyalty. Breaking promises. Everything falling apart. Fur. Tlkin lyk dis. Hot weather. Chavs. Orange foundation. Feeling flat. Knowing that you can never do that one thing again. Greed. Extreme wealth. Not sharing. Sneering. Judgers. Lies.
I love this.
"The quality of mercy is not strain'd,
It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven
Upon the place beneath. It is twice blest:
It blesseth him that gives and him that takes.
'T is mightiest in the mightiest: it becomes
The throned monarch better than his crown;
His sceptre shows the force of temporal power,
The attribute to awe and majesty,
Wherein doth sit the dread and fear of kings;
But mercy is above this sceptred sway,
It is enthroned in the hearts of kings,
It is an attribute to God himself;
And earthly power doth then show likest God's,
When mercy seasons justice. Therefore, Jew,
Though justice be thy plea, consider this,
That in the course of justice none of us
Should see salvation: we do pray for mercy;
And that same prayer doth teach us all to render
The deeds of mercy. ."
- Portia, Merchant Of Venice.
Always be the person you are. Not who you aspire to be. Even if people don't like it, accept it. You may change, but you have to want to. And you have to be comfortable with yourself before you can truly begin to accept others into your life and let them be close.
You have to be strong. Life throws you a fair amount of problems. Deal with them, no matter how much you don't want to. I've learnt that you can't push them aside.
My life is pretty much back on track right now. There are a lot of things I wish were how they were. But I have come to realise there is nothing wrong with what I look like and who I am. If people can't accept that then they have the problem, not you.
I am;
Loud. Sarcastic. Cynical. Sometimes moody. Most of the time happy. Stubborn. Passionate - when I feel I feel strongly. Imaginative. A little 'out there'. Quick to anger. Smiley. Dramatic. A person that will listen. Not afraid of meeting people. Complex (isn't everyone?). Keen to please. Someone with many faults - but at least I know I have them. Energetic. An attention-grabber. A little lazy sometimes.
I will;
Not always accept what someone tells me the first time. Fight back. Argue. Be there. Try make people feel better. Always be me. Change, it's inevitable. Defend what I think. Hopefully make you laugh. Show off. Never be quiet, unless something is bothering me. Try accept what people tell me, no matter how much it hurts.
"But now I see love is begun by time, And that I see, in passages of proof, Time qualifies the spark and fire of it." - Hamlet.lyt by avlays

My Interests

- My friends, especially Sumo and Carla.
- Music - I couldn't survive if someone took my music away from me, or burned all the radio stations, ect...though if they burned down Galaxy I wouldn't be upset in the least.
- Drama - singing, acting, dancing, performing in general. Showing off.
- Drawing and making things, like customising my clothes and stuff.
- Reading ridiculously romantic and slushy stuff to go 'aww' over. I love Romeo and Juliet. In fact, I love Shakespeare, it's so beautiful and poetic. Except King Lear, because that's dire.
- Diving and swimming, I love swimming as it makes you feel sort of...peaceful. Hard to explain!
- Just relaxing with a book to escape the chaos of the world for a bit.
- Being loud and a general annoyance to everyone, but not caring in the least.
- Doing gay things in town, like the time we walked round with A.R.S.E on our fronts with a letter each and stood in front of Subway...
- Beards.
- Pirates.
- Eyeliner and making myself look weird.
- Underground maps.

I'd like to meet:

I have already met some of the most fabulous people in the world...

Music:

When griping grief the heart doth wound,
and doleful dumps the mind opresses,
then music, with her silver sound,
with speedy help doth lend redress.

My top ten songs;

10. Anthem - Zebrahead Such a great song! It makes you want to go crazy, dance around and generally have a good time! Which is what I did when I saw this live! Great lyrics too.

9. Basket Case - Green Day Yeah, it's a classic. I don't really need to explain why it's here, to be honest. The live version on Bullet For A Bible is AMAZING, too, when the crowd take over. Always puts a smile on my face.

8. God Save the Queen - The Sex Pistols I basically got into punk music through this band, and this is one of their best songs, possibly not the best but the one that had the biggest impact on me. I loved the message it put across, the 'fuck it, we just don't care', which is what's so great about punk.

7. Now I'm Here - Queen Again not necessarily one of their best songs, but I remember it from my dad playing it in the car on trips, and I just love the riff. Brian May really knows how to play!

6. The Day The World Turned Day-Glo - X-Ray Spex This was a song stuck on the end of one of my punk compilations, and it turned out to be the best in the entire box-set. I LOVE X-Ray Spex, Poly Styrene can't sing, the playing isn't brilliant, but it all sounds just so good, and it gets across a message. It's all about having fun, and making no sense, and I love that.

5. The Nobodies - Marilyn Manson I think this song has a really powerful message, and it always makes me think. To any teenager growing up, this is pretty much life most of the time. It's really beautiful when it's acoustic, too. A powerful song.

4. All My Best Friends Are Metalheads - Less Than Jake I haven't known this song for a long time at all, but it got me into a truly great band and much more into ska music. At Leeds fest it was great when this came on, the atmosphere was brilliant and everyone around me was shouting out the lyrics. It brings back memories I love, ones I want to keep forever.

3. Peggy Sue - Buddy Holly My dad used to listen to this in the car, and it reminds me of my childhood, listening to 'See You Later, Alligator' by Bill Haley and the Comets, among others, but this one sticks out most in my memory, mostly because of how much my dad loved it. I can always remember having my earphones in and him belting it out when we were alone in the car, because he thought I couldn't hear him.

2. Girl All The Bad Guys Want - Bowling For Soup Yeah, okay, it's just fun and it doesn't really mean anything as a song. But this came out and I started to get more into punk rock music, when I didn't really know it existed before. This song reminds me of America, as it was out when I was over there and I got the album, listening to it non-stop. Everybody knows it, it's just so great.

1. Plug In Baby - Muse The song that got me into Muse, the greatest band around! Also the song that truly made me interested in rock music of all shapes and sounds. Origin of Symmetry changed me forever, and if you haven't got that album, buy it, because it's one of the best ever made. Matt Bellamy's guitar intro on this - dear lord. Could you ask for much more?

Numbers
999

A
A Thorn For Every Heart
ABBA
AC/DC
The Adverts
Aerosmith
Aiden
Alanis Morisette
Alice Cooper
Alkaline Trio
All American Rejects
Angelic Upstarts
Angels and Airwaves
Anthrax
Arch Enemy
Avenged Sevenfold

B
The Bangles
The Beach Boys
The Beatles
Bee Gees
Billy Idol
Billy Talent
Black Sabbath
Blink 182
Blondie
Blur
Bow Wow Wow
Bowling For Soup
Buddy Holly
Bullet For My Valentine
Buzzcocks

C.
The Clash
Cockney Rejects
Coheed and Cambria
Coldplay
Cradle Of Filth
Crosby, Stills, and Nash
Cute Is What We Aim For

D.
The Damned
The Darkness
Dead Kennedys
Deep Purple
Depeche Mode
Dropkick Murphys
Duran Duran

E.
Eighteen Visions
Evanescence
Every Time I Die

F.
Fall Out Boy
Feeder
Flogging Molly
Foo Fighters
Free
Funeral For A Friend

G.
Generation X
The Glitterati
The Go-Go’s
Goldfrapp
Green Day
Guns N’ Roses

H.
HIM
The Hives

I.
Idlewild
Iggy Pop
InMe
Irene Cara
Iron Maiden

J.
Jet
Jimmy Eat World

K.
Kaiser Chiefs
Katrina and the Waves
Kenny Loggins
The Killers
Killing Joke
Killswitch Engage
The Kinks
Kiss
The Knack
Korn

L.
Lacuna Coil
Led Zeppelin
Less Than Jake
Linkin Park
Lordi
Lostprophets
Lurkers

M.
Magazine
Marilyn Manson
Mastodon
The Members
Metallica
Michael Jackson
The Misfits
Motorhead
Murderdolls
Muse
My Chemical Romance

N.
Nickelback
Nightwish
Nine Inch Nails
Nirvana
No Dice
No Doubt

O.
Oasis
Ozzy Osbourne

P.
Panic! At The Disco
Pantera
Papa Roach
Paramore
Penetration
PiL
Pink Floyd
Placebo
Plasmatics
The Proclaimers
Puddle Of Mudd

Q.
Queen
Queens Of The Stone Age

R.
Rage Against The Machine
Rainbow
Rammstein
The Ramones
The Red Hot Chili Peppers
Reel Big Fish
Right Said Fred
Run Xu
The Ruts

S.
Save Ferris
Scissor Sisters
The Sex Pistols
Sham 69
Shortfall
Sid Vicious
Soft Cell
Sonic Boom Six
The Spice Girls
Stereophonics
Stevie Nicks
Stiff Little Fingers
Still Remains
Stone Sour
The Stranglers
The Strokes
Sum 41
System Of A Down

T.
Taking Back Sunday
Team Sleep
Tenacious D
Thin Lizzy
Tokyo Dragons
Towers Of London
Trivium

U.
U2
UK Subs
The Undertones
The Used

V.
Van Halen
Vanessa Carlton
The Vapors
Vice Squad

W.
Wednesday 13
Whitesnake
The White Stripes
Wire
Within Temptation

X.
X-Ray Spex
XTC

Y.
Yellowcard

Z.
Zebrahead
ZZ Top

Bands I've Seen:
Aiden x 3
Bullet For My Valentine x 2
Feeder
Fall Out Boy
Panic! At The Disco
The Glitterati x 2
The Answer
Still Remains
Hawthorne Heights [who we skanked along to]
Tokyo Dragons
The Sound Explosion
Fightstar x 2
Funeral For A Friend
Lunapins
Less Than Jake
Taking Back Sunday
Trivium
God Forbid
Mendeed
Muse
My Chemical Romance
Franz Ferdinand
Kaiser Chiefs
Arctic Monkeys [blergggh]
Killswitch Engage
The Subways
The Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Towers Of London x 2
The Tommies
Dirty Pretty Things
Run Xu
Shortfall
Placebo
Flogging Molly
Takota
Sonic Boom Six
Zebrahead

Movies:

All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages.

Moulin Rouge
Saved!
Dirty Dancing
Flashdance
Chicago
Grease
Emma
Sense and Sensibility
Pride and Prejudice
Romeo and Juliet
And Now For Something Completely Different (Monty Python)
Monty Python and The Holy Grail
Lord of The Rings 2 and 3 (1 bored me)
Bring It On
School Of Rock
Save The Last Dance

Television:

Blackadder
Green Wing
8 Out Of 10 Cats
F.R.I.E.N.D.S
Will and Grace
Vicar Of Dibley
Only Fools and Horses
Dad's Army
CSI
CSI Miami
Law and Order, Special Victims Unit
Never Mind The Buzzcocks
Fawlty Towers
Monty Python's Flying Circus
Have I Got News For You
Room 101
Peep Show
Derren Brown - Trick Of The Mind
Bleak House
Hollyoaks
My Parents Are Aliens

Books:

Chinese Cinderella - Adeline Yeh Mah
Noughts and Crosses - Malorie Blackman
The Louise Rennison books
The Pact, and Salem Falls by Jodi Picoult
Little House books, by Laura Ingalls Wilder
White Fang - Jack London
Anita and Me - Meera Syal
To Kill A Mockingbird - Harper Lee
Knife Edge - Malorie Blackman
The Curious Incident Of The Dog In The Night-Time
Feeling Sorry For Celia and Finding Cassie Crazy - Jaclyn Moriaty
Nobody In Particular - Cherry Simmonds
Once In A House Of Fire - Andrea Ashworth
George's Marvellous Medicine, The Twits, and Boy, all by Roald Dahl.

Heroes:



My Blog

2006.

January Not much that I remember of this month to be quite frank, other than being single again and rehearsals beginning for The Miracle - a lazy start to the year I guess. Sumo's new year party was a...
Posted by [EM]←[hate this and i'll love you] on Mon, 01 Jan 2007 10:04:00 PST

Feelings.

So a lot's happened recently. I'm not very good at the moment. I feel pretty useless, and inadequate, even though I shouldn't. Sumo broke up with me and this hurts so much, I don't really know what t...
Posted by [EM]←[hate this and i'll love you] on Mon, 27 Nov 2006 11:31:00 PST

Memories.

It just occured to me how fast things are going, and how time flies and doesn't let you have a moment to stop and hold things how they are. So I guess this is my testament to the good time I've had in...
Posted by [EM]←[hate this and i'll love you] on Mon, 24 Jul 2006 01:58:00 PST

London!

Sixth form went to London! And here are the pictures of a rather fun time... Emma strokes the uberness of Forrest Gump's Shirt... We always knew Mr Alfred Hitchcock was a dirty old pervert... It's ...
Posted by [EM]←[hate this and i'll love you] on Fri, 21 Jul 2006 11:39:00 PST

Artistic....or something.

Okay so I got bored and I took photos of my drawings that I've done over a while... Lemme know what you think? Or just laugh which is the likelier reaction. And I apologise in advance for the emo-nosi...
Posted by [EM]←[hate this and i'll love you] on Mon, 03 Jul 2006 11:28:00 PST

Aiden, among other things.

I went to see Aiden on Tuesday and they were frigging AWESOME! I passed out twice and I have sooo many bruises but it was worth it because I was on stage with the band and especially wiL! =] - drool -...
Posted by [EM]←[hate this and i'll love you] on Fri, 28 Apr 2006 02:22:00 PST

Yeaaaah Funeral For A Friend!

- dances the beard dance - I'm going to see Funeral For A Friend in Manchester with my lesbian pally Emma ON MY BIRTHDAY! It officially owns, and I am happy forever now. =D Well, maybe not forever, bu...
Posted by [EM]←[hate this and i'll love you] on Fri, 03 Mar 2006 12:22:00 PST

D=

I hate being ill. I was fine the other day, then out of the blue up pops this stupid illness. My dad thinks it's flu or laryngitis but I'm seeing the Doctor in a few minutes so - shrug - I'll have to ...
Posted by [EM]←[hate this and i'll love you] on Wed, 14 Dec 2005 08:55:00 PST

Doooo it! - shakes fist in shakey sort of way -

1. Who are you?2. Are we friends?3. When and how did we meet?4. How have I affected you?5. What do you think of me?6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?7. How long do you think we will be frien...
Posted by [EM]←[hate this and i'll love you] on Sat, 03 Dec 2005 07:51:00 PST

Actually looking forward to things!

Yay, it's Emma party tomorrow, and for reasons I won't go into on here, I'm really really looking forward to it as opposed to a few days ago when I was really NOT looking forward (seven minutes in cr...
Posted by [EM]←[hate this and i'll love you] on Fri, 02 Dec 2005 03:08:00 PST