*~*Lil Mami*~*

Entry for November 18, 2006 My Life True Story Hey everbody a lil change up in tonights blog compared 2 the others.Well my sons dad is in prison. Well we may not b togather but yet I make sure hes alright ya know what I mean. Dat boy has put me through so much shit. My sons dad has beat the holy hell out of me more than a few times. It went on for like 4yrs. He did it when I was carring his son and everything. Finally I left him. Well split up dis past november b/c he beat me up. After we split up I got in to alot of shit. I went fucken crazy. I did what I wanted and everything.Well I started dealing and everything b/c my job wasnt enough. Then I started dating a really nice guy at the time which was Shane, he did everything for me and my son he could he tried to get me to stop the shit I was doing. But I loved the money and the Crack and coke and shit. I mean I loved him to but I wanted to keep doing my shit ya know. Well finally he gave up on me and walked away. All he wanted was to have a normal life with me and my son and his son Jordan. But I was blinded by the dope and money. After he left I got really bad. I didnt have nobody there to help me control myself anymore. I finally lost my job @ the Home depot well I quiet it b/c I didnt need it no more. I mean I was making money, I had my dope had everthing right. Well I was wrong my mom came in and took my son. She didnt take custody but took him out of the home. Still I didnt stop. I then lost my appartment b/c of the parties and everything. I moved back home with my mother but I wasnt here I was out with my friends dealing and partying and doing me. Finally my mom got fed up with it and filed for custody of my son. Well in between dat time I got raped over drugs. Finally I stoped, It all hit me @ once. What the hell was I doing . I lost a great guy, I lost my son, my job ,my appartment everything to what? Fucken drugs. Was it worth it no?, do I regrate everything? yes. Now my mom has custody of my son and I have nothen 2 show for in my life. My life has been a straight fuck up. But I cant blame nobody but myself. I`m the one who did it. Now I am trying to get my life back. I`m finally doing better, and I will get my son back and my life. I still smoke weed and drink but who dont. Thanks everybody who has stood beside me and helped me through everything. Thank you Tina, Shane, Mom ,Dad ,Greg,Patty and anybody else I forgot. Thanks and I love u guys HOT Myspace Layouts

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