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Roderick

"He is not a lover who does not love forever.- EURIPIDES"

About Me

I'm a 30 year old computer science major at ITT-Tech,I spent 5 fives early on in life with the wrong woman,5 years recovering from it,got with a "high school crush"like a year ago which end badly.All of which has left me with many insecurity's and the inability to open up to those I want to be close with,causing me to lose the best thing in my life,leaving me alone but not with out hope.I know now what needs to be done and am determined to do it,I will fix myself and maybe someday what is lost will return
What Prince are you?

Dark Prince
You never let anyone get close to you for fear that they will hurt you. You'll never find love that way so go out there and take a chance.
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My Interests

Life is like a box of chocolate sweet at times with a lot of what the fuck was that!I like lots of stuff,Playing outdoors,learning new things(currently "still" learning to play guitar and trying to learn Japanese),Japanese culture,sports that require skill over strengh,I like hunting(mostly cuz its a chance to get away for awhile),I like animals,some are cute and loyal,some are just tasty.I like fixing stuff,I really like the rocky mountains spent some time there as a kid,can't wait to go back,thunderstorms fucking rock(unless I had outdoor activities),then there just alright.I think religion has become a poor substitute for beliefs,ther will alway be good men doing good,and evil men being evil,but only in religion do you find good men doing evil things.I'm not masochistic but I like pain,it's one of the best teachers,I like books written by wise men/women,The prophet is an amazing book,as was the art of happiness by the Dalai LamaThings I hate,waking up alone knowing she might never come back,bad drivers always going to slow,to fast,taking up two lanes(what the fuck go back to Asia),Death even though I wish I was dead a lot of the time.Fear and especialy admitting my fears,desires,I've always lost the things i desire the most,Automatic phone systems they just blow monkey balls,foreign telemarketers(what I speak English,thank you come again),Being scared of the things that go bump in my head(it has become a problem),when she says "it's not you It's me"(just fucking lie,it's takes less time to deal with one insecurity caused by your lie than the ten we'll come up with on our own).Reality TV(Ok kids today's word is Oxymoron),Illegal immigrants(if you keep coming here our country is going to suck as much as yours does),music that needs translation(sorry,hooked on ebonics didn't work for me:),Women who destroy good men,men who treat good women badly,men who walk out on thier families(thank for the abandonment issues dad,guess I can't say you never gave me anything)This is who I am sorry to disappoint you!

I'd like to meet:

I've met the Devil,I've meet the woman I will love forever but couldn't hold on to and am meeting the man I used to be over again(the man I should have been all along)All there is left to do is meet god

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Music:

Anything that has heart and soul,good guitar licks,or takes me back to better times,hell I don't know check out my playlist and you figure it out

Movies:

I like a lot of movies,my favorite is -What dreams may come-it had meaning,Juno just saw that and that shit was funny,it had a happily odd sound track,Super hero movies are usually pretty good,mob movies,scarface is a masterpiece,Reservoir Dog(I don't wanna be Mr.Pink why can't I be Mr.Black)

Television:

Not much!house,CSI,criminal minds,smallville,adultswim,trinity blood,trigun,inuyasha,samuri shamploo,robot chicken,x-files,animal planet,dicovery channel,history channel

Books:

R.A.Salvitore(darkelf trilogy hunters blade trilogy and all the books in between),Steven King books,vampire chronicles by Anne Rice

Heroes:

The Vampire Lastat,He is The"Damndest Creature"

My Blog

Yes,more words of the Profet

Of Happiness And Hope Happiness is a myth we seek    If manifested surely irks; Like river speeding to the plain,    On its arrival slows and murks. For man is happy only in &...
Posted by Roderick on Tue, 24 Jul 2007 11:27:00 PST

More....Words of the prophet

Your joy is your sorrow unmasked. And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises is oftentimes filled with your tears. And how can this  be? The deeper that sorrow carves into your being,th...
Posted by Roderick on Mon, 18 Jun 2007 11:41:00 PST

Words of the Profhet

And he said with a great voice: When love beckons to you,follow him, Though his ways are hard and steep, And when his wings enfold you yeield to him, Though the sword hidden among his pinion may wound...
Posted by Roderick on Fri, 18 May 2007 08:53:00 PST