*Dave & Lori*

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I have really messed up in my past... with men and sex. It always led to heart wrenching pain and feeling of emptiness inside. Looking in the mirror, I hated what I had become, I cried so hard I would throw up. I wanted to die. Some days I had thought of suicide. Sex was a high to me, when I felt low.... that was all I thought I needed, but the next morning I would feel emptier than before and the pain inside me was worse. How could God forgive me if I couldn't forgive myself? I couldn't stop this addiction, I had tried so hard... time and time again. My body told me I had to have it.... but it tore pieces of my soul away every time. I wanted to stop.... and I couldn't find the strength. I cried out to God in desperation, I told him the only way I could stop was if he gave me the strength because I could not stop this on my own. I prayed that God would heal me of the pain and emptiness I felt inside. As I prayed I could hear God telling me I was his anointed, that I was the daughter of a king, that he had forgiven me and that he never wastes a hurt. I asked God how I could still be called his daughter, of all things, after all I had done. How could I be anointed or forgiven after all I had done? How could he still love me after this? God told me if I wanted to be healed, I would need to give my life back over to him. In the bible, fasting was a way to reunite with God, cleanse the spirit, and usually God worked amazing things as a result of that fast. So I chose to fast sex until the day I got married. My pain and emptiness is now gone, I feel like a new creation. My addiction no longer controls me.... God does. I no longer feel bound.... I AM FREE! He has made me whole again, a new creation and given me the strength he has promised. I have counted the days I have remained "pure" for my husband and as a wedding gift to him I was able to give him the 340 days of my purity on July 27th as a wedding gift! God is so awesome!!! I could have never done this on my own.1Cor 1:27 27 But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty;God has not chosen me because I am wise or strong, but that in my weakness his strength can be seen!!Isaiah 61:1-3 1 "The Spirit of the Lord God is upon Me, Because the Lord has anointed Me To preach good tidings to the poor; He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, To proclaim liberty to the captives, And the opening of the prison to those who are bound; 2 To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord, And the day of vengeance of our God; To comfort all who mourn, 3 To console those who mourn in Zion, To give them beauty for ashes, The oil of joy for mourning, The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; That they may be called trees of righteousness, The planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified."
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