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About Me

dear lord,
i miss my grandma
take care o her
leave this day to you
lead me
teach me
i know tha devil try ta take me
i dont need em
all i need is tha good lord
lonely like tha last time
i can do it
my own
or try dyin
to tha core
thru tha bone
heal me
to them, i love em
to break, im with it
you stood next to me
im vacated
empty, to fill
i promise
a opportunity
ta see another day
you came back
in tha day, when tha paint dropped
didnt know wat color ta face it
and to search whole world
days are down
till tha love
to pray for a better day
is it really there....
-alonzo, grandson

My Blog

bak again

I slept so long, eversince i was just a kid i didnt know much i jus kept to myself not knowing how others my age acted id get a lil glimpse, then jus back away i wish i couldve did what they did have ...
Posted by on Sun, 21 Dec 2008 08:44:00 GMT

'like this'

i cant sleep at nite i want to drop a tear so itll appear right before me at the door as i open it i wish it was there closin it, bak against it tellin myself that how could i have thot i deserved or ...
Posted by on Mon, 23 Apr 2007 20:21:00 GMT

this room

as i seen u walk by thru those doors u went right into my life with the key to my heart u already knew which way to go all the signs went right out the window nuthing in tha closet seemed to matter mu...
Posted by on Sun, 22 Apr 2007 22:34:00 GMT

idk...

thru these days now, n my feelings im tryin to find like it faded with the wind they went i cant even see tha nerves that once felt like a noise in my head that the blood races thru me, n not like bef...
Posted by on Sun, 22 Apr 2007 22:09:00 GMT

me...-i or I

i wake up to a nightmare i feel my feelings then like a breeze, it goes my eyes from that once sparkle turns to white n narrow now my blade more sharp than the day before interal organ-are they there?...
Posted by on Thu, 19 Apr 2007 23:31:00 GMT

love...hahaha :D, yeah rite...

so thats love, the wishing and hoping done did only that dont know how to feel jus make it up lie sometimes tha only real truths are the lies i denied cuz i gave up waiting for another day to wake up ...
Posted by on Thu, 19 Apr 2007 23:27:00 GMT

hahaha

tha tuffest ones, hurt the most the world dont know how they should see em n they dont make the choice to be that thru there eyes, they see themselves on open moments deep som'where som'one sees ...
Posted by on Thu, 19 Apr 2007 19:57:00 GMT

:P

i break a window collaspable to take away n tha wind takes a minute aint wat i got cover'n incomin it has ha ha, yup, n i shall not beg cuz me wishes only wishes that i have flys n i dont aint me ill...
Posted by on Sat, 07 Apr 2007 21:53:00 GMT

i pray evrday...

id thot life had nuthing to it when it was so easy i played my role so innocently high on the moments and makin er'day like a smile with no effort of leaning toward reality like this, to this day...
Posted by on Thu, 22 Mar 2007 15:18:00 GMT

thru my head...yup

is it up there... can i take more... which and where... i hope i had with ploy, to space thru there, from now til then i wait to need, fair n war -dont black, only floors widowed co_recorrect, a drop ...
Posted by on Tue, 27 Feb 2007 19:27:00 GMT