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I wanted to be your everything. I watched the sparks subside. Watched the shimmer in your eyes die. Is this everything you feared? I wanted to tell you everything.
How's your life? What's it like there? Is it all that you wanted it to be? Does it hurt when you think about how broken my heart is.
Some things don't last forever, but some things do. Like a good song or a good book or a good memory you can take out and unfold in your darkest times; pressing down the corners & peering in close, hoping you still recognize the person you see there.
As I watched you put your arm around her, I felt something inside me hurt physically. An aching in my heart like it was breaking into pieces. Isn't it ironic though, as much as it tore my heart up to see you hold her, I couldn't get myself to stop watching both of you. Because all I wanted to do was imagine that I was in her place, & I was the one who actually had you.
Sometimes it's so much easier to admit that you don't care, than to admit that it's killing you.
Love is when you shed a tear & still want him. It's when he ignores you & you still love him. It's when he loves another girl, but you still smile & say, "I'm happy for you", when all you do is cry.
Close yours eyes & feel me hold you. Can you lead me through this ordinary world? Let the sky cry; rest away to wash the miles between us. Cause without you it's just an ordinary world.
Often it's the most deserving people who cannot help loving those who destroyed them.
Life doesn't give you the people you want. It gives you the people you need, help you, hurt you, love you, leave you, & make you into the person you were meant to be.
You know it's gonna hurt the most when you see your first love going about with all his friends & acting like his life hasn't changed a bit. All the while, you're sitting in the background with one thought running through your head. I can love him until I break, but never again will I be able to have him. Never again will I be able to hold his hand or tell him I love him or kiss him or even call him. From now on, he is my friend. Not my boyfriend. & it's so hard when you love someone this much, but you know it's time to let go ..
This city holds a thousand hearts. Half of them will fall apart. The rest of them will rise above, growing warm from rays of love.
Sometimes, no matter how much faith we have; we lose people, but we can never forget them. It's those memories that give us the strength to go on.
Don't you take away your world, just because the boy you adore doesn't see you as the world. I promise you; you'll see the light again someday.
Sitting here again, another love song through my ears. Thinking more & more as I fight away the tears. I just gotta know, please answer this: What the hell is wrong with me & why can't I be the one you miss?
"Michelangelo said the best way to judge the essential elements of a sculpture is to throw it down a hill & the unimportant pieces will break away. Sometimes, life is like that. It tosses us down a hill. When we reach the bottom, only the important things are left, & that's when our vision clears . That's when we hold on tight to what we know, while hope stirs inside us. It's all a matter of perspective."
"I guess it's gonna break me down, like falling when you try to fly. It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life; starts with goodbye. I know there's a blue horizon somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me . Getting there means leaving things behind. Sometimes life's so bitter sweet. But I guess it's gonna have to hurt. I guess I'm gonna have to cry & let go of some things I've loved. To get to the other side."
She'll never be good enough. & she needs to give up. & everyday she puts on a fake smile & pretends she's okay.
The heart is an amazing organ. The heart makes sure that the body receives what it needs. But the most important thing about the heart is that it is an involuntary muscle. You can't control who you love. You can't control when you lose your heart. The only thing you can do is trust; trust that the person who has your heart realizes its value.
I remember when I was love sick. You blocked out everyone. You feel so tired because you haven’t slept in forever. You know that he'll be in your dreams, but you don’t want to stay awake laying in your bed crying either. You’re starving, but you can't eat because you're starving for him & every memory just leaves you a bigger hole in your heart. Even your clothes remind you of him, what you wore when you hung out. You can still smell him all over them, even though his scent hasn’t been there for long. You wish his scent would be stuck on you, but you know you'd be pulling at your skin trying to get him off you. You’re online; he signs on, & you wanna yell at him to go away, but you just watch the screen waiting for him to say anything; then he signs off, & you tear yourself apart for not saying anything to him. You stop talking to your friends & they get worried & try comforting you, but they just make you feel worse because they think they know, but they don’t. They don’t have a damn clue.
It hurts to realize that the people you thought you'd love forever; don't love you as much as you thought they did. & they can do without you as if they never knew you at all.