CHADILLAC [is dead]

My name is Chad aka Chadillac. I've been up in this area for only about one and a half years. So far i'm loving Seattle. Well there are a couple things that could change up here. The gay scene is so fucking crazy up here.. your either in or not, which pisses me off.
[NOT ALL GAY MEN SHOP AT THE SAME STORES OR LISTEN TO THE SAME MUSIC OR LIKES TO DO DRUGS 24.7 OR JUST WANT SEX]
Since i started seeing these I stayed away from it.. started going to on a few bars outside of capital hill. Started meeting really kewl people.. plus i hate that you can't smoke in bars anymore !! grr !! pointless.
I like to hang out where there's music / great people / beer some where, where you could play pool.. write music.. whatever! I really like to go camping.. to get away from the city life for a few days, but that hasn't happen in a long ass time. So the first one who could take me away for a few days.. i'll love you forever!
I'm a pretty laid back guy.. I have some problems with my emotions.. wouldn't say i'm EMO, but I do have times where I want to be held, or even just left the fuck alone.. but that could be anyone.
LOL. So I have this fear that if I'm by myself more than 12 hours or so, I start freaking out.. lol.. mainly cause I just need someone around.. it's sad I know. So, I like to work with Pain Shop Pro.. learning some graphic designing shit.. which is fun as fuck! Wished I knew a little more than I do now. I'm hoping I'll be able to get into some school up here that deals with that. A school that doesn't cost too much.. or even find a program that would help pay for my schooling.. wouldn't that be nice.