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brian

CrucifiedComa

About Me


...where there was nature and earth, life and water, i saw a desert landscape that was unending, resembling some sort of crater, so devoid of reason and light and spirit that the mind could not grasp it on any sort of conscious level and if you came close the mind would reel backward, unable to take it in. it was a vision so clear and real and vital to me that in its purity it was almost abstract. this was what i could understand, this was how i lived my life, what i constructed my movement around, how i dealt with the tangible. this was the geography around which my reality revolved: it did not occur to me, ever, that people were good or that a man was capable of change or that the world could be a better place through one's taking pleasure in a feeling or a look or a gesture, of receiving another person's love or kindness. nothing was affirmative, the term "generosity of spirit" applied to nothing, was a cliché, was some kind of bad joke. sex is mathematics. individuality no longer an issue. what does intelligence signify? define reason. desire – meaningless. intellect is not a cure. justice is dead. fear, recrimination, innocence, sympathy, guilt, waste, failure, grief, were things, emotions, that no one really felt anymore. reflection is useless, the world is senseless. evil is its only permanence. god is not alive. love cannot be trusted. surface, surface, surface was all that anyone found meaning in... this was civilization as i saw it, colossal and jagged...

My Interests

I'd like to meet:


Music:



some of the artists/bands i like:

!T.O.O.H.!, 108, 2Pac, 3 Inches of Blood, 324, 7000 Dying Rats, 7L & Esoteric, 9 Shocks Terror, A Tribe Called Quest, Aborted, AC/DC, ACxDC, Aesop Rock, Afgrund, Ahumado Granujo, Agalloch, Agathocles, Agents of Abhorrence, Agoraphobic Nosebleed, Alarum, Alicia Keys, Alienation Mental, Amoebic Dysentery, Amon Amarth, Amon Tobin, Amy Winehouse, An Albatross, Anaal Nathrakh, Anata, Antigama, Apartment 213, Arafel, Archagathus, Arghoslent, Army of the Pharaohs, Arsis, Asphyx, Assück, At The Drive-In, Atheist, Autopsy, B.B. King, Bach, The Band, Bathtub Shitter, Beastie Boys, The Beatles, Beethoven, Behemoth, Behold...The Arctopus, Bela Fleck & The Flecktones, Belphegor, Benümb, The Berzerker, Big Daddy Kane, Birdflesh, Björk, The Black Dahlia Murder, Black Sabbath, Blind Guardian, The Blood Brothers, Blood Duster, Blood Freak, Blotted Science, Bob Dylan, Bob Marley, Bodies In The Gears of the Apparatus, Bodies Lay Broken, The Book of Knots, Boredoms, Borknagar, Broken Hope, Brotha Lynch Hung, Brother Ali, Brutal Truth, Burzum, Butcher ABC, Cage, Camera Obscura, Camutao, Canibus, Captain Cleanoff, Car Bomb, Carcass, Carnal Diafragma, Cattle Decapitation, Caustic Christ, Cenotaph, Cephalic Carnage, Chick Corea, Children of Bodom, Chopin, Circle of Dead Children, Cliteater, Clutch, Coffins, Coliseum, Commit Suicide, Company Flow, Converge, Coprofago, The Coup, The Cracow Klezmer Band, Cream, Creedence Clearwater Revival, Cretin, Cripple Bastards, Crossed Out, Crowbar, Cryptopsy, Cyness, Cynic, Dahmer, Darkthrone, Dark Tranquillity, David Bowie, The Day Everything Became Nothing, Dead Infection, Death, Death Breath, Deathspell Omega, Decapitated, Deceased, Decrepit Birth, Deeds of Flesh, Defeated Sanity, Defeatist, Degrade, Despondency, Destructive Explosion of Anal Garland, Die Apokalyptischen Reiter, Del Tha Funkee Homosapien, Demilich, Demons & Wizards, Deranged, Destruction, Devourment, Die Pigeon Die, The Dillinger Escape Plan, Dim Mak, Disfear, Disavowed, Disgorge, Dismember, Disrupt, Dissection, Dog Fashion Disco, Down, DrDoom, Dripping, Dropdead, Dub Trio, Duke Ellington, Dying Fetus, Dysrhythmia, Dystopia, El-P, Electro Quarterstaff, Emeth, Emperor, Engineer, Engorged, Ensiferum, Enslaved, EPMD, Esham, Estradasphere, Excruciating Terror, Exhale, Exhumed, Exit Wounds, Exodus, Extreme Noise Terror, Eyvind Kang, Faith No More, Fantômas, Farkmakon, Finntroll, Flagitious Idiosyncrasy In The Dilapidation, Flatlinerz, Flesh Parade, Fondlecorpse, Frank Sinatra, Frank Zappa, Frightmare, From Ashes Rise, Fuck...I'm Dead, Fuck On The Beach, Fuck The Facts, Gabby La La, Gamma Ray, General Surgery, Genghis Tron, Ghoul, Gnarls Barkley, Goatwhore, Gogol Bordello, Goratory, Gore Beyond Necropsy, Gorerotted, Gorgasm, Gorguts, Gorilla Biscuits, Gorod, Grave, Gravediggaz, The Great Redneck Hope, Green Carnation, Green Day, Gride, Gruesome Stuff Relish, Gut, Guttural Secrete, Hacksaw To The Throat, Haemorrhage, Handsome Boy Modeling School, Hank Williams, Hank Williams III, Happy Face, Hella, Helloween, Herbie Hancock, HORSE The Band, Iced Earth, Impaled, Immortal, In Flames, Infest, Ingrowing, Insision, Intervalle Bizzare, Into Eternity, Intronaut, Ion Dissonance, Iron Maiden, Isacaarum, Japanische Kampfhörspiele, Jedi Mind Tricks, Jig-Ai, Jimi Hendrix, John Coltrane, John Zorn, Johnny Cash, Judas Priest, Kalibas, Kamelot, Kataklysm, The Kill, Kill The Client, killwhitneydead, King Diamond, Kool G. Rap, Kool Keith, Kreator, Krisiun, KRS-One, La Coka Nostra, Lack of Interest, Last Days of Humanity, Leng Tch'e, Led Zeppelin, Live, Look Back And Laugh, Look What I Did, Looking For An Answer, Lord Gore, Lovage, Lycanthrophy, Lykathea Aflame, Macabre, Machetazo, Magrudergrind, Marduk, Marilyn Manson, Maroon 5, Martyr, Marvin Gaye, Matisyahu, Mayhem, Melechesh, Melt-Banana, Mercyful Fate, Meshuggah, Metallica, MF DOOM, Miles Davis, Mincing Fury and Guttural Clamour of Queer Decay, Misery Index, Mos Def, Mozart, Mr. Bungle, Mr. Lif, Mudvayne, Mumakil, Municipal Waste, Nas, Nashgul, Nasum, Ne Obliviscaris, Necro, Negativa, Negative Approach, Negligent Collateral Collapse, Neil Young, Nile, Nirvana, Non-Phixion, Norah Jones, The Notorious B.I.G., Oasis, Obituary, Odious Mortem, The Offspring, Opeth, Origin, Ornette Coleman, Overkill, Oysterhead, Pantera, Peeping Tom, Pharoahe Monch, Phlebotomized, Phobia, Pig Destroyer, Pigeon John, Pigsty, Pink Floyd, Plague Bringer, Poppy Seed Grinder, Pretty Little Flower, Primus, Protest The Hero, Psycroptic, Pungent Stench, Q Strange, Queens of the Stone Age, Quo Vadis, R.A. The Rugged Man, Rage Against The Machine, Rakim, Rammstein, Ramones, Raz Mesinai, Real Reggae, The Red Chord, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Regina Spektor, Regurgitate, Repulsion, Retaliation, Robert Johnson, The Rolling Stones, The Roots, Roskopp, Rotten Sound, Ruiner, Rumpelstiltskin Grinder, S.O.B., Sage Francis, Saprogenic, The Sawtooth Grin, Saywhy?, Scrambled Defuncts, Secret Chiefs 3, Severed Head of State, Siege, Sigh, Sikth, Skinless, Skarp, Skitsystem, Skullhog, Slayer, Sleepytime Gorilla Museum, Slipknot, The Smashing Pumpkins, Soilent Green, Spawn of Possession, Spazz, Spiral Architect, Splatterhouse, Squash Bowels, Stolen Babies, Stone Temple Pilots, Sublime, Sublime Cadaveric Decomposition, Suffocation, Sunz of Man, Super Fun Happy Slide, Swarrrm, Systematic Death, Talib Kweli, Tchaikovsky, Tech N9ne, Terminally Your Aborted Ghost, Terrorizer, Testament, Thelonious Monk, Tom Petty, Tom Waits, Tomahawk, Tool, Toxic Holocaust, Toxic Narcotic, Tragedy, Trap Them, Trash Talk, Tu Carne, Tub Ring, Twisted Into Form, Umphrey's McGee, Unearthly Trance, Unexpect, Unholy Grave, Unleashed, Venom, Victims, Visceral Bleeding, Vital Remains, Vivaldi, Vomit Remnants, Vulgar Pigeons, Watchmaker, Watchtower, Weather Report, The White Stripes, White Zombie, The Who, Wolves In The Throne Room, Woods of Ypres, World Burns To Death, The World/Inferno Friendship Society, Wormed, Wu-Tang Clan, Yacøpsæ, Zombie Ritual, Zuckuss, etc.

Movies:

Star Wars

Television:

Battlestar Galactica, Dexter

Books:

Bret Easton Ellis, Kurt Vonnegut, Philip K. Dick, Richard Dawkins, Fyodor Dostoevsky, etc.

My Blog

shows (updated: 4/1/08)

most of the shows i’ve been to: 04/01/08 - Converge, The Red Chord, Baroness, Genghis Tron @ Blender Theater02/29/08 - The Red Chord @ Blender Theater01/16/08 - The Black Dahlia Murder, 3 Inches...
Posted by brian on Sat, 13 Oct 2007 08:39:00 PST