"Life of Meaning vs. Life of Happiness
Two very different paths. To be truly happy a man must live absolutely in the present. No thought of what's gone before or what lies ahead. But a life of meaning a man must wallow in the past and obsess about the future."
I was born and raised in the US, but born and raised to love my native roots. My fobbiness tends to come out when least expected. Even though I am really not one. Life was lived carefree, and up till now I live life unbound to the realities of time. Which may be the reason why I am almost always late to everything. I like to keep things organized and simplified. But not too organized, some of it just becomes uneccesary organization. I am for sure not a perfectionist, but I don't like a half-a$$ job done. I like to work hard, and of course play hard. I am stubborn, yet I see things with an objective view. I am competitve, attributing the basic characteristics of a "jock". I like to win, I hate to lose AND suck doing it. I would be okay losing, as long as I don't suck. But when I suck, so does my mood. My vibes are contagious, people around me can feel my anger and depression, and it spreads like a relentless virus. I am it's only antidote. I'm a sap for affection, even though I openly abhor it and am disgusted by the theatrics behind it, I too would like to be loved and told so. I absolutely, positively, and most definitely have the hardest time talking about my own feelings. I struggle. I really do. I have a temper. I know I do and that's changing. Physically, I can be fearless. Emotionally, I am scared out of my mind. I strive to be patient, I believe good things will come on their own. I make promises I know can keep. I always stay true to my word. I give my best and ask for nothing in return. I cry on the inside, but smile on the outside. I live in the fast lane, but I drive on the slow lane.
a new found possibility...
Life goes up and down.Keep looking up. Move forward. The past is just memories. Can't change it. Live now to die tomorrow. Love your family. Cherish your friends. Hold nothing back. Overcome. Obstacles are made to conquer. Pursue the trials. Live through the triumph. Rise above. Life is your OWN. Own your life. Give your best. Follow your heart. Mind is Logic. There are paths in life. Make choices. Don't be afraid. Face your fears. You're not alone. Stumble then rise. Have bravery in the midst of fear. I fear. I hurt. Ignore the pain. Cover it with laughter. I wonder. Ignore the questions. Cover it with isolation. I can't. I won't.