I miss new york. utterly. terribly. horribly.

I will never wish for more than this
Carrie, not Caroline. A Business graduate residing in London with buckets full of dreams. I have a prettyful and spectacular boyfriend, and an idyllic city apartment. I pretty much love architecture, cultures, travelling, letter writing, stamp collecting and vintage clothing. A lyricist, model, musician and a follower of theories. I aspire to be a celebrity personal assistant or manage indie rock bands. I am very emotional about music, particularly indie, soul, jazz, gypsy, jewish and blues. Pretty much into finding out as much as I can about Nazi, Jewish and Communism history, currently taking my German extensive language course and visiting as much as East Europe as possible. I like to work for established bands. I often wander into Lee Rosy's tea shop for some charming morning tea. I am always making emigration plans for New York. It is there I envision the start of my life. I often think I am killing time until then. I don't care for religion, trust, American politics, being mistaken for Jewish, horse racing, close knit families, drugs and alcohol, stupidity, breastfeeding, most human beings, and those who waste their life away. I do care for learning, aspirations, tea, patriotism and British politics, impeccable spelling, fashion, documentaries, SJP, frankfurters, languages, architecture, making music and singing, Dior, history, London and NYC. Actually think a lot of people are bullshit. And in the hardest of times you notice just who sticks around. I will probably have babies with the names of Jessica, Georgia, Harriet, Matilda, Gretel, Lenka, Berlin, Indie, Franka, Alexa, Missy, Alice, Gertrid, Martha, Bethany, Eliza & Emélija. I often feel disconnected from other humans, their actions leave me numb. I am a smart, snobby, stubborn, aspirational, skinny, conservative, opinionated, superior, creative, strong, serious individual with a body similar to that of a 12 yr old lanky boy. I believe in overcoming traumas, lifestyles and units. I am incredibly strong and wise after what feels like a life time of hurt. I sometimes think I have grown up too fast, but have the rest of my life to flourish and idolise the girl I am.
I have high hopes, overwhelming dreams, know I can do anything and have a boyfriend by my side that most girls would cut their arm off for. ♥