table, td {
background-color:transparent;
border:"";
border-width:2;}
WELCOME TO MY PAGE
V
A
N
E
S
S
A
I write what I can not say to the world and to myself ::: I'VE GROWN ACCUSTOMED TOO MASKING A LOT OF MY FEARS. EMOTIONAL PAIN COMES ALMOST READILY AT TIMES. HENCE, I FIND MYSELF WRITING TO UNMASK SUCH FEARS AND SUCH PAINS
I reflect on the past to take in what is literally unfolding right before my very eyes
For those who don't know, I'll be honest and upfront about it...I REALLY HAVE NOTHING TO HIDE NOR FEAR AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE. I get constantly asked if I have any regrets to how my life has changed over the past 4 years...My IMMEDIATE ANSWER IS "NO"
:::
With that said, for all those wanting to know more about me, you must first understand what being "TRANSGENDERED or TRANSSEXUAL" is all about ::: I put that in the open simply because it's who I am and what my lifestyle entails ::: I've come along way in this personal journey of mine ::: As I reflect on what has happened to me in the past; the lonely roads that seemed endless in it's appearance; the searching for answers only to realize that the answers would somehow piece itself together when the TIME WAS FINALLY RIGHT
:::
I like experiencing new things in my life as well as having to learn if not re-learn the mistakes I've done in the past, so that I can truly appreciate the hard taught lessons that life has thrown in my direction over the years
:::
I'm a down to earth person that can appreciate a joke here and there and be serious and compassionate when necessary
:::
When it comes to my circle of friends, you'll know that I hold just a few dear to my heart. Simply because just as I've embarked on this journey of mine (8 years), each and everyone of those in my life that i'm fortunate enough to call my friends, have been there since I took that first step of "confronting" and "accepting" who I was and who I wanted to be
:::
Overall I'm easy going and I enjoy the little things that life has to offer which is largely due to my mother and father's influence ::: Although on the outside my life may seem chaotic at times, but for those who know me, they'll agree that it's far from the truth granted my overall view on life is filled with happy times and peaceful/meaningful times with the special people in my life
:::
I'm neither complicated nor superficial despite what you might hear...lol ::: I tend to be outspoken at times which is not necessarily a bad thing for some ::: My personality is probably one of the most rare jems that you'll ever encounter; so i've been told. =) Sometimes, even when I stand still, dramas seem to find me (Nothing I provoke I must add). Yet on the other hand, I can give the greatest advice to my dearest friends, but on the other hand, fall short to my own problems
:::
I'm the type of person that appreciates the simple things in life ::: I like rainy days just as well as sunny days
:::
My views on life are simple:
Treat today like there is no tomorrow
Never fear what you have failed at in the past
Happiness is neither a concept you learn nor acquire-its meant to be experienced
and lastly, that you don't need anyone (i.e. boyfriend/girlfriend) in your life to validate that you exist
:::
L
O
V
E
E
N
D
L
E
S
S
L
Y
`~*Gentle White Rose*~`
***GENTLE WHITE ROSE***
A gentle white rose floats towards the ground,
gliding from side to side, a swich without a sound.
At each turn, wings push towards me softly with love,
wings of beauty, of purity, of innocence, of a dove.
Advocates of destiny, gradually decending to fate,
the inevitable pummate must come soon or it will be too late.
Down down past the stars, the moon, through the air,
time, the only obstacle shall wither me without a care.
I will be gone, never to return in this time,
you will land unaware that you should have been mine.
But I shall return and continue my wait,
you will come into my life, this is simple fate.
My gentle white rose will fly gently into my arms,
You will be with me forever and bless me with your charms.
Until that day comes, I will stand here and never oppose
life and death, an eternity, waiting, for my gentle white rose
VANESSA*ADRIYENNE
SONG PLAYING:
"Kristine Sa"
":::JOIN:::"
":::JOIN:::"
