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im pretty i was voted most unique 2005 camas high school aim member crznrd8 ill support you even if you make a wrong decision....but i will never lie to you even when you want me to. im honest, as a result im a jerk, im lonely, im hurt alot, and im constantly right, whether i want to be or not, im also the first person whose going to notice when your not feeling yourself, when something really important changes, and ill know why and how. some have called me genius, others psychic, some stalker. the fact is i pay attention to what people do, and i can guess what you will do long before you do it, and trust me, it'll piss you off cus im right. i beleive in god, the one true consistancy in life and beyond it. and even if you beleive god doesnt exist, you will come to learn that even if he never existed, he exists inside of me. i live for him, and as a result i live for everyone of you. those who know me best would call me a waiter, not because i serve people, but simply because i wait, i sit, and i wait, i watch and i listen, and when people come to find answers, i provide them with the knowledge ive gained watching and waiting (as a result i often have trouble sleeping as well). i choose my words very carefully, and i rarely repeat myself, if i do repeat myself, it means that much more that i mean what ive said, what i say i mean, and not just in my heart but in my actions as well. i like to play devils advocate, and it often angers people, i like to test the limits of what they beleive, whether i agree or not. theres no point in doing something if you dont know why your doing it, that goes for living, that goes for success, that goes for religion, and all else in life and even outside of it. ....................................................... "dont worry: destiny holds the only true trump card" ................................................... "love doesnt take time, it takes compassion and understanding, neither of which are promised in time." .................................................... "things are so much clearer when you're dead" .................................................... "life aint about making the right choices, its about making them for the right reasons" .................................................... "remember me when your out walkin, and the snow falls high outside your door, late at night when your not sleepin, and the moonlight crawls across your floor, i cant hurt you anymore" .................................................... "an experience that teaches us something in life is nothing more than a story we haven't already read" ...................................................... "all that is required for evil to win, is that a good man do nothing" ...................................................... "do not suppose that i have come to bring peace to the earth. i did not come to bring peace, but a sword. For i have come to turn a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in law, a mans enemies will be the members of his own household" ...................................................... "since many are boasting in hte way teh world does, i too will boast. you gladly put up with fools insce you are so wise! in fact, you even put up with anyone who enslaves you or exploits you or takes advantage of you or pushes himself foreword or slaps you in the face. to my shame i admit that we were too weak for that." ....................................................... "the most common regret in this day and age is not regretting things that should have been."

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her, in six years when she figures out she can love me.

My Blog

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I feel like that guy in the movies who is walking off into the sunset, and as the movie fades hes just kinda etched there even though the story is over and the picture is gone.I'm constantly walking a...
Posted by on Mon, 11 May 2009 02:15:00 GMT

alive

I am never more alive than the times i am alone.  It's simply a matter of reality, that we as human beings cannot consciously exist until the hullaballoo quiets down and our mind forces us to face the...
Posted by on Sun, 26 Apr 2009 00:11:00 GMT

sir comforance

Sidling into a more comfortable rhythm of life we often forget the way we felt before the rhythm.  Having felt a need to "get out of our rut" we de-compress the feelings and elations of the past into ...
Posted by on Mon, 23 Mar 2009 02:06:00 GMT

the pie that binds us

A friend of mine adores pie, more often than most people i've met do.  One might say he pursues pie more than sex, and could be right.  Despite what little he has to spend and take time away from for ...
Posted by on Mon, 09 Mar 2009 22:00:00 GMT

indescribable descriptions

This is the day that the lord has made, man has destroyed, and for which i will grieve.  There are those who are lost, and then there are those who seek to be found.  Tonight a man who is found rememb...
Posted by on Tue, 17 Feb 2009 22:02:00 GMT

spaced

sorry, i completely spaced the monologue i intended to write down. was just going over my blogs and noticed that little thought. ironically this morning around 3 am i was sauntering through a neat ...
Posted by on Mon, 26 Jan 2009 06:03:00 GMT

the next four years: predictions for future i told you sos

1) retirement plans dropped, from 401k's to pension plans, what is maintained as a necessity for the workplace will be lost in the crumbling economy of the next 4 years.2)a second larger bailout bill,...
Posted by on Wed, 05 Nov 2008 15:03:00 GMT

the futility of success

first off, sorry i have yet to get to the monologue, lots of stuff getting in the way.it seems so foolish to me that we spend the majority of our life chasing after things that are of the world. not ...
Posted by on Mon, 22 Sep 2008 05:59:00 GMT

countering contradiction

over the past short while ive been attacked over a peice of my history that is sorely missing in my blogs and my online reality. a select few of my closest and most mature friends (aside from those i...
Posted by on Thu, 04 Sep 2008 11:42:00 GMT

the burden of not seeking truth

as the democratic convention comes to a close, and the speeches and acceptances and people become to truly come out in favor of one candidate or another, i find myself realizing for the first time how...
Posted by on Sun, 31 Aug 2008 08:19:00 GMT