Sinette

Truth Above All Things

I'm Sinette which I'm sure you all know. Anyways, I like to stay optimistic and embrace the environment. Sushi I love and as for peeps...I'm pretty much chill with everyone. I DON'T like drama. Growing up I've always thought that the best way to live life is to depend on being self sufficient. I always thought of myself as a very strong, independent individual whose life only consists of the sole purpose of being self reliant. Fortunately, I didn't really pick up any of my mother's traits being that I somewhat raised myself and picked up good ethics on my own. I don't usually raise my voice and I tend to stay patient most of the time. When I was growing up in junior high, I tried hard to stay away from the common social scene. I wanted to be different, I wanted to be unique. I pushed many people away and was very skeptical of everyone and everything. Life didn't treat me as well as I wanted and friends as well as my behavioral conducts were just mere facades to hide who I really was. But that later back fired on me.

As years passed by, self realization slapped me hard in the face. I realized that everything tangible on this earth had no meaning in the end. I felt that life itself on earth had no meaning, no purpose. Something far beyond comparison was missing. I realized that I was a lost, wretched being dying to find something to satisfy my needs. I tried to find my purpose in life during senior high. I was seeking for something that would convict my purpose in life and in turn, bring me joy. I figured that helping others would be a definite purpose for my existence and thought that if I accomplish a lifestyle to helping others, it would finally bring me happiness in life. However, it just never pointed in the exact direction I needed to go towards. Even though helping others is great path to choose, it still didn't point to one definite thing. I was so confused; so empty inside. That incomparable something was still missing. I had been overlooking the real meaning of life all along. Before, I would try to figure out my purpose but only found that it directed me to too many different aspects. I was so confused; I couldn’t make complete sense of it.

But as of now, things are making sense. I know the real reason behind my want to help humanity. There are things in life which you cannot explain with words, things that struck your life from time to time and left you in awe. I started putting the pieces together and figured it thoroughly. And now, it lead me this far. I'm starting to see things clearly. I have found my purpose and the reason behind it. I have found the very essence of satisfaction that was missing in my life. I know my direction and know exactly where it leads. I finally see the light as it guides me.