So, you wanna hang out with me tonight? Well...
sn: antiraz0r.
bright. just like the stars above me.
proud. just like my mother planned it.
short. on all the things I don't want.
I am full of love and longing. "I am a collage of unaccounted for brush strokes. I am all random." I am exceptionally lonely most of the time. Invite me somewhere. I'll say yes. I am a transcendentalist. I am inaccessible. I am an artist. "You want to run me like a freight elevator, stick things in me then say I'll see you later." No. I will not have sex with you. I am uncomfortable most places. I am a feminist. I am unemployed! I am introverted and insecure and suspicious. "I've never met a person I couldn't call a beauty." I get very jealous. I am incredibly, probably overly, protective of people that I care about. I am a sucker for a pair of red shoes. "My chief want in life is someone who shall make me do what I can." I am passive-aggressive and non-confrontational and I hate it I'm working on it. I am not a good conversationalist and I often find myself thinking that those who are considered such speak obviously, redundantly, or boringly. If I can't find something valuable to say I won't say anything at all. I really do enjoy a good romantic comedy. I need to find everything out for myself. "We've got nowhere to go. We've got nothing to do. Instead of dancing alone I should be dancing with you." The vast majority of girls make me very uncomfortable. My sister is a felon. My hands go numb when I have a nightmare. I enjoy a steaming plate of buttered spaghetti. I like pasta in general. I am confused about a lot of things. I like rain. I listen to music. I have a god damn opinion & I will articulate it in an intelligent, if not objective way. Once in a while I will choose my cat over you. It's nothing personal. I value honesty and compassion and tolerance, maybe above all else. Maybe not. I am so bitter that it disgusts even me. "I'm talking about not covering every square inch of populated America with houses and strip-malls until you can't remember what happens when you stand in a meadow at dusk." Stuffed animals at garage sales make me sad. I don't know how to make friends. "I was never cool in school. I'm sure you don't remember me." I want to be needed. I am a hypocrite, but I don't like to be. Because I really believe all of the advice I give. I'm shallow. I'm terribly shallow, but no one really notices that at first because the standards by which I make my judgments aren't very conventional. I have japanese steel. I. HATE. Milfs. I get hurt easily and hold grudges. I don't want to hurt your feelings. Unexpected compassion makes me cry. "She doesn't have the titties, she doesn't have the ass, she doesn't have the thick ass mexican thighs that I possess." I am a pervert. I'm catty. I'm really, really not as mean as I appear to be. I wish I could riverdance when standing on top of la jolla ice cream shops. "When I go out some like to get me drunk and wild, but the only thing you get tonight is my fucking drink tab." I can't stand it when people that I don't like like the same things as me. I am selfish. I hate sharing my things, but I love giving people their own things and being there when they think no one is. I swear and I do care if it bothers you. I'm socially awkward. I suck at intimacy and I have a fear of commitment, but I'm great at friendship... if you stick around long enough for me to warm up to you. "and I would like to blame it on the artist in me, but there's no one here who buys that bullshit." Pretentious little fuckers need not apply. Souther Salazar .
and if you ever wanna try
your hand at forcing my
suicide, come on, fucker,
and reach out for the sun.