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a wise girl kisses but doesnt love, listens but doesnt believe, and leaves before she is left

About Me

still on a quest to find myself and my place in a world that seems anything but what i want it to be. i tend to get lost in my ideas having hard time following through. maybe this is my downfall. they say im talented yet i havent figured out how to reap the benefits of. all i know is music is the only thing that keeps me sane...keeps me going. that and the loves of my life, my nieces. without those things i dont know what id do. i wish i could be young forever and always be discovering and searching for something new. but the truth is im not as young as id like to be and i feel like my search is limited. i made a move to chicago last year and like all things in my life i managed to screw it up. money money money kids. so thus ive had to make an even bigger decision...accept it come back to orlando to fix my mistake and do it better next time. lil did i know i brought along some extra baggage...a baby boy named jude. heres to my life as a mom and a future rockstar. time to embrace change.

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Living: Pat Benetar, Tim Burton, Geoff Emerick, Kurt Halsey, Mark Ryden Deceased: Tommy Dowd, John Lennon

My Blog

florida again

so heres the story that should hopefully answer all that you are wanting to ask me.bottom line this is the first time in my life that i feel like i cant get control of it. the uncertainty scares the ...
Posted by on Sun, 10 Aug 2008 05:57:00 GMT

never promise

its so weird how a heart can remember so much and hold on for so long. maybe u know that too and thats why you keep me at a distance. aside from the fact that we live in different states. i wonder ...
Posted by on Thu, 22 May 2008 18:44:00 GMT

releasing tension

stand still. be quiet. dont say another word. unless your telling me that u want it, as much as i know u do. you know that i want it too.come here. get closer. put your and on my heart. follow the bea...
Posted by on Tue, 13 May 2008 12:45:00 GMT

drummers do get love

dangerously inviting; the rhythm of your hands painting drums with the sound bleeding from your face ignite a melody in thunder's lightening crash a dance erupts this still born heart crazy beaten to ...
Posted by on Tue, 22 Jan 2008 15:24:00 GMT

for the one...

for the one who had it first my hand, my heart, my innocence was yours but you grew weak when we couldnt see eachother everyday with everything id given still you managed to go astray for the one who...
Posted by on Mon, 30 Jul 2007 15:53:00 GMT

lets talk

ok kids heres the deal.  im not sure where i am in life but i know where i want to go.  ive come to some realizations recently and not sure how i should approach them.  friends can only...
Posted by on Sat, 28 Jul 2007 13:25:00 GMT

what am i gonna do?

-about finding work? -about remembering and applying what i learned in school? -about trying to move to LA? -about getting back on my feet? -about my loans? -about leaving my niece? -about not letting...
Posted by on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 15:51:00 GMT

bad luck has struck again

well kids its happened again.  i gotta say 2 years is a long time to let yourself go without getting hung up.  or should i say get hung?  that previous blog was a last attempt to h...
Posted by on Wed, 24 Jan 2007 00:33:00 GMT

to whom it may concern: im hung up on you

here i go again.  another hopeless confession with no satisfying outcome.  not completely your fault though.  i blame mostly myself for having knowledge and control of the circumstances...
Posted by on Thu, 18 Jan 2007 11:35:00 GMT

may i have your attention please

so pathetic is what ive come down to.  no, seriously.  2yrs without a bedtime buddy is far too long.  and in those 2yrs ive encountered 2 boys who sympathized just enough to keep me com...
Posted by on Wed, 06 Dec 2006 18:55:00 GMT