april lalala

I call myself aprilala. I can be easily moved by opinions in my personal problems. I know I’m trying really hard to express myself to people whom I just met on the spot. I wanted to be loud with new friends but nature would automatically stop me from being one. I learned a lot from the things I positively & negatively gained and accept the fact that time will come that I’ll get down on my knees to have regrets and say sorry to people I’ve hurt & will be hurt. I love to criticize a lot of things but I know for certain that before they criticize me I already recognized and reflect my mistakes. I know it sounds far from reality but I know myself well rather than you know me. People who spread rumors like me are not just interested with you but sometimes they just actually hate your existence but not to say that it’s insecurity. I know that and I know you spread rumors too? And for people who are saying they don’t backstab or they hate backstabbers, does that mean that you hate yourself too? Think of it. I’m proud of my vices & I won’t stress a thing that I am not doing it just to say I’m a good person. Oh get a life! We don’t wish to hear what you don’t want and what you want in life. It’s just a matter of how you learn to weigh things. The way you talk or the way you dress or whatever does not see uniqueness but by the way you get along with people that surrounds you. Expressing myself doesn’t mean I’m perfect or saying this just to change the way you think of me. I just wanted to say everything, contrast on what you believe. :)