About Me
hello :-)im victoria louise beck
and for me thats what its all about^^
i tend to think that winter is the best time in the world!
i absolutely adore maths lessons with natasha and adam. and i want it to stay the way it is forever. maths till i die.
yes thats right.
toby carvery is my homeboy.
Daniel is the best thing in my life and when we cruise in the landrover and get saluted by fellow landroverers it amuses me no enddd!!
i'm constantly smiling when hes around and i care about him more than anyone, ever.
i also enjoy naming all of the animals on his farm and helping him and his dad wrestle sheeps! haha.
i'd say at the moment i'm pretty much worry free. i don't tend to say much when im genuinely upset. but nowadays that is an EXTREMELY rare occurence.
sometimes i wish it was easier to see whos really in the wrong. but i do try.
and i think heartache is the worst pain i've ever felt, and honestly dont moan at me about how much something hurts, infact dont even mention it, because i really dont have any sympathy for you.
not holding your breath really works he knows me more than i know myself.
think twice.
i really enjoy badminton and i think that it amuses me way too much when the shuttlecock gets stuck in between the strings on the bat thing.
:)
my dad calls me a wind-up merchant and i'm a good liar. it gets me out of a lot of shit.
i like to push my limits.
i am patient with things. not people.
i like to do things others claim can't be done, just to prove them wrong.
I never say never.
i hate disappointment.
and i believe that anyone can do something, i cannot stand it when people do not even try. live your fucking life and do something worthwhile. go out and enjoy the day, get a natural high. for once in your life.
i take care to notice the little things, i take in more than you'd probably expect. im observant and my mind works quickly, unless you ring me in the middle of the night and im asleep. people who dont take in the beauty of the world and think about how lucky they truly are really agitate me. i wish i could open peoples eyes.
why can't everything be simple? like it was in infant school when my biggest worry of the day was if i would be allowed to write in colour or not. i wish so bad i was tiny again.
and i don't know what it is with me but play with my hair.
i've got a lot to say, but it doesnt mean i'll always say it. i know that different people think differently, and if i know that you've made your own opinions on whatever, i respect that. it really pisses me off when people are so self righteous and so priveleged they think that it gives them the right to shout out their poorly developed and irrational opinions above all others.
i believe that you have to experience things first hand before you know anything. and i'm proud to say i have.
and i think that for some people private school is a waste of fucking money. snobbery is at the pinnacle of what is wrong with society.
i want to live in the country, with a big old house and a big green field. with two horses. fuck your modern flats, smoke and grime.
i don't come from a bad background, but neither do i come from a particularly privileged one. i know how it feels to have money, but i know exactly how it feels to have none. I've socialized with the highest and the lowest. and i've seen for myself what goes on.
my parents let me grow up how i wanted, and its made me who i am today. i base my opinions on personal experiences not on what people have told me. and i'll never just "be told" something. prove it.
i love the fact i was allowed to roam, to run around with no shoes, and wear what the fuck i want. i have memories and experiences that most people do not. and i have never, ever, been sheltered from the real world, or what really goes on behind closed doors.
i work hard for my money and spend it all on something worthwhile. i am not afraid to get my hands filthy and im not ashamed of my life. i am proud of who i am.
too many people have things handed to them on a silver plate. don't let it be you. work hard for what you want and put in the effort. because it makes all the difference when you achieve what you've worked so hard for. feel pride and never give up.
it chills me to the bone how corrupt this world is. i just wish i could understand how someone could push their morals so far aside? i can't explain how much it scares me that the people who run this country do the darkest things. and what are we supposed to do when we cant turn to the authorities? its sick it really is.
there are certain parts of my life which i never want to change and i find it so hard to let go. everything has memories. im dealing with it though.
and i wish that i could realise that funny things out of context dont make sense and trying to put them into context makes them tedious.
and i wish i could realise everyones pains and i wish i knew the answer to your sorrow. i really do.
people change, people move on. my friends at the moment are fantastic. a better bunch of people i could not wish for.
i am honest and strong willed, i will tell people what i think and i really don't hold back. i guess you could say you can always tell what mood i'm in.
and i dont pretend for anyone, ever.
i have someone that i can tell everything. and i mean everything. Its hard for me to open up and when i do i can rarely put my feelings into words, but he still understands exactly what i mean.
i was brought up well and i don't like to feel scruffy or different to usual. i hate my hair being greasy. i rarely regret anymore. i no longer end up disgusted that i missed that chance or walked right past that open door because i grab every opportunity. I am surrounded by a successful driven and oppportunistic community, i'm massively glad that i got out from such a dead end place. i am actually going somewhere in life.
i like to double check and i cannot tolerate nor understand carelessness.
i honestly do love to see people show integrity.whenever you make a mistake, go back and fix it. no matter how hard it might seem. or how insignificant it might appear. chances are, it'll make the world of difference to someone else.
