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rolan

About Me

I'm Rolan

If I don't know you, chances are, I hate you

There isn't much more you need to know


Estuans interius ira vehementi in amaritudine loquor mee menti: factus de materia, cinis elementi similis sum folio, de quo ludunt venti.
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||| 36%
Stability |||||||||||| 46%
Orderliness |||||||||||| 50%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||| 70%
Interdependence |||||||||||| 50%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 70%
Mystical |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Artistic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Religious |||||||||||||||| 70%
Hedonism |||||| 30%
Materialism |||||||||||||| 56%
Narcissism |||||||||||||||| 70%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 63%
Work ethic |||||| 23%
Self absorbed |||||||||||| 50%
Conflict seeking |||||||||| 36%
Need to dominate |||||||||||| 43%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Avoidant |||||| 30%
Anti-authority |||||||||||| 43%
Wealth |||||||||||| 50%
Dependency |||||||||| 36%
Change averse |||||| 23%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Individuality |||||||||||| 50%
Sexuality |||||||||| 36%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 43%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Physical Fitness |||||||||||||||| 64%
Histrionic |||| 16%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Vanity |||||||||||| 43%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Female cliche |||||||||||||||||| 76% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.

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Anger rests on my fingertips
A place where God (I am told) no longer lives
A mass of flesh they love to beat
But not without identity

~Virgin Black

~~~~~~


It's like I'll disappear as soon as I close my eyes I feel like I've turned into someone that even I don't recognize Sadly, I've become so small I want to be rescued, but instead of sighing I vomited up my loneliness, and just lay there, measuring it all up

Amidst this drop of time gone dry My heart is drowning and writhing These lies that make me dizzy I took them and tore them up And with that, I became lost In a world of thin darkness.

For the sake of those whom I should trust I chose to come here, a cage into which I've locked myself, and now there's no escape. Deep inside my parched throat Lies the reason for this growing impermanence Scared of the approaching tomorrow I cower and collapse But it seeks me out and whispers to me This voice of thin darkness.

~BANA


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My Interests

Anime

Music

Writing

My guitar, drums, piano, and violin

Final Fantasy

Gaming

Cosplay

Tricking

Martial Arts

Hermetic Sciences and the occult

Running over things in big trucks wearing a viking hat

Finding money in my car

Getting banned from Whole Foods for throwing assholes into meat stands

Explosions, violence, other healthy American concepts.

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I'd like to meet:

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Music:

~~HIM

~~Smashing Pumpkins

~~Virgin Black

~~Broken September

~~Tool

~~A Perfect Circle

~~Rammstein

~~Theatre of Tragedy

~~Static X

~~Cradle of Filth

~~NIN

~~Nirvana

~~Lacuna Coil

~~Disturbed

~~The Cure

~~X

~~Korn

~~Kidney Thieves

~~Led Zeppelin

~~BLOOD

~~The Verve

~~Agent Orange

~~Gorillaz

~~Dir en Grey

~~London After Midnight

~~Machines of Loving Grace

~~Razed In Black

~~Head Control System

~~Within Temptation

~~Violent Femmes

~~For Love Not Lisa

~~Ramones

~~Anthrax

~~Aliene Ma'Riage

~~Flogging Molly

~~Drowning Pool

~~Powerman 5000

~~Mudvayne

~~Quruli

~~Dimmu Borgir

~~Depeche Mode

~~Chevelle

~~Finger Eleven

~~Trapt

~~Damageplan

~~12012

~~Grantz

~~Green Milk From The Planet Orange

~~Triple Barrel Sunshine

~~Psydoll

~~Polysics

~~Coal Chamber

~~Children of Bodom

~~Grendel

~~Dead Star Assembly

~~Dope Stars In.

~~Dope

~~Psyclon Nine

~~Bile

~~Arch Enemy

~~Squirrel Nut Zippers

~~KMFDM

~~My Chemical Romance

~~CKY

~~Malice Mizer

~~Dream Theater

~~Mon Frere

~~Suidakra

~~In Flames

~~Sentenced

~~Bauhaus

~~Gamma Ray

~~Zeromancer

~~My Dying Bride

~~Manson

~~Faceless

~~Sputnik Monroe

~~She Wants Revenge

~~Slipknot

~~Frankenstein Drag Queens From the Planet 13

~~A Fire Inside

~~Rikets

~~Iggy Pop

~~Hammerfall

~~Wednesday 13

~~The Misfits

~~Switchblade Symphony

~~Killswitch Engage

~~Killswitch...Klick

~~T3CHN0PH0B1A

~~Renholder

~~Rhapsody

~~My Life With the Thrill Kill Kult

~~My Bloody Valentine

~~Mortiis

~~Jack Off Jill

~~Iced Earth

~~Helltrain

~~God Module

~~Echoes of Eternity

~~Evanescence

~~Dead Can Dance

~~Dark Tranquillity

~~Crisis

~~Carnal Forge

~~Cake

~~Blind Guardian

~~Bleed the Sky

~~Anathema

~~A Dark Halo

~~The 69 Eyes

~~Jane's Addiction

~~Iron Maiden

~~Killing Process

~~Deadman

~~Mindless Self Indulgence

~~The Hush Sound

~~The Decemberists

~~Mucc

~~Black Label Society

~~Manchild

~~Cruxshadows

~~Shocker_TV

~~Lacrimas Profundere

~~Tally Hall

~~Modest Mouse

~~Postal Service

~~Moby

~~Jet

~~The Strokes

~~The White Stripes

~~The Zutons

~~Opeth

~~Mr. Ed Jumps The Gun

~~System of a Down

~~Scudelia Electro

~~Yeah Yeah Yeahs

~~Bana (not that Jah music stoner, but the Japanese one)

~~Yuki Kajiura

~~Muse

~~Peelander Z

~~Noise

~~Mr.Children

~~The Killers

~~Queens of the Stone Age

~~Deftones

~~Jay Gordon

~~Rolling Stones

~~Bob Dylan

~~Darude

~~Beck

~~Group X

~~The Pillows

~~Glass Eden

~~Todesbonden

~~Gregg Bloom

Movies:


((Advent Children))

((Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind))

((Donnie Darko))

((The Jacket))

((Lost in Translation))

((The Crow))

((Boondock Saints))

((Six Strong Guys))

((Kiss Kiss Bang Bang))

((Old Boy))

((Night of the Living Dead))

((Killer Clowns from Outer Space))

((Nosferatu))

((V For Vendetta))

((Office Space))

((Edward Scissor Hands))

((Dude Where's My Ca))

((The Grudge))

((The Ring))

((Pirates of the Caribbean))

((Interview With a Vampire))

((Queen of the Damned~~ Just cause Lestat))

((Blade 1 & 2~~ Not 3))

((I Heart Huckabees))

((The Weatherman))

((Nightmare Before Christmas))

Television:


((Pinky and the Brain))

((Any way underbudget Asian programming))

((Most Extreme Elimination Challenge))

((Hellsing))

((Invader Zim))

((Family Guy))

((ATHF))

((.Hack//Sign))

((Cowboy Bebop))

((Kenshin))

((FLCL))

((Witch Hunter Robin))

((King of Bandits:Jing))


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Books:



Manga

The Grat Gatsby

The Meaning of Night

The Fantastic Journey to the Mushroom Planet

Meloncholy of the Oyster Boy

Lost Years of Merlin

(All of Ann Rice, H.P. Lovecraft, and Edgar Allan Poe)

Ecstasia

Heroes:


~Virgil Roger DuPont III~

~Gatsby~

~Spike Spiegel~

~H.P. Lovecraft~

~Paul Boese~

~Tim Burton~

~Squall Leonhart~

~Ville Valo~

~Jesus~

~The waiter at IHOP that doesn't suck

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My Blog

Lovers Out Of Time (Written By: Geryd Gonzales With Creative Input By: Sam Probst)

LOVERS OUT OF TIMEThe Reason Why Means Nothing To Lovers Out Of Time Feelings Flow Unwavering Thoughts Are Left Behind Blind Is Now his Conscience Emotion Now her Drive Reaching For flesh Ceasel...
Posted by -Bl`ckjack- on Sun, 13 Jul 2008 02:44:00 PST

Ablaze

Bring your torch.  Light your flame. Bring your matches.  Pack them away. Now it's time.  Set them free. Salvation through a burning sea Let's set the city ablaze, darling. Light em up...
Posted by -Bl`ckjack- on Wed, 03 Jan 2007 11:01:00 PST

Forgetting Empathy

Forging shadows, painting lovescenes, so desperately.Escape the sunrise, into moonlight.  Lie to me.I only wanted to feel so aliveBut hearts seem to see less in their midnightI found what I wante...
Posted by -Bl`ckjack- on Wed, 28 Nov 2007 02:13:00 PST

An Echo's End

One hundred years, it seems the cause of words lie sleeping But new faith to the sound of something real finally comes creeping Through the shadowed halls it crawls not seen, not heard, but wanting t...
Posted by -Bl`ckjack- on Mon, 18 Dec 2006 06:23:00 PST

The Day that Never Was

Her sunday brings my monday moon just one day older, mine Had I not lived just one day soon, Our pasts would intertwine. A day too late to tell the old tomorrow's tale, already told, we'll never know...
Posted by -Bl`ckjack- on Mon, 20 Nov 2006 12:53:00 PST

Irony In All It's Grace

((A couple people have asked me about mistakes in my writing, or cliche's, but I assure you, everything is written how it is intentionally.  To let some of you in on how I think, I'm going to exp...
Posted by -Bl`ckjack- on Sat, 12 Aug 2006 09:32:00 PST

The Skeptic

Should we let go before holding on To spare fates lips a more wicked song Meetings of chance in lovesongs have shown To be traps leading dreamers cold and alone It's better we leave this moment be Le...
Posted by -Bl`ckjack- on Sun, 16 Jul 2006 06:55:00 PST

From the Nothing

In this world lament in tears I'll be the one that stands apart A silent hand of writhing fears To purge it's sorrow burdened heart The widow meets a bitter end But bitterness she names her friend A ...
Posted by -Bl`ckjack- on Sun, 16 Jul 2006 06:33:00 PST

A Question Posed

So darling, see, now here we are fighting for our lives and severed to the ground, we fall on a battlefield of lies Shattered, broken, and reaper saught we should have stood together, but alone we fa...
Posted by -Bl`ckjack- on Fri, 14 Jul 2006 10:48:00 PST

Child of Wisdom

Dear Misses Optimist with your head and hand raised high, why do you continue to beat on what has reached its end? There's nothing left to convince a shipwrecked vessel to sail again. There's nothin...
Posted by -Bl`ckjack- on Wed, 12 Jul 2006 05:58:00 PST