"when you take charge of your life, there is no longer a need to ask permission of other people or the society at large. when you ask for permission, you give someone veto power over your life, but when you make your own decision, you veto someone else's right to control your life."i am Andrea pham,i have noticed that life never seems to meet my expectations, it is never the way i imagine it to be. so, i have learned to just go with the flow, to not hope for too much or too little, to just deal with things as they come and go, to not force things to happen, and to let them slowly unfold by themselves, because if it was meant to happen, it will.i have realized that there are people who honestly care about me, who really do want the best for me, and who does hold my best interests at heart. but i have also learned that there are people out there who couldn't care less for me, someone who just wants to hurt me and ruin my life, someone who puts their own selfish wants first, and someone who badly judges me before even getting to know me. but i have learned to live for the ones who care, the ones who will always be my side, the ones who are always welcoming me back with open arms, the ones who will forget my ignorant mistakes and stupid decisions, and the ones that will always provide me with a place in their hearts. and to forget the unimportant people who have let our friendship disintergrate, the ones who treat me like a stranger, and the ones who cannot even spare me a smile.i am open to making new friendships and willing to embrace people, because i do not want to be the source of someone's loneliness or melancholic feelings. i want to be able to provide someone with happy memories, a shoulder to lean on, constant support, and daily smiles. i want to be a friend who is able to share the happy times and celebrate with you, the hard times and carrying your burden with you, the sad times and cry with you, and the upsetting time and punch down walls with you.i am tired of having to hide my personality and my true nature. i am tired of living up to other people's expectations and perspective of me. i am just going to be me from now, just live my life the way i want to and not worry about judgments, to be satisfy with my life and change my outlook on life, to remain positive through everything, and to put others before myself.i want to fall in love with someone who whole-heartedly loves me back. a special boy who can be comfortable with me and someone i can share my true personality and thoughts with. an honest boy who will not lie to me and a caring boy who will not try to hurt me with the truth. someone who will stick by me through everything, someone who is willing to lend me their shoulder to cry on, someone who will give me strength through the tough times, and someone who is willing to accept my support. i want a boy that will place me before his friends, a boy that will miss me easily and wish to see me daily. a boy who does not mind doing corny things once in awhile to make me smile, a boy who will give me an occasional surprise, and a boy who shows me he cares without even realizing it. somehow, i have the feeling that i have already met my special boy.i promise to be strong, to not be easily broken down, to not let tears fall from my eyes for silly reasons, to never put myself in an immensely vulnerable position, and to never let my heart shatter into a million pieces again for something that was not worth it and not entirely my own fault. i will learn to not let my guard down so easily, to not open my heart up so quickly, and to constantly protect my heart, mentality, and sanity from harm.i want to become an independent individual, a strong and determined woman. a person who is able to do things on her own, accomplish all of her goals, reach her dream, and create her own happiness. a girl who is assertive, outgoing, and straightforward. someone who will not wait for destiny, but instead create her own fate and future. this is who i want to be. pretty self-explanatory. i absolutely love him
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