~Beautiful Liar~

Need to contaminate to alleviate this loneliness~my whole existence is flawed~it won't give up it wants me dead goddamn this noise inside my head~need you dream you find you taste you fuck you use you scar you break you lose me hate me smash me erase me~oh my beautiful liar oh my precious whore my disease my infection I am so impure~I focus on the pain the only thing that's real~I will let you down I will make you hurt~If I could start again a million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way~i feel my hatred grow all the more extreme~there's nothing left for me to hide. i lost my ignorance, security and pride. i'm all alone in a world you must despise. i believed that promises, your promises and lies~i'll cross my heart and hope to die but the needle's already in my eye. and all the world's weight is on my back and i don't even know why. and what i used to think was me is just a fading memory~i'm down to just to thing. and i'm starting to scare myself~i just want something. i just want something i can never have~now i'm slipping on the tears you made me cry~i'm drunk. and right now i'm so in love with you~nothing quite like the feel of something new~this is the first day of my last days~my lips may promise but my heart is a whore~perfect little dream the kind that hurts the most~What if everything around you Isn't quite as it seems? What if all the world you used to know Is an elaborate dream? And if you look at your reflection Is it all you wanted to be? What if you could look right through the cracks Would you find yourself Find yourself afriad to see? ............................................................ ............................................................ ............................................................ ....................NIN