//Chaos\\ ™ - ProfilesArchive

About Me

I'm shy,
I'm awkward,
I'm funny,
I'm self-concious,
I'm jealous,
I talk too much,
I don't say enough,
I say things I shouldn't,
I don't say things I should,
I'm deep,
I'm shallow,
I lust,
I'm detached,
I love,
I hate,
I'm saved,
I'm incomplete...
I am so many things, and I am none of them. I am someone of many things, and someone of nothing. I am a living duality. The person you see on the outside, isn't who's inside. I'm not as strong as I appear. I'm not the person you thought I was.
I'm a Christian, through and through, but I do a terrible job showing it. Things I say and things I do never reflect that fact and it irks me to no end. I love Jesus with all my heart, I just need to get my head and my heart on the same page and, I am working on it so very hard.
I try my hardest to make sense of it all, and sometimes, sometimes I really do. Other times, though, I make a mess of everything, making those around me hurt. I never mean for it to happen that way, but it always ends up like that. I love, I love so much, and so many things, but, I can never do it right. I feel too much and too little at the same time. I just hope that someday, someday I can find someone who can put up with me and love me for what I am. Not who I am, but, what I am. The mess that is, 'Jared'
I don't pity myself, I don't hate myself, or anything like that. I'm not emo, and I don't think the world is out to get me. I'm just being honest with myself and everyone else for once in my life. I know that I'm just your average guy trying to figure things out, and I'm doing my best, but I make so many mistakes and regret everything I do at times. And other times, I love everything in my life.
My friends and my family mean the world to me and I would be nowhere without them. Nowhere, because I count on them for so much, so much support, so much love, so much life. They're my everything.
Music is my first love. I've played the guitar for ages and I still don't think I'm very good. It's what I do when I'm sad, when I'm happy, when I'm frustrated. It's what I go to when the world is at me back trying to bring me down.
I am so many things, I have so much to offer, I just don't know how to use it most of the time. If you want to talk, just shoot me a message =]

My Interests

I'm Jared. The first, last and only Jared you'll meet like me.
I am who I am because of what I've been through, the people I've met, then things I've done and seen. I cannot undo any one of them. I will not change for anyone.I love so many things and so many people, it would be hard to write it in this little box. Just ask =]

I'd like to meet:

Anyone, really. I love people, I love meeting new faces, new personalities. I love hearing of new experiences and comparing mine to them.
I'd like to find that special girl too.

Music:

Anything and everything under the sun. I'm sure I like atleast one song that you might. I'm a person of many tastes and I love finding new things that refresh my passion for music. Processed music isn't my thing, but if it has heart, I'm there. Especially if it has a badass drumline.
Van Halen is my all time favorite band, whether I actually listen to them a lot at the time or not. They're the reason I started playing guitar in the first place, so I think I kind of owe it to them really. lol.
Metal is my first love though. Screaming, loud, fast guitar riffing, double-bass so fast your heart could explode. Those, are what makes metal better than the rest.

Movies:

I love anything 80s.
The Breakfast Club
Top Gun
Transformers: The Movie
Robot Jox
Night of the Comet

I love movies in general, though. Almost as much as I love music, so you're sure to find that we have atleast one favorite in common.

Television:

I don't really watch much Television lately. Too many reality shows for my liking, really.
I do, however, have a soft spot for Disney shows, both new and old. Home Improvement, is my all time favorite though, hands down. I could watch it forever.
I really love Anime as well. Especially mecha anime, like Gundam and the like. Anything with a lot of action. Dragonball Z is another of my favorites.

Books:

I don't really have many favorites at this point, but I intend on expanding my library in the near future. =]

Heroes:

My Family, every single member is a hero of mine for some reason or another. I wouldn't be where I am, or the person I am without them, and I could never thank them enough for everything they've done. I love them dearly.
My mom and my grandpa are especially dear to me. They've gotten me through so much. I owe them a lot. I love you both so much <3 =]

My Blog

...and on the eighth day, God created metal.

I was perusing iTunes today for some new music to get into, specifically, metal. I came across the band August Burns Red (awesome band by the way, check'em out) and one of the reviewers had ...
Posted by //Chaos\\ ™ on Sun, 30 Sep 2007 03:36:00 PST

w00t

Leave your name in my blog comments. Once you do that, this is what I'll do for you...1. I'll respond with something random about you.2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.3. I'll pick a ...
Posted by //Chaos\\ ™ on Wed, 12 Sep 2007 06:47:00 PST

Transformers (2007) Movie Review

First of all let me just say: (This has been made spoiler-free for all those who haven't seen it, highlight to read) ahem... HOLY MOTHER FUCKING SHIT! This movie was by far the absolute greatest movie...
Posted by //Chaos\\ ™ on Tue, 03 Jul 2007 12:03:00 PST

Here's Life

Graduation is just around the corner. Everybody is getting their last minute college stuff sent off. Planning their last summer of freedom before the iron gridlock of society clamps down on them. Just...
Posted by //Chaos\\ ™ on Fri, 31 Mar 2006 03:47:00 PST

Girlfriend Application :P

iF YoUr a girL titLe this b0y frieNd appLicati0n aNd iF YoUr a b0y ThEn titLe this girL frieNd appLicati0n. rep0st this aNd see wh0s eLigibLe t0 be YoUr speciaL s0me0ne. haVe fuN!!!Send it back if you...
Posted by //Chaos\\ ™ on Sun, 25 Dec 2005 06:46:00 PST

Questions, I Needs Answers lol

do this cuz ill love you forever...haha 1. ask me anything 2. tell me something you like about me personally 3. name something you like about me physically 4. whats your favorite memory of/with me? 5...
Posted by //Chaos\\ ™ on Sun, 20 Nov 2005 12:11:00 PST

A Survey Thingy

*. . . W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R . . .*1) pierce your nose or tongue? tongue2) be serious or be funny? either works, but funny stuff rules3) drink whole or skim milk?: whole, skim milk is just...eww...
Posted by //Chaos\\ ™ on Wed, 12 Oct 2005 06:40:00 PST

First Day Back

Man, this day was pretty cool. I mean they almost completely screwed up my schedule and put me in classes i either had taken the year previous or never signed up for. The real cool part about this day...
Posted by //Chaos\\ ™ on Mon, 29 Aug 2005 10:54:00 PST

My Dream Rig

Guitars Main Stage Guitars:All Guitars equipped with Original Floyd Rose Tremelo and EVH D-Tuna Kramer Vanguard - Tuned Flat (Eb Ab Db Gb Bb Eb) .009 stringsPeavey Raptor Custom - Tuned 1 Step D...
Posted by //Chaos\\ ™ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Good Lord...Sighs

Man, this summer has been the longest/most boring one ive endured that i can remember. I mean on a normal summer vacation my family would ship off to visit the fam and whatnot...but this year i guess ...
Posted by //Chaos\\ ™ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST