Saxony

this is the kinda shit that matters. . . hannah doing lizzy style dancing with jenna on sound My philosophy is pretty standard and pretty generic but i try and keep an open mind "regret the things you do rather than the things you don't". I want to go to UCLA after doing an art foundation year. i usually want to escape. I need sunshine and a camera to make me happy and a roomfull of people and water - thats warm. i try and verbalise whats going on but for the most i dont. Its pretty unhealthy but its all i know. i love cliches and 'moments'. i collect stuff. so much stuff, like memories, photographs, ticket stubs, stickers, shoes, hats, perfume and lists. my room is a collage of 2006 and im planning to create a collage of 2007. ive started printing the pictures. i like statements and fortune cookies. i am exessive. i add in things in the middle instead of the end. i think on some level everyone wants to be so different but in the end we all live we all have to cope and then we all die. i used to start conversations with "isnt it weird. . ." - i stopped doing that now. i love perfect timing, poetic justice and karma. things that irritate me about myself are mostly what irritate me about other people. i hate feeling alone both mentaly and physically. crap eyebrows annoy me. i love making things. i love my subjects and i really want to do well, i love doing english but i am so ridiculiously crap at spelling. im sad i dropped philosophy. i want to hang on to my childhood. im bored of being single but am anti-commitment. i feel like iv had 2 seperate lives and i love stumbling on an unexpected or forgotten memory. i look forward to the summer even during the summer. the deep stuff is always unrequited. i would consider myself a happy cheery and positive person but i occasionally go through moments of a mild depression and i wont let anyone in. i try to be as open as possible. i believe we dont give each other enough compliments. i have decided that no matter where in the world i am and no matter what i am doing, i am going to come back to england to go to WOMAD and reading fest. i hate my birthday. i love putting in effort to make other peoples birthdays amazing. family guy is quite funny. i think music is a drug and i love seeing a band perform a song that i know all the lyrics to. im not loving working in sainsburys at the moment. i have some random weird beliefs and thoughts that i like to keep hold of whether they are logically co-herant or not. i love fashion - but doesnt everyone say that? i hate feeling un-original and looking the same. friends mean everything to me and family will always be there. i love being social and meeting new people but i hate it when i meet someone and they are 'lame'. i think everyone has a good side. i over do it sometimes and need to sleep. i hate going to sleep but i love sleeping in. i dont mind whether people read this or not, its just me :) i tend to personalise things and allow myself to be walked over alot. sometimes i dont though. when i go into topshop i feel like i dont fit in - isnt that pathetic? i havnt met alot of people who share my taste. i love it when i find someone who shares my humour or can make me truly laugh. theres one thing in the world that can make me cry - i will probly never talk about it and you would probably never understand. i want to meet someone funny enough so that when i think back to what they have said or done i laugh again. my phone stresses me out but i would be lost without it. technology hates me. my ipod is water logged, my last 2 phones were stolen, i stood on my computer and my tv doesnt work when it rains. i look like my dad. i have family in America and South Africa. i cant lie - in person. i can lie on the phone and i can lie over email or txt or myspace but i cannot tell a lie in person. alcohol is my drug of choice, its the one that makes me giggly and out-going i dont have the time for other the other shit. iv tried it but i dont like it - and i dont like what it does to my friends. i love frappaccinos - alot. i love starfish and things that make me think of the beach. saltwater hair and sleeping in a bikini, the smell of water on wood and when its just rained on the pavement. i like having knowledge of things and knowing interesting facts. its so sad that first kisses are usually drunk kisses. i hate feeling like iv been lied to. theres one voice i can never hear again. i love movie quotes and finding the right moment to use one. i love hearing someone else use one and recognising it. i hate being cold. i like brand names and vintage things, superficial as it may be. i love mixing genres. i like variation and i hate routine but i love tradition - the personal kind. i hate how recycled maidenhead is, i really do. i love inside jokes. sometimes i wonder about my parents taste (we have the ugliest picture of two pigs above our stove) but i like my house. lighting matters so much to me, it can really affect my mood, i am a visual person. when i am visually satisfied for the most part i am content and visa versa. looks matter. . . for about the inital 3 seconds, from then personality takes over and moulds my opinion of a person. i love the old 90's teen movies like "10 things i hate about you" "she's all that" "never been kissed" "cruel intentions" "can't hardly wait" and i hate the new cheesy ones like "john tucker must die" (but the girl is so buff) "high school musical" "cinderella story" and "just my luck". i get told i look like a series of random people, of which i look like none (britney spears, natasha bedding field, elliot from scrubs, the olsen twins, hilary duff, rachel stevens)i like being obscene - sometimes. if i let my hair grow out it would be a crappy light dust colour. i dyed it dark once and found i was allergic to the hair dye. i want my tongue pierced but my mom would kick me out. i also am considering doing my hair like hayley from paramore, but then i realised that i wouldnt be able to borrow anyones id. i dont like to big myself up. i dont like snow. for the most part i can act confident and do embarrasing things but really im shy and insecure. i hate feeling trapped and claustrophobic, e.g. i cant wear socks to bed, i hate carrying bags when i go shopping and no matter how cold it is i always take my jacket off when i get to work. i love it when things fit perfectly. i wrote all this because im the kind of person who reads this on other peoples profiles. i recon i know myself better than anyone will ever know me.(for jenna: i like big things!!. . i like small things) "itchytriggerfingernigger" i wish i could paint my nails crazy colours but im not allowed to for work. i analyse myself a lot.