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Well there isnt much to me.I miss my mom and dad. I do vocals in signed death metal band called Bloodchurn. It's a great way to vent and I have a good time. Without music my cause would be lost. I am easy going and family oriented. I would probably be called a procrastinator in the truest sense of the word. I have a limited number of people that i call my friends. I dont care for people who look for the bad in others first and try to make them the butt of there jokes. I have a certain place for my sons Sebastian and Nikoli. They are everything to me. I love my wife Michelle for what she puts up with for me. I am my worst nightmare in the way that I make things hard on myself unknowingly and unwillingly. I dont get mad or stand up for myself like I should. Thats where the laid back part comes in. All in all, I am just trying to survive in this chaotic state.

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nothing

feelingnothingdreamingnightmareslivingnot breathingcriessilentalonepunishmentemptyreflections in the mirrorstopwantingacceptsilencedriftingin and out of realitywishingit would end
Posted by on Sun, 20 Dec 2009 10:50:00 GMT

drift

so intensestarting from withinthis pain that grows in mesitting so helplesswatching as the one you love driftsaway with the tidesan ocean so vastno way homeone last look into the eyesof a dream become...
Posted by on Thu, 17 Dec 2009 13:15:00 GMT

awakening

emotionlessstaring into a computer screenan escapea mind left to wandercrying tearsof broken hearts we are madeleft out in the colddead silencelisten to both halfs beatholding onwanting to stop breath...
Posted by on Sat, 05 Dec 2009 05:24:00 GMT

dead inside

its like an empty spacea holenothing but black insidewithout remorseemotions interfereduncontrollablenow aloneagain with the nightmareswhen there is sleeptearsbut it's only one
Posted by on Fri, 04 Dec 2009 03:29:00 GMT

passing by

time goes by without a tracelike dirt through your fingersis the meaning of life deathbeyond the stars we lookstaring into balckfading awaygone
Posted by on Fri, 16 Oct 2009 15:59:00 GMT

point of change

in secondslostwithout wordsfearempty handsbloodypaving the way for the machinetaking a breath of pollutionpoisonedhumanities downfallevolutionwhat is realloveexistance is optionalsuicidechoosing a dar...
Posted by on Thu, 15 Oct 2009 17:25:00 GMT