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Katrina Beans

Harold, everyone has the right to make an ass out of themselves. You just can't let the world judge

About Me

I like these quotes:
"I am the moon
and I have less to show for it then you think."
-Elizabeth Light
"Everyone has a secret world inside them.
All the people in the whole world.
I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside;
Inside them they've all got unimaginable, magnificent,
wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands, maybe."
--Neil Gaiman, Sandman
I am grateful. Very, very, grateful. I have a wonderful amazing awesome great boyfriend, two good jobs, wonderous cool beans great friends, a lovely loving kitty, books, sunshine & stars, and really, that's pretty awesome to me.
I lost my mother October 17th, 2007, and nothing for me will ever be the same. She was more my best friend than anything else, someone who was always there no matter what. A lot of my life now is trying to figure out how I'm going to handle these new feelings stemming from her physical absence, this ache that seems endless & enormous. Without the people I do still have, I don't know how I'd make it. Like I said, I'm a lucky girl.
Obviously, there's no way everything about anyone is ever going to fit on any dang page, so if you have questions, I like being asked things. Talk to me!
p.s. my 'headline' is a quote from The Amber Spyglass, the third book in the His Dark Materials trilogy, by Phillip Pullman (the first book of which is The Golden Compass).

My Interests

averted eyes, bathrooms, being ridiculous, being startled, bending the rules, big sur, bill hicks, bloody hands, bouncy balls, breaking things, breath, Mr. Bubbins, captain planet, carl jung, change, chewing on my skin, choke, coffee, collages, colors, compliments, confessions in stone, connections, donnie darko, e.e. cummings, emotion, escape, evil eyes, experiments, felt tip pens, firefly, fruit, gas stations, geek love, hannibal, haunting, high fidelity, huxley, italy, jeanette winterson, kindness, kissin' kate barlow, kissing, laughter, learning, looking, madmen, midnight walking, momma, morning showers, my angel, never again, obsession, rage, ray bradbury, razors, repore, robert cormier, running, screaming, serial killers, sewing, spirit, steppenwolf, sweaty touching, talking, tequila, the da vinci code, the halloween tree, the moon, typewriters, undeniable laughter, walking, writing, zero... among other things. Heh.

I'd like to meet:

People who enjoy crayons and construction paper, the simple things in life. People who never settle, in life or in desire. People with scars and shiny habits, habits for shiny things. People with not so shiny habits, or no habits at all. People. Musicians and drifters, people who hide and people who walk with their head high as clouds. I want to meet passionate people and hear their tales, I want to meet people who like holding hands. People who love gluing things, people with a passion that burns eternally inside and out. I want to meet psychos with dark edges, and I want to meet those who are insane. You know, people. And cats. And dogs, especially rottweilers. Birds, lizards and snakes. Things.

Music:

EL-P, Brazilian Girls, The Flamingos!, Dissonants, Bright Eyes!!!, The Mountain Goats, Xaenith, Deicide, The Door Keys, Ghost Mice, Soul Coughing, Defiance Ohio, Animal Collective, Sigur Ros, Sass Dragons, Prizzy Prizzy Please, The Magnetic Fields, Arcade Fire, T.V. on the Radio, the barn rats, Andrew Bird, Otis and The Rufies, Make Up, Give up the Ghost, Modest Mouse, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Beethoven, Thrice, A fire inside, primitive radio gods, tears for fears, love and rockets, samhain, misfits, hoodoo gurus, Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds, Dust From a Thousand Years, The Accidents, ♥PAL, What The Kids Want, Sissies, Fleshies, Tom Waits, Billie Holliday, buckethead, bill hicks, Elvis, mindless self indulgence, air, radiohead, dog fashion disco, deftones, atmosphere, twiztid, ICP, blaze, esham, Tech Nyne, Outkast, Slipknot, Pretty Girls Make Graves, Toadies, Flaming Lips, Against Me!, Rasputina, Marilyn Manson, Tool, a perfect circle, the platters, tones on tail, mazzy star, X, echo and the bunnymen, hedwig and the angry inch, NIN, alanis morrisette, Mudvayne, Stabbing Westward, Sublime, Drugstore, The Cramps, Some Girls, The Clash, The Cure, The Exploding Curve, secret chiefs 3, tenacious d, Planet Trash, Gravedigger, Ugly Casanova, L7, Lunachicks, Old 97's, Sage Francis, smoke or fire, ani difranco, and on and on...

Movies:

Secondhand Lions kicks so much ass. Little Miss Sunshine. Gangs of New York. Harold and Maude forever. Equilibrium. Everything is Illuminated, oh my god. Copycat. The Crow. I got through years where I watch that movie every day. Hard Candy. V for Vendetta. True Romance. Batman Begins. Secretary. Natural Born Killers. The Princess Bride. Amelie. Donnie Darko. Fight Club. Bram Stokers Dracula, may I please have sex with Dracula? Phantom of the Opera. Edward Scissorhands. The Nightmare Before Christmas. The Lost Boys.

Television:

Buffy and Angel. The Oblongs. The X-Files. DEXTER. Stuff like that.

Books:

Going for titles here: Darkly Dreaming Dexter, Dearly Devoted Dexter, The Time Traveler's Wife, Another Roadside Attraction, Half Asleep In Frog Pajamas, Skinny Legs And All, I'M OK - YOU'RE OK, the da vinci code, angels and demons, here on earth, white oleander, american scream: the bill hicks story, everville, kiss the girls, red dragon, ♥Hannibal♥, silence of the lambs, choke, survivor, diary, lullaby, invisible monsters, stranger than fiction, am I blue?, animal farm, geek love, virgin suicides, encyclopedia of serial killers, e.e. cummings, love warps the mind a little, the green mile, catcher in the rye, one flew over the cukoos nest, the great shark hunt, I know this much is true, she's come undone, written on the body, generation x, girlfriend in a coma, tomcat in love, steppenwolf, the things they carried, franny and zooey, still ife with woodpecker, even cowgirls get the blues, and on and on...

Heroes:

My Momma is pretty much my favorite person, forever, and there were certain aspects of her that made her my all time top hero, but there's others. Like Mr. Larry Diamond, Dr. Larry, frogs. Harold and Maude. Dexter Morgan. Haley Stark. Hannibal. Iorek Byrnison. Will Parry. My friends and family. Actually, there are few people I have met that I don't find something amazing in, albeit at times something small. It still adds up much quicker than my brain can compute. And the female squirrel from The Sword and the Stone. She rules.

My Blog

yo yo yo, home slices...

It’s a boring survey!!! Woo-who!!!1.) Are you single, in a relationship, or married? If you are single, skip to question 4.I am totally taken, thank you. Happily, I might add.2.) If you are in a...
Posted by Katrina Beans on Tue, 18 Mar 2008 10:05:00 PST

Its just a towel, right? Wrong.

So, I have a towel, or I had a towel, a purple towel, that I loved very much. It was the right size, and it had the right feel to it-towels these days, new lush ones, I dunno, they seem kind of water ...
Posted by Katrina Beans on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 03:04:00 PST

It’s a day for bloggin, I suppose.

So, in going through my email account, one of them, I (re)discovered a secret journal I made whilst in Georgia, for some of my poems. I want to share them, but not the whole journal because it’s...
Posted by Katrina Beans on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 10:22:00 PST

Jeffrey McDaniels = awesome.

So, my friend posted a poem of his on LJ, and before that I had never heard of him, what a pity. But I have discovered him, and oh so lovely are his poems. A few I’d like to share with you, whoe...
Posted by Katrina Beans on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 04:27:00 PST

Hot baths are my new religion.

I am going to start taking more of them. Now is the time, and fall is finally here. Seriously. Hot. Baths.
Posted by Katrina Beans on Sat, 13 Oct 2007 08:29:00 PST

esoteric.

So, I am reading a book now called The Secret Life Of Bees. It's really wonderful, and tender, and I want to share some quotes with you.I started thinking about the world loaded with disguised Marys s...
Posted by Katrina Beans on Tue, 02 Oct 2007 11:38:00 PST

okay.

"You're carrying in your left pocket a red ribbon sprayed with her scent. You breathe it in sometimes when you think there's no one to see. But what you feel, what you feel could only be satisfied by ...
Posted by Katrina Beans on Mon, 24 Sep 2007 04:42:00 PST

Oh, what the heck.

1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. Do you have a crush on me? 5. Would you kiss me? 6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.7. Describe me in one word. 8. W...
Posted by Katrina Beans on Fri, 27 Jul 2007 11:21:00 PST

"I fell in love again, all things go; all things go..."

100 Random Questions1. Do you sleep with your wardrobe doors open or closed? Wardrobe& Doors&? 2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels? Hells yes! 3. Have you ever 'done it' ...
Posted by Katrina Beans on Mon, 16 Jul 2007 12:08:00 PST

Confess.

I was here at the booksale, at the library, and I came across the most amazing book, The COnfessions of Max Tivoli by Andrew Sean Greer. My god. It's just... stunning. Really. Here's some of my favori...
Posted by Katrina Beans on Sun, 08 Jul 2007 12:38:00 PST