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Léna

About Me

Tell me everything that nothing would, like a thousand cigarettes, one thousand sillhouettes that are not lit, in pockets.
.. I'm small, i never shut up, i'm deep, i know how you feel before you know what you feel, i'll tell you everything i don't want you to know about me and if your still there when i'm finished then were friends and your amazing. occasionally i get bruised on poles because i can't pole dance. i'm fiery and obsessive, strong and flimsy, critical, determined, blunt and emotional, I'm a dancer though i should really keep that behind closed doors, i'm a romantic, a poetic intense hopeless romantic, though i do love a good roll round in the bushes from time to time, my equivelant to beer is having a nude cigarette in the morning. i love raw carrots, fresh cakes, wide belts, sexy hair, hats, reading a book whilst walking only to look up and see a lamp post inches away from my face. i understand more than i can say and get frustrated with my lack of succinct mind mouth translation. i'm complicated and simply impossible to follow, i'm open hearted and want you to know me, but know no words will really do my experience justice. i dream of shutting up, but dreams are invented to tease and shatter. i'm an emotional sponge, feel free to squeeze me. one day i will own a rocking chair and a room with floor to ceiling wall to wall books and a dusty piano topped with candelabras.
I'm not sexy, i'm clumsy, i'm not funny, just deluded, i don't play any instruments any more despite what i might say when i'm drunk! i make up most of the words to songs i sing and sometimes i write my own which i will tell you are good, but don't humour me, i like to dream.
my dream is a camera and a snow covered landscape a million miles away from here with a tiny cottage on the top so the descent would be breathtaking and every time i returned home i would have to struggle uphill to deserve my comfort.
i am the girl with the pin, and i keep bursting my own bubble, one day i'll learn to put it away
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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Tori Amos, Josh Homme, Oscar wilde, George Orwell, the actor that plays peter petrelli, Noel fielding and David Mitchell.

My Blog

so full of nothing

the last few weeks have been unproductive, everything seems to have come to a standstill, in the midst of everything that was going on before i forgot to remember myself. it's strange to spend so much...
Posted by on Thu, 12 Mar 2009 17:58:00 GMT

My paste work guilt trip

If you want to twist and intern my insides so mallicely, i beg that you keep your foot focused on the ground they bear with me, i killed your child, i watch my kin, i encourage life and it affects me ...
Posted by on Mon, 23 Feb 2009 15:35:00 GMT

Time out

this is so rude, but i love it when there's no-one else around, i can sing gay songs from musicals and make stuff up, i get real down if i can't sing and lately i just haven't had enough time wit...
Posted by on Sat, 07 Apr 2007 02:35:00 GMT

EMOTIONAL BLACKMAIL and willies

why does everyone only care for one day a year about the issues on comic relief. i will not be emotionally blackmailed to give money to a charity that obviously has far too much money if it can afford...
Posted by on Fri, 16 Mar 2007 13:40:00 GMT

dear diary

seems i'm contemplative lately, and the heideggel theory on my dissertation is far beyond me. dissertation is messy, too broader area, must start from scratch minus my knew found theory. must get into...
Posted by on Sun, 11 Mar 2007 17:57:00 GMT

do rats jump?

after work and locking myself out my flat for 2 hours i decided a curry would be a great idea. bought a 10kg sack of rice from the wholesellers on the way home and cleaned the relevant utensils, only ...
Posted by on Sun, 11 Mar 2007 12:59:00 GMT

welcome to the playground

hot on the heals of the release of the 400d is the noncolant spec that has enraged me. there is little question as to who is giving the everyday joe the idea that owning the latest piece of photograph...
Posted by on Thu, 23 Nov 2006 05:31:00 GMT

strange

strange we miss people more than just seeing them. we miss time with them, time spent argueing, shouting, putting the world to rights, this great mix of positive negative biproducts of being together....
Posted by on Mon, 13 Nov 2006 06:56:00 GMT

and one more thing

and i forgot to say, i love it when this happens, i love it when life is really busy. you apreciate all that wasted time, and get to enjoy the pleasures of fulfilling targets, i like the feeling of th...
Posted by on Mon, 09 Oct 2006 01:35:00 GMT

another day, another pile of notes

well, well, definitely more mobile now. life is ... busy, time is scarce, days are organised, diary is always close at hand, books are undusted, pens are re-inked, work is plentiful, sleep is minimal,...
Posted by on Mon, 09 Oct 2006 01:28:00 GMT