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[A]
A Change Of Pace
A Love Ends Suicide
A Perfect Circle
A Static Lullaby
A Thorn For Every Heart
The Academy Is...
Acceptance
Aerosmith
Adair
AFI
Aiden
Alesana
Allister
Amber Pacific
Amon Amarth
Anna Nalick
Anti-Flag
The Aphex Twins
Armor For Sleep
Augustana
Avenged Sevenfold
Avril Lavigne
[B]
Bad Astronaut♥
Bayside
The Beach Boys
The Beatles
Beyonce
Blindside
Blink 182
blessthefall
Bloc Party
Bloodlined Calligraphy
Boy Kill Boy
Boys Like Girls
Boys Night Out
The Bravery
Breaking Benjamin
Bullet For My Valentine
[C]
The Caesars
The Cars
Catherine
The Casualties
Chiodos
Ciara
Circa Survive
The Clash
The Classic Crime
Coheed And Cambria
Coldplay
Cradle Of Filth
The Cranberries
Crash Romeo
Crucified Barbara
The Cure
[D]
Dashboard Confessional
Dead To Fall
Dead To Me
Death Cab For Cutie
Dirty Rig
The Doors
Drop Dead, Gorgeous
Drowning Pool
[E]
Emery
Eminem
Entropy
Endless Hallway
Endwell
Escape The Fate
Evanescence
[F]
The Falcon
The Fall Of Troy
Faulter
Fear Before The March Of Flames
Fergie
The Finalist
Finch
Flyleaf
The Format
The Fray
♥From First To Last♥
Funeral For A Friend
[G]
Gin Blossoms
Good Charlotte
Grace Gale
Green Day
Guns N Roses
Gwen Stefani
[H]
Halifax
Hawthorne Heights
Hellogoodbye
Hinder
[I]
I Am Ghost
Ice Nine Kills
Incubus
Inhale Exhale
It Dies Today
[J]
Jack's Mannequin
Jet
The Juliana Theory
Justin Timberlake
Just Surrender
[K]
The Killers
Knack
Kylie Minogue
[L]
Lacuna Coil
Letterkills
Linkin Park
Local H
LoveHateHero
[M]
M.I.A
Marilyn Manson
The Matches
Mest
Michelle Branch
The Misfits
Motion City Soundtrack
My Chemical Romance
[N]
Nine Black Alps
No Doubt
Norma Jean
[O]
Oasis
OKGO
[P]
Papa Roach
Panic! At The Disco
Paramore
Pilot
Pizzicato Five
Plain White T's
POD
[Q]
Queen
[R]
The Ramones
Red Hot Chili Peppers
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Refused
Reggie And The Full Effect
The Romantics
Rory
Roses Are Red
[S]
Saliva
Saosin
Scary Kids Scaring Kids
Self Against City
Senses Fail
The Sex Pistols
She Wants Revenge
Shiny Toy Guns
Silverstein
Slipknot
Sonny Moore
Smile Empty Soul
The Sounds
Sparta
Squeeze
Stars Are Falling
Story Of The Year
The Subways
Sugarcult
Sum 41
The Summer Obsession
Switchfoot
System Of A Down
[T]
Taking Back Sunday
This Providence
Three Days Grace
Trapt
[U]
UnderOATH
The Used
[V]
Vanna
Velvet Revolver
The Vengaboys
The Veronicas
[W]
We Are Scientists
Wilco
The White Stripes
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[Y]
[Z]
Zebrahead
M O V I E S
Fever Pitch♥
The Departed♥♥
Code Name: The Cleaner♥
Monsters Inc.♥
War Of The Worlds♥♥
The Benchwarmers
Spiderman
Spinal Tap
Welcome To The Dollhouse♥
Cheaper By The Dozen
Wedding Crashers
The Devil Wears Prada
Click♥
Titanic
Anchorman♥
The Notebook
The Breakfast Club♥♥
The 40 Year Old Virgin
You, Me, And Dupree
Dodgeball♥♥♥
Indiana Jones
T V S H O W S
STEVEN'S UNTITLED ROCK SHOW♥♥♥
Seinfeld♥
Beauty And The Geek♥
Mad TV
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What I Like About You♥
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My Poems
NOTE: THESE ARE ALL WRITTEN BY ME. THEY I WRITE SAD POEMS. WHY? I LIKE TO. GET OVER IT. IF YOU LIKE ANY, FEEL FREE TO GIVE ME SOME PROPS :)
Harlequin High
Shame on you for using my like this.
Thanks for watching as my life became unstitched.
Now when I look at you all I see is one dumb bitch
Who you call your girlfriend and you love her to death
And you? You're addicting. You're my fucking meth.
No matter how much you treat me like shit
I always come back for more of it.
You put me on a harlequin high
and you were supposed to be like this PERFECT guy.
But now who are you? What's your name.
Your truths are all lies. You're covered in SHAME.
Fake
Trapped in a dream that I can't escape.
No one is real. We're all just fake.
Caught between the truth and a lie.
Crash on the floor; Another failed attempt to fly.
Worshipping what we're supossed to be.
Modeling the image we see on TV.
Six feet tall and razor thin.
Perfect figure, unblemished skin.
Who can possibly look this way
Without putting make-up on all day?
Making everyone feel like shit
Just because they can't resemble it.
This perfect image we're supposed to be.
This perfect image is so not me.
Champagne
Calling out to you
Slowly falling through.
Your image hasn't faded.
My thoughts of you, so jaded.
Face to face with the nothing I've become.
My soul's threads unravel 'til they're all undone.
I could never love who I hate.
My sould is black, my pain is fate.
Wake me up before I die.
Tears and sadness, truths and lies.
Being killed by my memories
Slowly dying, it's my destiny.
Drowning myself in champagne
It goes to my brain like cocaine.
Fanning my internal desire
It's the match I used to set myself on fire.
I listen to your inarticulate lies.
Grounding my spirits that once used to fly.
Walking down my lonely path,
As my soul feels my angry wrath.
Sitting Alone
So, here I am. Crying over you.
Sitting alone. Are you thinking of me too?
Getting tired of the same old song.
Just trying hard to move along.
Suicide
She doesn't fit in with the crowd.
Her hair is too short and she's a little too loud.
She loses all the friends she makes.
She's too real, while they're all too fake.
She doesn't think the way they think.
Her thoughts are different then 'boys' and 'pink'.
One thought of originality
Is screaming suicide, basically.
She's not a label. She's herself.
While others try to impress everyone else.
She used to be the last in line.
But, now she's defined herself, and she's doing just fine.
You
Looking up into the sky
On the ground silhouettes and shadows lie.
Your haunting face breaks my heart.
It's cold as ice, it tears me apart.
Your bloodshot eyes send chills up my spine.
All your empty smiles, they're worse than mine.
Your crooked smile, so useless and fake.
All night, thoughts of you keep me awake.
You'd talk to me in inarticulate ways.
These thoughts of you stay in my head for days.
You say you're just a normal kid.
But, you're really the monster that hides under my bed.
End Of Story
Love me, hate me, steal my heart.
Emotions, tears flowing, rip me apart.
Put a bullet through my head.
You might as well call me dead.
Kiss me, thrill me, fucking kill me.
In the end, rip my fucking heart out. End of story.
EX-BOYFRIENDS
Scribble in my shallow heart with your fake love.
I don't want to fake something that never was.
Over and over in my head.
Crying about it while lying in bead.
My salty tears drip onto the pillow along with my blood too.
All of this is happening because of you.
I get up, walk to the mirror, and look at my face.
As I begin crying again in disgrace.
Pain and fear run through my mind.
Stuck with the painful bind
of knowing you hate me now
and I just don't know how.
Back to the bathroom to cut once more
I end up screaming in pain while lying on the floor.
Gasping for breath, trying to speak.
I had soon realized I'd cut too deep.
Home alone and no where to go.
One thing I know:
I'm about to die without your love.
Now I wish we could've faked something that never was.
Sad Song
I feel the pain you left inside.
Memories and fears begin to collide.
Wondering whether I'll survive.
But, I know I got to try.
You won't ever see me cry.
That's just weakness in your eyes.
I'm sick and tired of all the lies.
I'm out the door. I'm saying 'goodbye'.
Stop the pain. Make it go away.
I can feel it every single day.
You know what you did to make me feel this way.
Don't try to undo what you say.
You won't ever see me cry.
That's just weakness in your eyes.
I'm sick and tired of all the lies.
I'm out the door. I'm saying 'goodbye'.
Baby, you know what you do.
And you know it hurts me too.
That's why I know I got to get over you.
You won't ever see me cry.
That's just weakness in your eyes.
I'm sick and tired of all the lies.
I'm out the door. I'm saying 'goodbye'.
I know you love me....
Short Poetic Song
I don't want to cry.
I hope it'll all be fine.
God, I'm so scared!
I want to wake up from this nightmare!
Don't tell me when I'm right.
Just correct me when I'm wrong.
Look at the fear you caused me.
It's why I'm writing this song.
Am I Writing About Myself?
She crawls into bed
with the voices in her head.
She cries out "Please no more!"
as she wipes off the fake face she wore.
She breaks down and cries
as tears drip through her bloodshot eyes.
She wonders if she'll ever be O.K.
and if this pain will ever go away.
She tries to tell herself "It's not me! It's him!"
and suddenly the light flickers and the room is dim.
She sits alone in a room so dark.
So quiet she can here the dogs outside bark.
She just wants to tell the whole world to 'shut up'.
When magically all of the lights come up.
And it's such a tragedy to see
in the end: this girl is me.
Poem About My Grandma
Have you ever seen an angel cry?
Have you ever seen a person die?
Then you don't know the pain I feel inside.
When the most holy woman you know
might die and you don't want to let her go.
Then you'll know.
When your grandma, who's getting old
has cancer, that's what she's told.
Then you'll feel the way I do: Cold.
I love her! I don't want to lose her yet!
But, cancer is a risky bet.
And not a lot of people win.
It crawls right under your skin.
I have to stay strong for Mom, though.
I'm sure she doesn't want to let her go.
She's not to old. Just 76...
I just wish cancer was easy to fix.
One Goddamn Happy Poem
The way you make me feel it drives me insane.
I want you to love me and feel no pain.
At night my mind begins to wander as I get images
of me and you mounted in my memory.
Thoughts of us holding hands, laughing, giggling, acting stupid together.
I can see it so clearly! I just can't believe it!
You're almost mine, but it's about that time
I start talking to you and making you understand.
If only you knew
my feelings towards you
and if only I knew what you felt.
I'm trying so hard to get up enough courage to talk to you.
But, I have so much trouble.
See, you're not like other guys.
When I see you my heart literally skips a beat
and slows down at the same time.
I want to be able to talk to you.
I really care, so much about you.
Freak Show (Public Display)
You don't know what I feel inside.
You don't get what makes me cry.
I'm done with you. I need you to go.
I'm sick and tired of this freak show.
You said you'd spend your life with me.
But now I don't think we could ever be.
How stupid I was for choosing you.
How foolish I was, but I'll make do.
You had to take up my love.
Guys are impossible to trust.
I'm done with you. I need you to go.
I'm sick and tired of this freak show.
We're on public display
Not giving a fuck what all these people say.
People voting on whether we'll last.
Well, the results are in. The votes are cast.
With out these people screaming our names
and without all the pressure of fame.
Say 'I love you' or I'll need you to go.
I'm sick and tired of this fucking freak show!
You heard me. Sick and tired of all your lies.
Say it now, or say 'good-bye'.
I'm done with you. I need you to go.
I'm sick and tired of this freak show.
Cool Little Thing
Here I am, all by myself.
Why'd you do this to me?
I thought that you loved me so.
I don't know why you let me go.
I feel it every single day.
The pain keeps driving me insane.
Hoping that I'll be O.K.
But, I know it's not the same.
Damage on my broken heart.
Tearing me fragile ego apart.
Ripping away my dignity.
Why did you do this to me?
My Rooftop Thoughts
My soul is as black as the sky I see.
Thinking of whether you think of me.
Sitting on my rooftop. Moving on from you.
Wondering why I waste my tears on what you do.
The cold wind brushes my flushed face.
It seems to lift off my feelings of disgrace.
The stillness of the night
Just feels so right.
Staring at the stars, just wishing I could fly.
Fixing my heart. Moving onto another guy.
Getting rid of all my fear.
I guess my depression with guys ends here.
Sheltered in this tiny, little box
All because of the pain you cause.
But, I'm finally breaking free
and letting go of my misery.
I thought, this whole time, the pain was from you.
But, I came to realize it wasn't anything you say or do.
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B F F L S ♥
Mel: OMG! We have had WAYY too many gtz, kidd! I had fun with you in the back of my mom's car (singing FFTL and attempting screamo, of course), making fun of Voot™, Assface, FIG, and Zitface/Hunchfunk, or drooling over Sonny & Matt. You're amazinngggg and I fucking love you to DEATHHHH! Biffles for lifee :>
John K: Johnny K!! I love you soo much! You're like a brother to me and I know you'll always have my back. We're so close that we known EVERYTHINNGG about eachother (and then some...) You're wicked cool and you mean a lot to me :>
Leanne: Ohmyfuckinggod! You are the coolest whoreee I've ever known!! You are my fucking life! We never have a borinngg moment together. We're ALWAYS laughing at something (and it's probably something stupid!) Goodtimes laughing like a donkey with you, laughing for 10 straight minutes on the phone, writing shit in the notebook, 'tutoring' you in Math in pretty much EVERY study, and coming up with stupid nicknames for eachother. Rozzi Whore ♥ Westie Slut 4 life :>
Amber: Okay, so we didn't talk for pretty much the whole beginning of the year, but that's okay =] You're one of the most amazing people I've ever met and idk what I'd do without you as a bffl
Fredy: You anal rape me many times and I still keep coming back for more!! jk lol gtz on the bus :>
Kristine: Haha, so you're pretty much my fucking therapist
John S: Sometimes I love you, other times I'm not very fond of you. In the end, you're one of the most AMAZINNG guys I know
Sam M: Where do I start?? You're the bestest, cooliest, spedest person I know :> You're soo fucking funny and we've had SMGTS in History && at Lunch. Love ya lots, kiddo♥
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