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GodI doubt anyones gunna read this but im used to to it now.Ive been on the edge lately and no matter how hard i try to ignore the signs...it eats my heart away every second of the day.I keep my phone on me at all times...lookin at it every few minz or so to see if i get a text or hopefully a call.I get tense and nervous everytime i hear it vibrate or ring...wanting to speak but afraid at da same time not knowing if it was dat "time".I try to keep myself busy constantly becuzz i think of all the things from da first day till now.i remember things that u prolly been forgot...little things to big things.Everything is gradually fallen apart no matter how much effort i put in....my efforts tend to only work for a brief period of time then crumble to nothingness.I used to run wild in my head with thoughts of you..but now im crawling as if my legs were broke...but in reality only thing dats broke is my heart.Ive been in denial...not blind to see the truth but more like covering my eyes...becuzz i dnt wanna see the truth.Now i back down and accept the truth.I cnt run from it anymore...it was bound to catch me sooner or later.Ive tried to stall it as long as i cud juss to keep what I loved.Everyday i knew it cud be the last...the signs began to get clearer and clearer.I understand now that I am just turning into a memory of once was...and now not.Ive feared this moment for so long and now Im face to face with it....i guess i had to be put back in my place of being a "loner".