Wistful over lost conversations |
Have pretty much stopped crying but I can't say I've got the old zeal for life. There's still no rainbow over the horizon for me and goddamnit! I miss talking to him. I miss our conversations so much ...
Posted by toni on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST |
im broken |
It's 4am and I can't sleep. I can't eat I can't even lie down to read a book. I can't do anything with myself. My soul is restless. I am seriously grieving this and not a few people will think that it...
Posted by toni on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST |
Aftermath |
Yesterday I received an email from him that seemed impersonal and utterly brief. Needless to say that it felt like a very polite brush off. I repied asking him if he was indeed doing so and if that wa...
Posted by toni on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST |
Drawing to reluctant acceptance |
Yesterday I got reacquainted with that rotten feeling of losing someone you placed so much hope on would be the ONE. I heard his voice for the first time yesterday and I was so sad that it had to be u...
Posted by toni on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST |
this sucky feeling that I know I did not miss |
I was sad for most of this day today. Maybe I tried to compensate for this by laughing my ass off with some co-workers. But yea, I was sad alright. I couldn't even sleep well. I came to the office rea...
Posted by toni on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST |
SO is it CRUNCHTIME? |
I'm going through a rough patch again. Only 9 days to go till the supposed romantic rendezvous at Bora. All the details are supposed to be taken care of but then the most important part of this trip i...
Posted by toni on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST |
A smile on my face and a spring to my step. |
Been Awhile since I dropped a line here. Perhaps it has to do with the fact that someone has been making me happier than usual lately. Doesn't matter if he's 20,000 miles away. He just changed the way...
Posted by toni on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST |
blah blah blah i'm starting to ROT |
Been under a lot of stress lately. I've come to REALLY loathe my job. Oh well, perhaps its time to leave.
Been really lonely recently. It seems I can no longer deceive myself that this is ENOUGH.
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Posted by toni on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST |
ho hum |
I can see a dark cloud looming over my head and I can't see shelter
Posted by toni on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST |
About Stumbling into Old Bad Habits and starting new ones |
I could not explain exactly as to why I'd been lethally jonesin' on him the days that followed Christmas and it's as if the universe, or the forces that be, conspired to try to bring us back to the pl...
Posted by toni on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST |
