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Evil has many faces. None moreso deadly then the face of virtue

About Me

I've just decided i need a new direction in life. At the ripe old age of 33, i made up my mind i needed a new outlook and my first step was to leave my job-a career in a industry i have been in for the last 14 years and tackle something new! For me it was something i knew i HAD to do. This left me with an unexpected experience that i thought i couldn't properly appreciate-was i wrong! What was also totally unexpected was how easy the transition was. It not also reinforced my idea to tackle change, but it also gave me the strength to follow through. Most importantly though, i realised that i had a choice. In fact, there had ALWAYS been a choice. Nothing is ever set. I've re-discovered myself in the last 6 months, made new friends and put a new life plan into action. 12 months ago, i would of laughed at you if you had of suggested i was going to do something as radical as this. Now i realise it was courage that i was lacking moreso then confidence. There is nothing that cannot be done, no matter how distant or difficult it may seem at the time.Personal experience has taught me change to some, can be a very daunting experience. The little comfort zones that some of us have worked so hard to create for ourselves, WILL NOT be placed at risk for the sake of an IDEA. If this sounds familar, i am not ashamed to say that i was EXACTLY in that frame of mind. Then i tried something that i had been neglecting for too long, i listened to my instinct-and what a revelation it was. No matter how absurd or risky it seemed, it gave me the courage to charge ahead. Most of the doubts that i had, were totally invented out of my own fears and insecurities. As usual they were nowhere near as impending as i had imagined. I'm a very firm beleiver that instinct and conscious where brothers seperated at birth. For me and against all external advise to the contray, it was the internal instinct that not only reassured my decision was the correct one, but gave me the inner strength to carry through. To truelly feel a sense of accomplishment, you HAVE to take risks, you've GOT to push yourself. Otherwise nothing will change and those days and weeks, will so quickly clock over into months and years. Some may read this and ridcule, other may just assume im gloating. It couldn't be further from the truth. All i can i say is that this is an experience that i thought i could not go through with. I thought i had already peeked and either had no choices, or an extremely limited array. What i never realised was that there was always a choice. I will never again let anyone tell me otherwise.Those that do have already anchored themselves with resentment and will do whatever they can to keep company. Hence the saying "misery loves company". I also beleive some people live by this, because of their own insecurities. Incredibly, some of those people call themselves "friends". To those i say karma does exsist. Draw up a path and dont let anyone stop you. If you can dream it, you can live it.Remember, we wont get another chance. Surround yourself with people who make you laugh, who arnt afraid to show love, who dont hide their tears and encourage you to be better then themselves. These are your true friends. Follow the path you set yourself and ignore the naysayers. Only one other person can tell you otherwise. That person usually hides in the nearest mirror.There is nothing worse then living in regret : )

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Posted by on Sat, 23 Dec 2006 20:55:00 GMT